Thanks Kitty *hugs* Trouble is, I have too many favourite memories, will have to include those too :D Thank you :D

No problem. Glad I could help. -hugs again-

I'm back :) I just said goodbye to Sharron my Nurse , I'm going to miss her SO much , I'm tearful . :S

*Hugs Kitty* Please look after your wounds .

*Hugs Helen* Thats a wonderful idea :)

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you?

*Hugs Willow*

Wb mark. how did your appointment go?

So I took my sleeping meds but I am not tired enough to sleep. I am tired but my eyes don't want to shut and stay that way. It's frustrating. I'm thinking about taking more.

*hugs Kitty and Mark*

Thanks Mark, I hope she likes it. Won't fill everything up, but hopefully enough that she likes :D If that makes sense!!

-hugs heleen back-

We chatted a bit , she didn't want our last appointment for a year to be a full blown session , We said goodbye , She gave me a Christmas card and I gave her a New Baby card , We said Happy holidays , she told me not to give up fighting and we hugged goodbye , I did get to tell her I'll miss her :) which is good .

That's good mark. Glad you had a good last appointment for a year.

-hugs mark and helen-

I think I'm going to head out for the night (morning rather it is 5:11 am after all) my eyes are getting heavier now and I can't focus on the screen anymore. Hope you all have a good day. PM me if you need to. xx

Kitty , be careful Hun , You don't want to take too many sleeping pills .

*Hugs Kitty* Sleep well :)

Sleep well Kitty *hugs*

Mark *hugs* Awww that's so sweet x

That's lovely, Mark.

Sleep well, Kitty.

How are you today, Helen?

I'm rather excited today Lindsay, how re you?

*Hugs ward*

You know, I feel so much better about feeling depressed and this life since I read somewhere that depression is like 'a dementor following you around everywhere and wearing a horcrux around your neck that tells you you're worthless'. I can certainly relate to that part, and it's like there's a dementor here right now, although I should be happy about Christmas and all. I also found out JK (Rowling) suffered with depression. That shouldn't make me feel better but it does. I feel like there's a horcrux in me. There's this badness that I can't shake.

You alright Lindey?

Good Helen :) What you excited about?

I'm glad you got your goodbye Mark :) That can make things so much easier.

Kitty, Helen's right, I lost someone. I don't feel it like I should, not even now, 5 months on. There's no right or wrong way to feel.

*Hugs all again*

*Hugs Lia* I'm a Bit dense when it comes to HP But thats a good analogy . How are you , Dementor and Horcrux and all?

Well aside from my pesky dementor and unshakable horcrux, I'm alright. I went on a hotline last night and they calmed me down. By the end of the conversation I had put down the pills and stopped considering OD at any rate. I've just spent the past half an hour on JK's website. Time well spent.

How are you Mark?

Thats good that you got some help Lia :) Time well spent , neat.

I'm numb , considering going to bed just to lay there for 20 minites , I'm sick of being numb and sick of feeling the NEED to S.I. but I am feeling better , not Fantastic , not even good but my mood has picked up yesterday and today , which is something to look upon as a good thing I suppose :) *Tries to be positive*

*Hugs Mark* Glad you're feeling at least slightly better. I was comforted in the fact that JK suffered from depression, because she's really successful now, so it can be overcome :)

That is good to know .Depression can be overcome *Hugs Lia*

*hugs ward*
I'll actually read posts once I wake up a bit, and shake off my nightmare.
Just wanted to pop in and say hi... so.. hi!

*Hugs Felicia* I'm sorry you had a nightmare hun *Puts on the kettle for coffee to help you wake up*

*Hugs Felicia.* Nightmare suck. I had one last night.

Thanks, Mark. Nightmares happen though. I'll be okay.
I need to go to the post office, but I can't get down my road. damn.
So instead I'm going to watch tv, and wish for millions of things.

Oh Lia *Hugs* That sounds horrible , I'm sorry you had that nightmare :(

It's kinda hard to shift from my mind, but I wrote it in my diary. Hopefully I can shake it soon. Still, on the bright side it was morning when I woke up so I didn't have to go back to sleep.

*snuggles felicia* here if want :)
*hugs anyone who wants*

Love the analogy btw lia *squish*

*Hugs Heather* How are you today? The analogy made me feel better :)

*Squishes Heather* How are you hun?

*snuggles ward* had to tell my counsellor everything today. I felt awful :(

*Hugs Sarah* Are you feeling any better now?

*Huggles Sarah* awh Hun I'm sorry you felt like that , how do you feel now?

I feel good now, relief mostly that its not my fault I'm like this. Daren't re-dress my leg though, isn't going to be pleasnt to do. Will ask my fiance to look at it later, make sure its okay and shiz. *cuddles Mark and Lia*

I have to go for a bit, ward. *cuddles*

*sigh*
Come on Festive spirit ,I'm still waiting for you.........

*hugs mark*

I finally have a little festive spirit :) And my dementor seems to have been chased away by a patronus...for now. The horcrux is still there though. The horcrux is always there.

*Hugs Sarah* Glad you're feeling a bit better :) Do look after your cuts. ANd you're right, it's not your fault you are like this. It's not my fault I am, but I rarely believe that and I know I will just hate myself again later.

*Hugs Felicia* stay safe.

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Lia*

Is a patronus a HP thing too Lia? , I looked it up and it said I was a Roman social function or a Roman who still held power over a freed slave

Haha its like a protective shield... Ish

Lol, yeah, what Heather said, not the dictionary. It's a protective charm that banishes dementors, it always takes the shape of an animal that means something to the person who conjures it. It can also be used to carry messages, although they can't speak. You should read Harry Potter Mark. Your life will be magical.

I would love to have the concentration to read Lia. I can't even watch a film . Nothing Gets. to . the . point . fast enough , Even a 25 minute Sitcom I have to pause and do something 3-4 times an episode , Maybe Father Christmas will bring me a hefty batch of concentration for Christmas ? :)

Hi *waves*

Hey Willow *waves back* How are you?

Hey willow :)
*hugs mark*

*Squishes Heather* <3 How are you hun? Sorry if you've said already :S

Willow , I'm sorry you feel the urge to S.I. I hate that feeling and totally empathise , is there anything you can do to distract yourself? Listen to some upbeat music perhaps? Watch some "Nice" T.V. , read a favourite book , chat here ?
Are hugs okay with you Willow?

yes hugs are ok with me.
I will stick a round here and chat .
How are you ?