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[Fog] 09-06-2009 01:05 PM

*Hugs to everyone and extra teddy bears*

Yay for the calorie free biscuits and food! I love not having idiot nurses and doctors making me feel worse on this ward hehe!

Hope everyone is doing ok. Keep battling on, it's so hard but all we can do is keep trying. And keep hoping :-)

Another quiet and boring day for me today. Went to a choir thing last night and there were loads of people there and some guy filming and I got so anxious it took me so long to calm down. But I'm ok this morning, going to the library later and that's pretty much all I have planned for my day... Woop...

Thinking of you all, hugs and cuddles to all who want them xxx

MammaMia 09-06-2009 01:14 PM

*hugs you all*

Good to see you too Ally, I've missed you so effing much

Hannah(Banna), I forgot to say welcome back & glad you're back :)

Hannah, you missed me out tehehe, you can get to 6 weeks darling, massive cuddles if you want them :D

*offers cuddles nd cookies to all*

Someone didn't attend her last exam for the year, haha no more assignments & exams WOOP, but I've barely done any anyway, just trying to see if they can let me change courses after all, doubt it though due to not meeting the requiremets, if they don't let me, I'll have to re-do the whole first year of the course I've been doing which if I don't pass, I will LEAVE university. Maybe I should just die this summer, so much easier (Y)

shadowedseraph 09-06-2009 01:21 PM

*hugs MammaMia and takes a cookie* i hope they let you change courses. Uni is hard especially when your feeling rough!

realflifefaerie 09-06-2009 01:27 PM

wow, this is really busy atm. Thanks for all the hugs guys.

*hugs shadowedseraph* Im not sure how I am right now but thanks. Keep repeating that one more day and have some birthday cake.

*hugs cheryl* thanks, I may come hide with you. IS there anything we can help with.

*hugs foreverlost* Im pretty sure you're familiar from ages ago. Maybe I imagined it.

*hugs banana* quiet days are good.

*hugs helen* Im sure you shall sort something out, try not to worry about it and enjoy being free!

Things are bad and all in reverse, right now I want to hide although I can't as Im expected to be happy and stuff. I can't help being angry at my grandmother shes almost destroyed one life and wrecked a marriage and now shes destroying another. Makes me so mad.

MammaMia 09-06-2009 01:29 PM

Thanks you two. I hope so too.

I don't feel free lol, I just feel destructive :/

shadowedseraph 09-06-2009 01:42 PM

*hugs Secrets and takes some birthday cake* My psyche has just called and is seeing me in an emegency appointment tomorrow, i suddenly feel a bit less dejected and worthless, lets hope it lasts!

*hugs MammaMia* i know how you feel, and im here listening

MammaMia 09-06-2009 01:46 PM

Been feeling destructive for few weeks, just getting worse, am trying to control it, but losing control...

Jetforce 09-06-2009 01:58 PM

*leaves some milkshakes on the table*

Tc ppl..hope things r going well for all of u!!

xx

~Kaytee~ 09-06-2009 02:08 PM

*crash tackles helen* loves you hun xxxxx
you can do this :D

MammaMia 09-06-2009 03:15 PM

You're turning into Jem hehe, jokes ;) Loves you too sweetheart.

Just randomly decided I am going to visit my old school lol, haven't visited them in over 6 months as I've been so so so so busy with uni :)

[Fog] 09-06-2009 04:39 PM

Hey Helen :-D *Hugs* Sorry to hear things are bad for you at the moment. Uni is horrible when things aren't going well. I've missed all of my exams and coursework for 2nd year now cos of being in the psych ward but I'll just do it another time. I've cancelled my year abroad and I'm gonna finish my degree with the Open University because I can't cope with uni.

Shadowedseraph yay glad you got an appointment, hope it goes well for you.

Secrets sorry to hear things are bad *hands over a hot chocolate (calorie free if you would prefer)*

Just been to the library and got a load of books. Some of them are to do with EDs and my dad decided he wanted to check they weren't to do with mh issues (even though I find it a comfort to read about mh issues and know I'm not alone) so I just hid them lol. I'm feeling ok at the moment, barely eaten anything and I finished off my Guide on how to cope with me for my folks and boyfriend.

One perk to being mentally ill... I went to the library and had a 12.60 fine! So I told the lady I had been in a psych ward for over a month and she said if I bring in proof that I was then she'll wipe the fine.

So it's not all bad...

CrazyHayley 09-06-2009 09:50 PM

*comes back in from smoking shelter* well actually, I had a little escape, lol, my partner came home early from his work trip in normandy whilst I was looking for positivity in the smoking shelter and he took me out!! He then placed me back as he'd had enough of me! lol?!

Anyhoo, sorry but my brain can't do individual responses, i'm all fuzzy headed and worried I;d miss someone out, especially as its been so busy in the 48hours I've missed. But it seems like theres something in the air/water as we're all having tough times, even those who have been doing so well are worried about slipping up.....

......AND SO......here is fresh oxygen tank breathie thingys for us all and an endless supply of bottled water!!!!

*hands out oxygen tanks & bottled water to all*

oh yes, and someone made a comment about this psych ward being a 'room' with unlimited free corners?! oh they so have not investigated the place thoroughly enough!!! From my past experience I have survived under the floor boards for over 8months, there is also a padded cell, a huge dark but oh so secret cupboard, somewhere there are some pot plants....I hope they haven't died since I last watered one.....hmmm....what else?! Anyone think of something I've missed out?!

*goes back out to smoking shelter and pays attention to psych ward on her journey*

CrazyHayley 09-06-2009 10:11 PM

*sprays self with pretty smelling stuff so as not to stink of fags*

Aha! I found a room of requirement!!!!! but it only does SAFE requirements. Just go to your left, past the big pot plant (freshly watered), keep going along the bendy corridor until you come to a collection of small, also freshly watered, pot plants. Jump up and down 10times saying "I have a safe requirement!", then spin in a circle anti-clockwise 3times, whilst clapping your hands and thinking of your safe requirement, then.....ta dah!!!!

CrazyHayley 09-06-2009 10:26 PM

you know what?..... I typed those random things as I needed to keep my brain active, to use my imagination to get away from the real stuff.
It hasn't helped.
I feel like crying all of the time.
Sometimes I'm not even sure why.
I hate my mood swings.
I hate that I can't get myself out of this pit.
I hate that what the c**t did to me 11years ago still affects me.
I hate that I'm not strong enough to get through this.
I hate that I'm full of hate!!! RAAAAA!!!!

sorry to rant guys, I just needed to scream and get it out. No need to reply. Save your energy. *goes to padded cell for her own and other inamtes safety*

wildly insane 10-06-2009 01:26 AM

You forgot the denial tent ;) rant away Hayley *huggles and cuddles* you are strong enough to do this, you're still fighting

*hugs HannahBanana* a guide on how to cope with you, sounds like a great idea :) good job with the library books, hope you're doing okay

*hugs Helen* I didn't forget you, honest you just hadn't posted since my last message and there was so much going on, you look after yourself, work on that positivity

*hugs Katie* you can do this too

*hugs Jem* hope you are okay, mmm milkshake, vanilla flavour....

*hugs Shadowedseraph* hope the psych appointment goes well, fingers crossed for you

*hugs Secrets* sorry to hear things aren't good, I know how hard it is to pretend that everything really is fine, keep going though, you can do it.

*hugs Foreverlost* how are you?

*hugs Cheryl* hope things are okay

*hugs Kahlia* how's the wrist? how are you?

am slightly better today and made 6 weeks, whoop!!! job application deadline friday :P

MammaMia 10-06-2009 04:24 AM

*curls up and dies*

Trying to reply to your posts because I want to help, but I just can't :(

Damnation. 10-06-2009 04:24 AM

I cut today. After weeks, maybe even a month free. Oh well, I wasn't actually trying to give up.

My friends have all gone to bed now, so I'm alone. And I feel like crying. A really sad song that I absolutely love shot my mood right down, but I don't want to stop listening to it.

Just one more time,
For the sake of sanity,
Just tell me why,
Explain the gravity.

Just give me peace,
You owe me that,
To help ward off the fears,
I must combat

wildly insane 10-06-2009 11:11 AM

*hugs Helen* what did I say? oh yeah, you do have to look after yourself occasionally.

*hugs Dayna* sorry to hear you cut but it's a good thing that you went for those weeks without cutting :) songs are very powerful and it's wierd how the same song can affect us differently depending on our mood. hope you got through the night okay.

I didn't get out of bed in time, I have this whole list of things to do. blah.

~Kaytee~ 10-06-2009 11:21 AM

Hannah *hugs* the days not all gone yet, but i hate having days like that =[ take care ok?

[Fog] 10-06-2009 11:37 AM

Hayley - thanks for the oxygen tanks and water! Maybe that will cure us all... I'm so sorry to hear about everything you're going through. Feel free to rant and shout and vent as much as you want, you don't have to go into the padded cell sweetie :-) *Offers hugs* How are you doing today?

WildlyInsane - wow 6 weeks, well done! What job have you applied for if you don't mind me asking?

Helen - *Big safe cuddles* Hang on in there deary. PM me if you ever want to talk.

Dayna - sorry to hear that you cut but try not to beat yourself up too much about it. Going weeks without it is fantastic and you should feel really proud of that. Try and think of it as a slip up, rather than slipping back into it. Hope you're feeling ok today *Big hugs*

Yesterday ended pretty crap. I had dinner but had pudding and stuff and it was just too much so I purged it and my mum was all upset that she hadn't been able to help or stop me and I just felt like sh*t. I read a book last night about anorexia and I enjoyed reading it, unfortunately though it had plenty of detail on the before and during of the illness, and hardly anything about recovery! Didn't get to sleep until half two (my dad turns the internet off at about ten because he's convinced that someone's hacking into our wireless...) so I'm knackered now. I feel really low this morning but today I'm going to try and get some uni coursework done and try and keep my food down. Anouk's getting more and more threatening and I'm scared.

*Runs and hides in the secret cupboard*

Take care everyone xxx


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