*hugs Zowie* Yay :)

*hugs Helen* hope you have a good time in York

*hugs Jem* thanks for the ice-cream - yum

*hugs Dayna* I did giggle, hope you're okay

*hugs Louise* hope you're okay

*hugs Kahlia* how are things going?

*hugs Shell* hope you have a fab weekend and hope to hear from you soon

*hugs everyone else in abundance* it's friday - yay - now to apply for a job without getting too stressed and later to go out without drinking too much, see how I'm actually doing :) Anybody for cheese toasties?

Just checking in to let you all know I am okay.
Having a bit of a hard time just now.

*hugs everyone*

*walks in*

I cannot cope.

*hugs Becky and MaryAnne*

*Glomps all*

Have fun Helen! ;D

Zowie: Glad to hear it!

Two days SI free <__< >__>

hannah is officially **** and unable to say no seemingly without even much of a fight

X___X *Cuddles Hannah*

*hugs all*

Sorry for the lack of individual replies ... am just not feeling up to things at the moment. Am going to go lie down (it's freaking 8:30 in the morning!!) and try and get to feeling a little better. Talk to you all later.

Thanks, cuddles back

Dayna ~ you post-cut me LOL :p

hey Kahlia, good to hear from you, huggles, hope you get to have a bit of a nap

****'s sakes, I took this ****ing hiatus so that I could get away from him for a bit. Decide whether it's really worth keeping him in my life, considering all we seem to do is wind each other up. I'm tired of hurting, of getting angry because of him. I'm tired of craving his company. And even now I've temporarily left, he's still pissing me off, with his half baked theories and general bullshittery, to make it look like I've left for one of the most petty ****ing reasons ever! Considering he was worried that I'd bring our bullshit into the guild, and had to be reassured multiple times by me that I had better things to do with my time, he's doing a superb ****ing job of doing it himself -___-

Kahlia: YAAAAY 8D

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, bad urges are returning =D.

One down, one to go!

Dayna, Helen, Hannah, Katie, Jem, Shell .... everyone whose name I can't remember at the moment ~ *big hugs to you all*

thx's for the hugs :-D

absolutely pathetic, I want something f****** sharp all I end up with is some pathetic scratches, I hate blunt knives, that and I didn't get any relief at all and am now more wound up and angry than before I am completely in self-hate, self-destruct mode, how the hell am I supposed to concentrate on my job application *Screams silently*, no tears, I want to hurt and I don't know why.

*hugs everyone* can't manage anything individual at the moment, and I'm sorry.

I'm not living at the moment, I'm... merely existing. Attempting to survive. And to be honest I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this. I'm just over 2 months SI free, and I'm determined that even though I'm going through god knows what at the moment, I... I'm not going to go back to that. Although to be honest I don't know how much of that is actually due to the fact that I don't even have the energy to cut at the moment.

I don't know what I'm doing. I really don't. It would be so easy to just press the self-destruct button and forget everything else.

Hana
x

So i've done it

I've booked my bus back home to scotland!!! :'( I dont want to go but i have no choice at least then i am going to have a roof over my head!!!

My Partner says he will wait for me to come back down, but i am scared he wont!!! i dont know what else to do! i am so alone in a world full of people!!!

Help me

I jsut dont know what else to do going home to scotland seems my only option!!!!!!!!!!

I know how you feel *hugs*

*hugs everyone*

too tired to write

xx