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Kittyenna 15-10-2012 10:42 PM

[quote=sapphire hearts;3388173]sleepy - since I'm not sure how your name is spelled, is it ok if I call you Nat? I know this is scary sweetheart. I know. But maybe being admitted would be a good thing, if you feel so unsafe. *safe cuddles* If they think they need to do it, you're obviously not in a safe place right now. Honey, please PM me if you feel bad, ok? I want you to be safe, and since I can't be with you, I need to know if you feel unsafe, ok? xxx[quote]

Nat is fine, most people call me Nat. *curls up and hides*Feel so bad, I need to hurt, but if I do and everyone finds out I won't be able to stay where I'm staying anymore. The urge is getting too strong. OKay, I PM you now if that's okay.. xxx

hellokittymad 15-10-2012 10:44 PM

*curls up in corner next to Nataleigh* myheadsamess

risenfromperdition 16-10-2012 03:16 AM

*sit neks tos*
*hids n shaks*


StardustedSky 16-10-2012 09:21 PM

Curls up in corner with a blanket, otter and my horrible memories and fears, I can't do this anymore everything is cracking, those I confided in don't want anything to do with me and seem to think the only place for me is in a psych hospital but that's just so that they don't have to handle this anymore. I can't do this alone if I loose him I loose everything how can I pretend everything is ok (which is what he needs) when all I can see is how I'll he is. Sorry mind splurg finished :s

sapphire hearts 17-10-2012 03:49 AM

arm swollen, all my fault
uni tomorrow, today, no no no, tutor i blabbed in front of last week and i can't, i don't want to, she knows how bad i am
my head is exploding and i dont want to be this way any more...

risenfromperdition 17-10-2012 04:01 PM

not bad.

sapphire hearts 17-10-2012 05:50 PM

wasnt sposed to tell. told. now she thinks im crazy
knows to much *hides*

risenfromperdition 17-10-2012 06:45 PM

you not crazy sweetie.
you just had lots happen.
good girl for tellin.

Kittyenna 17-10-2012 10:41 PM

Cant do this anymore. have to hide from everyone. then they won't know, won't know I done bad

YodaBearInterrupted 18-10-2012 06:12 AM

Sorry I havent been in here much lately *hugs for all*

*leaves some goodies/treats on the table*

I feel frustrated... and i feel like I keep on failing friends by saying no to things that I should be comfortable saying no to/for... I want to be there for everyone, to help them and make them feel better... but it seems the harder I try, the harder I fall or fall apart in the end. I wish it wasnt this way at all... and I am in the familiar boat of not being able to say anything that is going on with me because its not allowed by the Dark Lord... since his army is so close to my castle... I cant risk the information falling into the wrong hands... gah. I am going to hide in the magical fort with everyone else thats in there... perhaps we can all roast marshmallows together and eat s'mores?

sapphire hearts 18-10-2012 05:00 PM

*hugs everyone*

good plan for s'mores *gets fire going in magic fort**takes the calories out of my ones - sorry, bad ED day*

heather, I'm just so scared :( I have to see her every week and she watches me, and I can't stand that she knows. Feel so stupid.

Matt, you can't help everyone lovely, I know it's hard to remember but you can't *holds up hypocrite banner, but I'm still right*

the fort will keep us safe... I like the fort...

YodaBearInterrupted 18-10-2012 05:14 PM

The start of my day was bad anyway... but it keeps getting worse... I can't bend over backwards enough... I am like thisclose to doing something I shouldn't... but I really want to... actually the worst I have been in a few months. Damn it I hate myself right now a lot and it sucks

Yes, I know sapphire (I forgot your name again XD). But I am so wired to help that I will literally drive myself off the cliff to help others at the risk of myself

YodaBearInterrupted 19-10-2012 12:28 AM

Gah... really about to lose it. I really hate this and myself right now. I don't really have a safe place to direct all my emotions so I am worried I might just do something bad to make it all go away. Doesn't help when my own father decides to be an ass and leave the house for the night to go to W PA where my younger brother is in college and doesn't tell me but sends me a text message telling me to do stuff and fake thanks bull ****ing ****...

Its whatev

sapphire hearts 19-10-2012 12:39 PM

Lol, no worries, it's Katie *offers cuddles* I'm the same to be honest, so I don't have any constructive advice as to how to put yourself before others. Sorry things have been so crap at the moment hun. Come hide in the fort :) we have teddies and pillows and rainbows.

So I'm pretty sure my arm's infected... d'oh! So stupid...

YodaBearInterrupted 19-10-2012 02:42 PM

I will have my invisible ninja penguins guard the fort and protect us :) I like pillows and ranbows :D

Have you gotten your arm checked Katie? You should get to the doctors if it could be/is infected *huggles*

sapphire hearts 20-10-2012 12:11 AM

Invisible ninja penguins are awesome :) Love. There is anything you want in the magic fort xx

If it's not better in a day I'll get it checked. trying to ignore the impulse to cut worse.

I need to be ok, because they're watching, but I need to offer up the blood or more bad things will happen.

YodaBearInterrupted 20-10-2012 04:48 AM

*huggles Katie* Get it checked soon... you dont want it to become too infected. I hope you are doing better and are able to ignore that impulse or I will send the invisible ninja penguins after you :P

sapphire hearts 20-10-2012 02:02 PM

The infection's going down so I think it'll be alright, but I might get the stitches taken out by a doctor instead of doing it myself so someone can check it. The impulse is buried for now - hate to waste the ninja penguins' time when they have such important work to do :p
Hope you're doing ok honey *cuddles Matt*

hellokittymad 20-10-2012 03:24 PM

just goign to sit here and cry, so, safe in here to cry *hides under blankies* I want to put my pyjama's back on so I feel comfy but mum will get mad

sapphire hearts 22-10-2012 12:06 AM

*hugs everyone*

i hate myself. and i deserve to. i know there has never been anyone as despicable as me on this planet. I'm sorry, to the person i PM'd. was so stupid.

im sorry im sorry im sorry

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