i'm hosribs.

gogn hme nw.

stupid meds making me insomniac and sick. cant see dr till tues. stupid everything.
feel icky.
want to die.
make it all go away.

you're not horrible Jess.

*cuddles effervescence*

*checks herself back in*
Had therapy today...2nd appt with this person. Lots of questions...talked about "bad" things, sex and girl stuff. I was okay when we had the conversation but now I'm not. Not supposed to talk about that stuff, its dirty. I'm dirty for talking about it, bad, deserve to be punished for talking about bad things.
*finds a pillow, pulls it over head*

*lays on the floor and reels in pain*
OWWWWWWW my head!!!!

*thinks to self I could slit my wrist
or down a bottle of pills and nobody would
know... I seem to be alone in the psych ward
tonight*

*hugs jess, sophie, chloe and mango*

*hugs jess, sophie, chloe, mango, AND susan*

*sits in her nest and mopes*

*hugs all*
*scoots over next to Bound by Thoughts* Not alone

the ward seems unusually quiet tonight...
not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing...
*curls up and rocks alone in corner and sucks thumb*

curls up around her stuffed pig Fred-fred and looks sadly out into the ward

*offers Susan a snuggle*

*sits in her corner, knees to chest, arms wrapped around knees, head on knees and stares vacantly at the wall*

Guys, we all seem to be doing so awful and it worries me... And makes me sad... Especially since I see all of you saying how useless or bad or whatever you are, when I can see how lovely and kind, and caring you are... Love you guys.

Love you too God mommy

you guys are wonderufl,. all of u. reaching out to help eah toehr when feeling bad. *hugs*

Jess I see you... And dear heart, I love you and truely believe that you are valuable and helpful and kind...

And I'm going to stop posting because I am SO out of it for whatever reason I don't know...
:crying:
Damn

*swamsp allyw ith hugs* ur wonderifl. lov u ltos.


*goes back in cupbaord and locks selfin gain*

Where is everyone tonight?
the ward is virtually empty...
*cries* I'm all alone...

*runs to hug her daddy*
I am not alone!!! Being alone is scary :-(