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FlyingNy 26-09-2010 01:24 PM

Happy lateish birthday Kahlia. x

Scarletdreamer 26-09-2010 01:28 PM

Mmm *thinks* I'm gonna try to do indivs but I will probably forget some of you... blah. :(

Hels... Well, all I'll say is *hugs* :)

Lia, hon, you are NOT a selfish bitch and we all would NOT like it better etc. if you were dead!!! We'd miss you a ton. Please don't "do anything stupid." You're worth more than that and someday you'll get to see that, I hope. *cuddles*

Mark, how are you this morning/afternoon? *cuddles*

Jill, Mark's right, you ARE stronger than you know. *hugs gently* You'll be okay too... just keep hanging on.

Crimson, I know you posted yesterday, but just wanted to send a shout out to you to let you know that I MISS YOU. :) Work sounds awfully busy and I hope you're getting some rest today... *gentle cuddles*

Heather, you're not ugly, not at all, and also, as Felicia said, try not to get yourself down about the NEDA Walk in NYC. I wish I could go... :( ...but can't, boo hiss. But... even if you ARE surrounded by "tiny people" (I got the funniest mental image of what that could be, all these miniature people that are about six inches tall all marching down the street with you in the middle of them, normal height!! :P but I do know what you meant), you will be able to show that even people who aren't emaciated can have EDs. Fair enough? :) *hugs gently*

Kahlia, happy birthday!! Sorry we kind of forgot about it... :( I'm sorry that it felt like "just another day" and that you feel old... *cuddles*

There. I think I got (almost?) everyone... those to whom I didn't reply, oops, I'm sorry!! Not ignoring you, promise, just missed you. :) *extra cuddles for all*

I've just gotten up about half an hour ago after a very weird set of dreams. First, I dreamt I was going into the army with an old crush of mine from high school... it was just an all-out weird dream, I wasn't acting like myself AT ALL. :-/ Then I dreamt about WoW and that my dad starting playing, but apparently a patch had just come out that changed it so you get mounts at LEVEL ONE (normally now it's level 20 that you get them) which pissed Jarrod and me off (in the dream), and also that they changed one of the race's major characteristics (which also pissed Jarrod and me off, heh). Weird. Weird, weird, weird. It's like I ate pizza right before bed or something, which I totally didn't do. :P

I'm "meh" this morning, Jarrod's off at work again and I'm trying to figure out something to do. I'm not gonna go to church because, well, it'd feel weird without him with me and I don't really know anyone else there that would sit with me... don't want to feel like a loser & sit alone. :-/ I don't want to/can't hang out with my parents because my dad's still sick. And no one else is around that I really want to hang out with or anything, which is very ugh. :( So I guess it's another day of reading and journaling. Or something. I really don't know. So ****ing lonely. :'(

That is all.

shadowedsoul 26-09-2010 01:28 PM

Erm this is turning into one of these days again. Great just great.

FlyingNy 26-09-2010 01:42 PM

*Hugs April* You always have us to hang with :) I know it's not the same, but I hope you see us as better than nothing :).

*Hugs Jill* What's wrong honey? We're all here to listen if you want us to.

*Hugs Mark and Nicole* How are you both this afternoon?

*Hugs Heather* Gah, that energy. I'm thorsty, but making tea would require going all the way down the stairs...

Sorry about my rant last night. I hate this self hatred of mine and I'm sorry that you always get landed with my self rants. I'll try and stop that because to me it just seems as if I am throwing all your efforts to make me feel better about myself back in your faces and I'm not I do appreciate it, really I do, I just can't believe it. The way I see it, it's everyone else who's under the dillusion and I'm the only one who can see me for what I am. And my mum and sister maybe.

I shouldn't have said anything about that either. I should have kept it to myself, I'm sorry.

And I'm sorry that I once again have something to be sorry for.

nicole94 26-09-2010 01:49 PM

*hugs lia* y'know, i'm really not sure how i'm feeling today.....i mean, i have college tomorrow, and i love college now, but at the same time i dunno, i'm just scared because i have told people at college how much i am struggling, but i'm still scared they're gonna turn on me and treat me like the teachers at school did :(
and lia sweetheart, you dont have to be sorry about anything, i think we all suffer with self hatred at some point, but you just need to beleive in yourself, we all do.x

Doikers 26-09-2010 01:57 PM

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs April*

*Hugs Jill*

nicole94 26-09-2010 02:11 PM

*hugs mark* how're you today?

Doikers 26-09-2010 02:24 PM

I'm feeling okay today Nicole Thanks A bit anxious but managable. I think your college people will be more understanding than your school people . I think college people can be more mature :)

FlyingNy 26-09-2010 02:25 PM

Sooooo cold! I am wearing: black clothes including jeans, a cardiagan, my huge furry dressing gown, my fluffy winnie the pooh bed socks and the duvet. I also have a cup of tea and am still freezing!

nicole94 26-09-2010 02:29 PM

glad your feeling ok mark, and ok so the students at college should be more mature than at school, but surley that rule shouldnt apply to the teachers aswell? :/ they should all be mature, no matter where they work, idk, i mean they have been really good about it so far, i'm just scared they might turn on me :/
lia-i know right, i'm freezing! i might go make myself a hot chocolate if i can be botherd to get up XD

Doikers 26-09-2010 02:32 PM

OOhh Lia , I hope your not cooking a cold :S *Hugs*

*Hugs Nicole* You either :S

FlyingNy 26-09-2010 02:32 PM

Nicole- I'm sure they won't turn on you, but I do know the feeling. I'm scared of admitting my feelings to even myself. I'm all out of hot chocolate :(

*Hugs Mark* I already have one, and it's just about -100 in my house. Gah, winter! ALthough I actually like wrapping up in about a million things, and it means Christmas is coming! :)

Scarletdreamer 26-09-2010 02:34 PM

*hides in the warren where no one can find her and cries softly*


And lonely. Lia, you're right, you guys are definitely better than nothing - DEFINITELY!!! - but at the same time... not quite the same as having someone right next to me with whom I can chat. Anyone care to be teleported here?? :) We can... ummm... clean my apartment. Yeah. :P (I know, sounds like fun, right? haha...) And make pancakes for lunch (dark chocolate chips, anyone??)... and talk... and go for a stroll perhaps, down my road if we can do that without getting hit by a car. :P

Anyway. Yeah. I'm lonely. *stops whinging and hides again*

nicole94 26-09-2010 02:37 PM

*hugs mark, april and lia*
mark-i already have a cold too!
lia-i know they shouldnt turn on me, ahwell, will find out tomorrow! and i'd better not be out of hot chocolate :/
april-aaw hun, sorry your feeling fed up, i will be teleported over :D (but i cant be botherd with cleaning, we could just teleport all the dirt away somewhere?) lol

Doikers 26-09-2010 02:39 PM

I'm sorry you're lonely April *Extra comfy hugs* I get lonely when I'm alone at my flat sometimes too

nicole94 26-09-2010 02:57 PM

i dont understand :/

MammaMia 26-09-2010 03:04 PM

*cuddles everyone*

What don't you understand Nicole? *cuddles*

nicole94 26-09-2010 03:07 PM

*cuddles helen* everything :( i don't understand my feelings, or my eating/sleeping patterns, i mean, i've gone from sleeping in the day and being up all night, to not really sleeping at all, and i just looked in my purse and relised i have like 20 in there and trying to work out where it came from i realised that i have stopped eating on days i have college :/ i dont understand it! :(

MammaMia 26-09-2010 03:08 PM

Babe, you're just bit out of whack with new routines and stuff, you'll soon settle down, I promise *cuddles*

CrazyHayley 26-09-2010 03:10 PM

Hey there my fellow wardies - this is just to let you know that I'm going to be offline for a while. My M.E has been really bad again recently and I'm struggling to have the brain power to type, form scentences and it hurts my eyes to look at the laptop screen. Which is why I've not been active in the ward as much as I would like to be. But I thought its best to let you know that I am ok (well, in a way, I mean I'm not unsafe or triggerred) and I don't want you worrying about me or wondering where I am or thinking that I'm not thinking of you all and wishing I could be more supportive. I thought that if I let you all know I'd be away for a bit, then I wouldn't get myself so upset about not being able to be in the ward either and can just come back when I'm feeling better. It may be in a week, two weeks, a month, who knows with this ****ing illness, but putting pressure on myself only makes things worse, so for now, I'll go and rest in the medical wong of the ward and hope to be giving huggles and support again to you all soon. Thnaks for all of your help and support that I've recieved during m,y times in here.

nicole94 26-09-2010 03:13 PM

*cuddles helen* i suppose..just wish it would hurry up and sort itself out.
*cuddles hayley* HEY, havent seen you online in ages :D glad your doing ok, apart from the M.E. hope you feel better soon.x

FlyingNy 26-09-2010 03:16 PM

Hey all.

*Hugs Nicole* Helen's right, you'll soon settle back into routine. It's just cos you're used to sleeping in the day and now obvs you can't.

*Hugs Helen* How are you today?

*Hugs Arpil* I'll come :) It all sounds fun, even the cleaning. Cleaning on my own is boring, but with a mate it sounds like there's some fun to be had :) I actually wish I could come over there now :( But since I'm in the uk...We should arrange a psych ward meet up, but it would have to be in like 2 years when I am 18 and my mum can't stop me leaping on a plane to go and meet a bunch of people I met over the internet.

Scarletdreamer 26-09-2010 03:18 PM

*cuddles Hayley* Feel better soon, love. We understand - may not totally get the M.E. but I'm pretty sure we all can grasp the basics of it. :) Take care of yourself... will miss you but methinks we can all agree that it's best for you to take care of yourself. <3

*cuddles Nicole* I agree with Hels, you're probably just out of whack with a new schedule and all. It'll probably settle down soon and if it doesn't, well, I guess maybe try talking with someone at college about it?

*cuddles Hels* How are you this morning?

*cuddles Mark* Sorry to hear that you get lonely at your flat sometimes too... and sorry to be whinging so much about something that probably a lot of you have to deal with a lot. I know I have a pretty good life... so I'll just shut up now. :-/

shadowedsoul 26-09-2010 03:26 PM

Cuddles all. Erm having such a messed up day. One more thing goes wrong. Sorry hides somwhere safe.

nicole94 26-09-2010 03:27 PM

*cuddles lia and april* thanks guys, and lia, thats such a good idea! lol, but yeah, 2 years time when i'm 18 and my mum can't stop me XD.

eurgh, and once again, my neighbours having a fire.

MammaMia 26-09-2010 03:46 PM

*cuddles everyone lots*

Nicole, that sucks about your neighbours having a fire. *hugs*

*hugs April & Lia* I'm not good at all today. But I've made myself eat, get washed, dressed, put my creams on *sighs* Trying to pull myself together. People need me. I need them.

FlyingNy 26-09-2010 03:48 PM

*Hugs Helen* Sorry you feel like ****, but it's good that you're trying. I always try and make an effort to smile, even if I am breaking apart inside. I always find it cheers you up much more than moping does.

nicole94 26-09-2010 03:49 PM

*huggles helen* i know. :( i wouldnt mind if it was every once in a while, but it's all day every day and we're getting a bit fed up of it :(

MammaMia 26-09-2010 03:52 PM


Originally Posted by IceQueenHasAHeart (Post 2505575)
*Hugs Helen* Sorry you feel like ****, but it's good that you're trying. I always try and make an effort to smile, even if I am breaking apart inside. I always find it cheers you up much more than moping does.

*hugs Lia* Thanks sweetheart. I always smile, even when I feel really bad. It's my brave face. I put it on over and over. I've not been putting it up recently when I have been sad. But it's time to put it back on.


Originally Posted by nicole94 (Post 2505576)
*huggles helen* i know. :( i wouldnt mind if it was every once in a while, but it's all day every day and we're getting a bit fed up of it :(

*cuddles tightly* I'd make a complaint babe

nicole94 26-09-2010 04:00 PM

*cuddles helen* you keep smiling hun, i know it's hard, but it also tricks your mind into thinking your happy, so therefore makes you feel a bit better. :D and we have tried making complaints so many times, but its so useless, the council wont do anything because she is due in court soon, and the police wont do anything because theyre waiting for a mental assesment.

Doikers 26-09-2010 04:03 PM

*Squishes Hayley* I hope you have a speedy recovery

Wow lots of posts , I am back on my computer at my flat now:)

*Hugs my fellow wardies*

nicole94 26-09-2010 04:16 PM

ooooh. i wish she didn't have a girlfriend :(

misskitty112 26-09-2010 04:20 PM

*hugs everyone*
I'm so overwhelmed. I have to write 3 more pages in my Chaucer paper, rewrite my news story, do an AP style quiz, define stuff for my Journalism midterm, come up with an essay topic for Witchcraft, read about a million different chapters in a million different subjects, and eventually shower.... since I haven't since Friday morning. I know that's really kinda gross, but I just can't find the energy to focus on anything. I have got to get myself together. Really.
Cause a friend and I were going to attempt to raise money to go on a Study Abroad type of trip this summer to London and other places that have slipped my mind. So... A. I'm gonna have to focus enough to raise like $5000 and B. They only take mentally stable students. Crappy, but true, and the head of housing takes this on... So, ya know, he'll probably try to test me or something.
At least I've been too overwhelmed to harm?

FlyingNy 26-09-2010 04:24 PM

How many bonfires do my neighbours want?!

Doikers 26-09-2010 04:32 PM

*Hugs Felicia* It sounds like you've taken a LOT on , it's okay to feel overwhelmed , I would be too .

nicole94 26-09-2010 04:32 PM

XD lia, sorry, but i so totally know the feeling XD

Scarletdreamer 26-09-2010 04:33 PM

FML. That's all I have to say on that topic.

Hels, I'm sorry that you feel like you've gotta put your brave face on... why do you say that it's time to do so now when lately you've not been? I think it's good that you've not been, because even if the smile that you put on makes you feel better, it's still a fake smile and doesn't let people know how you're truly feeling. :-/

Lia, what do you mean?

Nicole, hopefully the time speeds along til your neighbor is due for her assessment/hearing. That's gotta suck. :( But at least it's cold there so you don't have your windows open?? heh...

Mark, how are you now? glad to be back at your flat?

*glomps Nicole, Sarah, and Mark as I spy them!!*

How are you, Sarah?

Sorry if I missed anyone...

Scarletdreamer 26-09-2010 04:34 PM

Oh, Felicia. Yes. That sounds like a ton of stuff you've got to do!! Wow. I would totally be overwhelmed... and hon... going overseas, even if it is to "just" the UK etc., is stressful... so I wouldn't try to "trick" them into thinking that you are mentally stable if you aren't. :( Not a wise idea. Anyway, sorry, just my take on things, don't have to listen to me anyway. :) Hopefully you manage to get everything done on time.

nicole94 26-09-2010 04:37 PM

april-lol, yeah we don't have the windows open, but our cat broke the cat flap so we can still smell it constantly :/

do you guys think i should tell the girl i like that i like her? :/

FlyingNy 26-09-2010 04:37 PM

My neighbours keep on setting bonfires. I think this is an experience I can share with Nicole ;)

Nicole- It depends on your relationship with her. If there's a chance she feels the same, then yes. If she's straight/in a relationship, it can only make things awkward. Develop your relationship and see how things go.

nicole94 26-09-2010 04:39 PM

lol lia, are you sure you havent moved in next door to me!? and we are friends, she is a lesbian, but she has a girlfriend :(

Doikers 26-09-2010 04:42 PM

I'm sort of relaxing back into my flat , gotta figure out what to eat later , I don't have any appointment tomorrow but I have Nurse , Psych Dr , Mental health befriending woman , Volunteer supports lady, Housing support guy , and accupuncture from Tuesday to Friday , Not quite as hectic as Felicia but enough I think .

The One Who 26-09-2010 04:55 PM

*hugs everyone*

Doikers 26-09-2010 04:58 PM

*Hugs Claire*

The One Who 26-09-2010 05:01 PM

It's soooo cold! *shivers*

misskitty112 26-09-2010 05:06 PM

I agree, Claire. It is freezing!
Mark, that sounds like a lot. I don't do well with Nurses, Drs, or Psych appointments. I reschedule and avoid like crazy.

I rewrote my news story. Productivity, FTW! I suppose I'll do my AP style quiz now... since it's short. haha.

shadowedsoul 26-09-2010 05:13 PM

Curls up. Sorry guys just need to stay here as I get the feeling the next 2hours are going to be crazy.

Doikers 26-09-2010 05:13 PM

Whats AP style Felicia?

*Hugs Jill*

misskitty112 26-09-2010 05:17 PM

AP style= Associated Press style. So, the style all news stories and journalism homework should be done in.
It kills me. I dislike AP style... a lot.

FlyingNy 26-09-2010 05:23 PM

What more can I do? Baby all I want for Christmas is you...

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