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PoisonedApple 14-07-2010 09:03 PM

ah....hmmm... do you like to draw? maybe that'd help some...

shadowedsoul 14-07-2010 09:07 PM

hmm just me being stuiped again. not towards anyone on in here sorry.

hahahah, now you know what its like to feel so small to made to feel like a peace of crap. i hate you, hope you get yours i really do.and you get the same thing done to you. you got a little taster. hahahahahaha.

nicole94 14-07-2010 09:09 PM

nah, it just makes me frustrated cause im rubbish, i suppose i should go get my brother from school....

Doikers 14-07-2010 09:11 PM

Nah Nicole You're not Rubbish , far from it *Hugs*

nicole94 14-07-2010 09:14 PM

thanks mark, *hugs* but i am.
my brother is home from school so i dont have to go pick him up.

PoisonedApple 14-07-2010 09:23 PM

it doesn't have to be "good art" to get it out of you and onto paper.

nicole94 14-07-2010 09:26 PM

is still get annoyed. i was looking forward to picking my brother up. but hes already home :/

misskitty112 14-07-2010 09:34 PM

*hugs Nicole*

So... my friend that told me he no longer wanted me in his life? Texted me and said "sorry for this morning.. hormones... love you!" I haven't responded. I can't forgive him just like that. Am I wrong?

nicole94 14-07-2010 09:41 PM

no sweetie you're not wrong, he hurt you and youre right to be upset, but i think its better for you to just forget it, otherwise your just gonna end up stressing over it.

[speaking of hormones-i feel like ive hit puberty all over again! my boobs hurt, my periods are all over the place, and my mood swings are MENTAL! gah. i hate being a woman.]

taz35 14-07-2010 09:45 PM

*hugs Lia* The first one. :) And it sucks how your friend tries to fix the problem, but only makes you feel worse. It's always easy to say forgive and forget... but actually doing it is another matter. If I were you, I'd just keep my distance for a few days, then try to talk it out :)

*hugs Felicia* That's hurtful... but with "friends" like that, who needs enemies? I'm sure you have lots of other people that care about you, so don't worry about him. <3

*throws motivation cookies at Laura* I can never seem to find any motivation. And although it's not a good thing to feel nothing, maybe it's better than feeling bad? That's just me though.

*hugs Jill* Feel like sharing the epic fails? I always love an epic fail story :D Well... when they're funny for everyone involved. My latest epic fail involves locking my keys in my car... for the third time now ><

*picks up Crimson and lies her on ultra comfy bed* Why so drained? Too much essaying? :P

*hugs Nicole* You're not rubbish at all hun. And Crimson had a point, sometimes even scribbling on paper helps.

*hugs Mark* How are YOU?

I'm having a good day. It's my third full day off the meds, and I'm starting to feel like me again. I'm gonna go for another few days just to prove to everyone I'm better this way, and then I'll tell them. I feel bad for lying to my parents, my doctor, my counselor... but it's like they don't listen anyway. Oh, and I got my lip pierced this morning, just for the heck of it. And I love it :) Except eating a sandwhich was an adventure. I'm leaving for camp tomorrow morning, so I probably won't be on at all over the weekend.

You'll all be in my thoughts, and I'm leaving lots and lots of good wishes and thoughts and care packages in every corner for every wardie :D

nicole94 14-07-2010 09:53 PM

*screams and throws things around ward* I ****ING HATE THIS! i hate feeling so crap i nhate living here i hate everything! i just want to die! why was i ever stupid enough to make that first cut? why did i let my self ruin my life? i'd be better off dead.
*goes back to corner and cries*

PoisonedApple 14-07-2010 09:58 PM


*picks up Crimson and lies her on ultra comfy bed* Why so drained? Too much essaying? :P
Oooooooooo cushie! I dunno why though... just am. Not from the essays though. I had them all done lunch yesterday and haven't done a thing with them since emailing them to April once I got home yesterday.
On the upside I'm starting a garden adventure. I decided to start composting. *nods* Started last night as I cleaned up what everyone left around the kitchen (about 2 packs of ramen noodles, a coffee filter fill of grounds, napkins off the floor, egg shells, etc) while I was at work. This is also not the source of my being drained though and I didn't cook last night so that's not it... *shrugs*ah well...

Doikers 14-07-2010 09:58 PM

Hey Taz *Hugs* I'm sure if I had a car I would lock my keys in it too :) Did the piercing hurt? I can imagine the sandwich issue Heh. You'll get used to it, re-learning eating :)

Me? I'm still numb and royally sick of it , I got out for a walk this morning , I MADE myself go , only for 30 minutes , but I just seem to stare into space epically or at a blank computer screen for 15 minutes solid and the time go's and I don't FEEL anything. I cut myself just to FEEL , right arm so left handed , was a crap attempt. Hmmmmm . I don't want to say what I'm thinking in case I end up doing it *Sigh*

PoisonedApple 14-07-2010 09:59 PM


*screams and throws things around ward* I ****ING HATE THIS! i hate feeling so crap i nhate living here i hate everything! i just want to die! why was i ever stupid enough to make that first cut? why did i let my self ruin my life? i'd be better off dead.
*goes back to corner and cries*
you would not be better off dead. and your scars don't have to ruin your life. *cuddles*

PoisonedApple 14-07-2010 10:01 PM

*hugs everyone* I'm going to walk down to the park and see if I can't make lunch time decent today.

one_step_closer 14-07-2010 10:03 PM

*hugs everyone*

nicole94 14-07-2010 10:05 PM

i want to leave tonight but i have no money, i want to get out of here now. i cant handle it.

Doikers 14-07-2010 10:13 PM

*Hugs Lindsay*

nicole94 14-07-2010 10:24 PM


Scarletdreamer 14-07-2010 10:33 PM

Sorry I have been absent for so long today... about 2 pages since I last wrote (I think - or at least, since I last got caught up), so there is no way I could (easily) do replies for everyone. Sorry. :( I feel like a bad wardie. :(

Oh & Nicole - as Crimson said, your scars don't have to ruin your life. You can stop cutting - it's hard but possible. I'm doing that right now. Quitting. For good. Because I can't have it in my life and really be happy at the same time, if that makes any sense at all. I can't have a real job if I'm still cutting, especially as I want to go into the psych field, and the stigma hurts my social life (as I'm finding out... :-X see r/v for more). So yeah. Quitting is possible. I have so far gone a week without any urges - or hardly any, at least - and it's easily been one of the most stressful weeks in my life (so far, at least). So... anyway, just wanted to offer that scrap of hope. :) *hugs*

*cuddles all the wardies*

I'm so exhausted, and I don't know why. I even took a nap... and I'm STILL tired... fail. :-X

I'm also still worried about Jarrod & the army... worried that we're "marrying the military" and that he will be so focused on his job that he won't miss me when he's at basic (which wouldn't be too bad a thing, I guess, since basic requires a lot of focus) and advanced and then when he's deployed. :-X I don't know. I don't know of anyone who's been in the military, no military spouses are on my friends list on FB - as far as I know, anyway!! - so that doesn't help matters, not being able to talk with a military spouse. :-S


Sorry for rambling on... I'm just scared. :(

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