There are times when I'm just a shell
When I do not feel anything for anyone
All I feel is hollow and bruised
Used up and misused
Forced to be someone I don't want to be
Have I failed somehow or some way
Will the weight of today finally pull me down to drown
In the depths of despair
Where I am alone
Except for my rage

My rage
My pain
I hate my darkest days

I know the mornings going to hurt
but **** it cause i know this works

is this all my fault that i need a sign like shooting stars
to help connect the dots and turn my cuts to scars?

(Don't go) I never wanted anybody more, than I wanted you.
(I know) The only thing I ever really loved, was hurting you.
(Don't go) I never wnated anybody more, than I wanted you.
(I know) The only thing I ever really loved was HATE

You say i'm stuck somewhere back in between
My blured memories
Some say I kicked myself right in the face
I'm not as I seem.

I'd erase what you say
Scramble words in the way
But you can't take away
Turn away
Run away
**** with me

Don't say that its over
I'd kill to be closer
A moment i'm passing to you
But to me
I will wait
And i'll take
Anything with your name
Don't say that its over
You can't live without me

You say theres something wrong in my head
So I like to bleed
You say i'm scaring you now but i'm tired
From watching you sleep

I'd erase what you say
Scramble words in the way
But you can't take away
Turn away
Run away
**** with me

Don't say that it's over
I'd kill to be closer
A moment i'm passing to you
But to me
I will wait
And ill take
Anything with your name
Don't say that its over
You can't live without me
Live without me
Live without me

But you can't take away
Turn away
Run away
**** with me

Don't say that it's over
Don't say that it's over
I'd kill to be closer

Dont say that it's over
I'd kill to be closer
A moment im passing to you
But to me
I will wait
And i'll take
Anything with your name
Dont say that its over
You cant live without me
(Don't say that its over)
You cant live without me
(Don't say that its over)
You cant live without me
(Don't say that its over)
I'd kill to be closer
I'd kill to be closer
You can't live without me

I can't save your life
Though nothing I bleed for is more tormenting
I'm losing my mind
And you just stand there and stare as my world divides

Na na na na na na na

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
'Cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Oooh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you, goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again, I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me
'Cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Oooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

She seems dressed in all the rings
Of past fratalities,
So fragile yet so devious,
She consents to see.
Climatic hands that press,
Her temples in my chest,
Enter the night that she came home,
Forever

Oooooh
She's the only one that makes me Saaaaad.

She is everything and more,
The solemn hypnotic,
My dalya bathed in possession,
She is onto me.
I get nervous, perverse,
when I see her it's worse,
But the stress is astounding.
It's now or never she's coming home,
Forever

Ooooooooh
She's the only one that makes me sad

Hard to say what caught my attention,
Fixed and crazy,
Aphid attraction.
Carve my name in my face,
to recognise, such a pheromone cult
To terrorize

I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of meeeeeeeah

AAAARGH
I'm a slave and I am a master
No restraints and unchecked collectors
I EXIST TO MY NEED, to self-oblige,
She is something in me,
That I despise

I won't let this build up inside of me,
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

She isn't real, I can't make her real.
She isn't real, I can't make her.......REAL.

She isn't real, I can't make her real I can't make her real
She isn't real, I can't make her real I can't make her real

So sick, so sick of being tired
And oh so tired of being sick

s of now I'm down straight up
And I can turn to the box for some peace
Or a box for a piece
Or a box for a smoke
But they're all gonna choke me
[2x]

You're so crazy [3x]
Enough in a way that I'll probably say you destroyed me

It's like a ****ing drug deal
I'm sitting here waiting
I'm calling you back
and you won't call me back
and it's ****ed up, but at the same time it just made me want you even worse.

For awhile I was cleaner than now
Then I started to destroy myself
With things that I love now the things that I hate
Until it finally broke me

You're so crazy [3x]
Enough in a way that I'll probably say you destroyed me

**** my ass [x2]
Choke me [x3]

As of now I'm down straight up
And I can turn to the box for some peace
Or a box for a piece
Or a box for a smoke
But they're all gonna choke me

You're so crazy [3x]
Enough in a way that I'll probably say you destroyed me

i'm not the person that i thought that i would be

You are all ****ed and over-rated,
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault.
This is the End of Everything
You are the End of Everything

I haven't slept since i woke up
and found my whole life was a lie mother****er.
This is the End of Everything
You are the End of Everything

It's just a little crush

This time the bullet cold rocked ya
A yellow ribbon instead of a swastika
Nothin' proper about ya propaganda
Fools follow the rules when the set commands ya
They said it was blue
When the boold was red
That's is how you got a bullet blasted through your head

Blasted through your head
Blasted through your head

I give a shout out to the living dead
Who stood and watched at the feds cold centralized
So serene on the screen
You was mesmerized
Cellular phones soundin' a death tone
Corporations cold
Turn ya to stone before you realize

They load the clip in omnicolor
They pack the 9, they fire it at prime time
Sleeping gas, every home was like Alcatraz
And mutha ****as lost their minds

Just victims of the in-house drive-by
They say jump, you say how high

They load the clip in omnicolor
They pack the 9, they fire it at prime time
Sleeping gas, every home was like Alcatraz
And mutha ****as lost their minds

No escape from the mass mind rape
Play it again jack and then rewind the tape
Play it again and again and again
Until ya mind is locked in
Believin' all the lies that they are tellin' ya
Buying all the products that they are selling ya
They say jump
Ya say how high
Ya brain dead
Ya gotta ****in' bullet in your head

Just victims of the in-house drive-by
They say jump, you say how high

Ya standin' in line
Believin' the lies
Ya bowin' down to the flag
Ya got a ****in' bullet in ya head

You're taking sides.
You're 'wrong' or 'right'.
You're 'run' or 'fight'.
Your choice.

You're taking sides.

I feel like reading books is
Wrapping me up in layers of history.
Layers of history.

And I feel like singing songs is
Wrapping me up in layers of history,
Layers of history.

You're holding hands.
You're making kids.
You're growing old.
Dying.

Everything you do,
Now matter how small it might seem to you,
Affects something else.
Trust me, it's true.

'Cos I feel like being here is
Wrapping me up in layers of history,
Layers of history.

And I feel like seeing this is
Wrapping me up in layers of history,
Layers of history.

I feel like breathing in is
Wrapping me up in layers of history,
Layers of history.

Just simply existing is
Wrapping me up in layers of history,
Layers of history.

I feel like being here is
Wrapping me up in layers of history,
Layers of history.

I feel like feeling this is
Wrapping me up in layers of history,
Layers of history.

Clean up before she comes
Living in a dusty town

Something in her eyes
Must be the smoke from my lungs

I must be getting old - I must be getting older
I'm starting to eat my vegetables

Something in her eyes
Must be the smoke from my lungs

Clean up the dusty town
Living in a dusty town
Clean up before she comes
Living in a dusty town

I must be getting old - I must be getting older
I'm starting to eat my vegetables

Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much
And never will I have to
Answer again to anyone

Please don't get me wrong
Because I’ll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

One day you'll get sick of
Saying that everything’s alright
And by then I’m sure I'll be
Pretending just like I am tonight..."
((Let This Go, Paramore))

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cause I fear I might break
and I fear I can't take it
Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty...
((Pressure, Paramore))

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

Bayside - I Can't Go On
I can’t go on
Deflate the air from both
of my lungs
Fears one by one
Followed me home
And became reality
I'm a failure
I'm a freak
I'm a chip on your shoulder
The last thing you need
Shudder, earth quakes at the thought
Of a life that’s meaningless
And with such a promising past
But you can always count on me
To choke the end

I can’t go on
Deflate the air
From both
Of my lungs
I’ll be gone
Long before daylight shows its face

Honestly I'm
Taking big strides
In a race towards normalcy
Where more is more
And less is weak
Where love is crap, emotion speaks
For us all
What’s really right
Who’s who to say
I can survive alone again
Figured that out the hardest way
The forecast calls for fire
Flames sound nice today

I can’t go on
Deflate the air from both
Of my lungs
Ill be gone
Long before daylight shows its face
It's old and worn
And it's mouth smiles no more
Well I'm worth my weight in potting soil
Maybe I try to hard to care

I left a note on your bed
I don’t recall what it said
It's something like
“I'm completely miserable
And I'm better off dead”

I can’t go on
Deflate the air from both
Of my lungs
Ill be gone
Long before daylight shows its face
It's old and worn
And it's mouth smiles no more
Well I'm worth my weight in potting soil
Maybe I try to hard to care

I can’t go on
Deflate the air from both
Of my lungs

I can’t go on
Deflate the air from both
Of my lungs

I can’t go on

tuesday wakes up silent
and there aren't enough pills to sleep
...
I wake up every morning
From the same dream
And then I kill it
But you can't change the letters when the ink dries

I woke up on the sidewalk and everything just changed
Now the lights are blinking but I can't see anything

Everything is falling apart:
Crumpled paper
Crushed tin cans
Broken bottles
Paper scraps

Still sitting there with your legs crossed,
not paying attention to me.
If we talk, just curious, would this end up like it always does?
All the wrong I've done.
All the wrong I'll do.
Keeps me from trying.
It keeps me quiet.
Throw out your arms to each side.
It's easier to let things go.
When we talk think what we say: there's questons then silence and
in silence we remain.
All the wrong I've done and all the wrong I'll do.
It keeps me from trying.
Keeps me from calling you.
Something I just found out.
Something you know by now.
Hope makes you so strong.
Strength keeps you alone and far away.

Trashed and scattered again
I'm feeling so low

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
And my weakness is
That I care too much
And my scars remind me
That my past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel

wake up your sleeping, wake up your sleeping behind the wheel, behind the wheel.

im giving up all expectations that i will live a meaningful life

I keep tripping over the same steps, the stars aren't beautiful, advice is never useful.

there will be moments that i pretend that i can raise it up from the depths.
who the **** am i kidding? i was born with the curse of always giving in.

**** the world. **** the stars. **** the person you are

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and Pray
To be only your's
I Pray
To be only your's
And I know now
You're my Only Hope

Sing to me the song, of the Stars
Of your Galaxy Dancing, and Laughing and Laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and Pray
To be only your's
I pray
To be only yours
I know now
You're my Only Hope

I give you my Destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your Symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hand and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope

When I said good morning
I was lying
I was truly thinking of
How I might quit waking up

He pointed out how selfish
It would be to kill myself
So I keep waking up

It feels so much like falling
Dying while I wait to die
The fear of something or nothing
Lonely empty lie

I don't want to be here, lying
I don't want to be selfish anymore
I want so much to change
Learning your love everyday
There's still so much to know

You grip my wrists
I let go

It feels so much like falling
Separated from the fear
Aware of a destination far away from here


It feels so much like falling
Separated from the fear
Aware of a destination far away from here
Far away from here

____________________

Through the fish-eyed lens of tear stained eyes
I can barely define the shape of this moment in time
And far from flying high in clear blue skies
I'm spiraling down to the hole in the ground where I hide.

If you negotiate the minefield in the drive
And beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes
And if you make it past the shotgun in the hall,
Dial the combination, open the priesthole
And if I'm in I'll tell you what's behind the wall.

There's a kid who had a big hallucination
Making love to girls in magazines.
He wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith.
Could anybody love him
Or is it just a crazy dream?

And if I show you my dark side
Will you still hold me tonight?
And if I open my heart to you
And show you my weak side
What would you do?
Would you sell your story to Rolling Stone?
Would you take the children away
And leave me alone?
And smile in reassurance
As you whisper down the phone?
Would you send me packing?
Or would you take me home?

Thought I oughta bare my naked feelings,
Thought I oughta tear the curtain down.
I held the blade in trembling hands
Prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
I never had the nerve to make the final cut.

Beauty from pain - Superchick

The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know i'm alive but i feel like i've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made
I try to keep warm but i just grow colder
I feel like i'm slipping away

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i can't understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

Here i am, at the end of me
Tryin to hold to what i can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn

After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

When I'm Gone- Eminem

Yeah, It's my life, but all in words i guess.

[verse 1]
Have you ever loved someone so much,
you given arm for,
not the expression,
no, litterally given arm for,
when they know their your heart,
and you know you were their armour,
and you would destroy anyone who would try to harm her,
but what happens when karma,
turns right around and bites you,
and everything you stand for turns on you, despites you,
what happens when you become the main source of a pain,
daddy look what i made,
dads gotta' go catch a plane,
but daddy where mommy, i can't find mommy where is she?
i don't know go play hailee baby daddys busy,
daddys writin' this song, this song aint' gon' write itself,
i'll give you one on the door and you go swing by yourself,
then turn right round to that song,
and tell her you love her,
and puts hands on her mother who's a spittin' (spitting sound) image of her,
that's slim shady, yer' baby slim shady's crazy, shady made me,
but tonight shady's rock-a-bye baby.

(chorus)
and when i'm gone, just carry on,
don't mourn, rejoice,
everytime you hear the sound of my voice,
just know that i'm lookin' down on your smile,
nd' don't even feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain,
just smile back. [x2]

[verse 2]
I keep havin' this dream,
i'm pushin' hailee on the swing,
she keeps screamin' she don't want me to sing,
ya' makin' mommy cry,
why, why is mommy cryin',
baby daddy aint' leavin' nomore,
daddy your liein',
you always say that, you always say this is the last time,
but you aint' leavin nomore,
daddy your mine,
she's pilein' boxes infront of the door, tryin' to block it,
daddy please, daddy don't leave, daddy no STOP IT,
goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket,
it's gotta' picture, this'll keep you safe daddy take it wit' ya',
i look up, it's just me standin' in the mirror,
these sinkin'walls must be talkin' cuz' man i can hear em',
their sayin' you got one more chance to do right,
and it's tonight, now go out there and show em' that you love em' before it's to late,
and just as i go to walk threw my bedroom door,
it turns to a stage, they're gone and the spotlight is on,
and i'm singin'.

[chorus]
And when i'm gone, just carry on,
don't mourn, rejoice,
everytime you hear the sound of my voice,
just know that, i'm lookin' down on your smile,
nd' i don't feel a thing,so baby don't feel no pain,
just smile back. [x2]

[verse 3]
Sixty thousand people, are jumpin' out their seats,
the curtain closes, the throwin' roses at my feet,
i take a bow, and thank-you for comin' out,
they're screamin' so loud, i take one last look at the crowd,
i glance down, i don't believe what i'm seein'
daddy it's me, help mommy her wrists are bleedin',
but baby we're in Sweeden, how did you get to Sweeden,
i followed you daddy, you told that you aint' leavin',
you lied to me dad, and now you made mommy sad,
and i bought you this coin, it says number 1 dad,
that's all i wanted, i just wanna' give you this coin,
i get the point, fine me and mommy are goin'
but baby wait, it's to late dad you made your choice,
now go out there and show em' that you love em' more than us,
that's what they want, they want you Marshall,
they keep, screamin' your name, it's no wonder you can't get to sleep,
just take another pill, yeah, i bet you you will,
you rap about it, yeah word k-keep it real,
i hear applause, all this time i couldn't see,
how could it be that the curtain is closin' on me,
i turn around find a gun on the ground and **** it,
put it to my brain, scream die shady and pop it,
the sky darkens, my life flashes,
the plane that i was supposed to be on crashes,
and burns to ashes, that's when i wake up, alarm clocks ringin',
there's birds singin', it's spring n' hailee's outside swingin',
i walk right up to Kim and kiss her, tell her i miss her,
Hailee just smiles and winks at her little sister,
almost as if to say:

[chorus]
And when i'm gone, just carry on,
don't mourn, rejoice,
everytime you hear the sound of my voice, just know that,
i'm lookin' down on your smile and,
not even feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain,
just smile back. [x2]

Please tell me
Is it cold where you are this time of year?
You didn’t leave a scar

I’ve got no one to call
In the middle of the night anymore

I’m just alone
With these thoughts

"If you lose me, you lose a good thing, thats one thing i know for sure!"

As the world falls away,
And I can't find a reason,
As the world turns to grey,
Your killing me, and willingly, and I am just afraid of you.

((I know I've already posted here once today, but this is THE most beautiful song I have ever heard in my life and it really does describe how I feel.
I'm gonna put the song name and artist because I'm sure a lot of people can relate to this song:
Sia - Breathe Me))

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Here's a little song i wrote,
you might want to sing it note for note,
don't worry, be happy

in every life we have some trouble,
when you worry you make it double
don't worry, be happy

dont worry be happy now
dont worry be happy
dont worry be happy
dont worry be happy
dont worry be happy
aint got no place to lay your head,
somebody came and took your bed,
don't worry, be happy

the landlord say your rent is late,
he may have to litagate,
dont worry (small laugh) be happy,

look at me im happy,
don't worry, be happy

i give you my phone number,
when your worried, call me,
i make you happy

don't worry, be happy

aint got no cash, aint got no style,
aint got no gal to make you smile
but don't worry, be happy

cos when you worry, your face will frown,
and that will bring everybody down,
so don't worry, be happy

don't worry, be happy now...

don't worry, be happy
don't worry, be happy
don't worry, be happy
don't worry, be happy

now there this song i wrote
i hope you you learned it note for note
like good little children

dont worry be happy

listen to what i say
in your life expect some trouble
when you worry you make it double
dont worry be happy
be happy now

dont worry, be happy
dont worry, be happy
dont worry, be happy
dont worry, be happy
dont worry
dont worry be happy
don't worry, don't worry, don't do it,
be happy,put a smile on your face,
don't bring everybody down like this

don't worry, it will soon pass whatever it is,
don't worry, be happy,
i'm not worried