Well you know what I mean by "old soul"... I'm only 22 myself, so... :-P

yeah but i'm a young one here, you fit into the average age group

not really... if ya knew me... I'm actually immature for my age

you dont sound it :) *hugs*

have you not read all my whiny ass posts about wanting a binki and ****? lol

actually no i havent. i will now though if you really want me to!

my "feeling like a little girl" post in veteran's support (on page like 4 or 5 i think)

i'll go and have a read now

im sorry i cant rememeber your name but i promise i'll take care of her as much as i possibly can whenever i'm online.

*hugs* please take care? *cuddles*

(his name is Jeff)

My "I wanna Pacey" **** is like on page 502

Manda i read some of your threads and you dont sound like a little kid to me, i'll probably be exactly the same at your age! *cuddles*

Jeff please take care *cuddles lots*

sophie... you rock my face off!!! *squishes*

*glues your face back on* Manda no offence but i think you'd look a whole lot better with your face on :P (hehehe)

Ugh, why do cuts on your wrist hurt so much mor than the others? :crying:
*huddles in her corner feeling like an idiot*

*sits with Aly in the corner and cuddles gently* you're not an idiot hun and you're certainly not the only one who's done something like that *cuddles more*

*cuddles Sophie back*
Thanks hun... Sure feels prett stupid though... Par for the course is all I guess... *shrug*

:pinch:I doubt that... my face is hideous...

while it may feel stupid remember that its not the end of the world and you can still pick yourself up and move on from it *picks you up and sticks you back on your feet*

Manda i dont know what you look like but ANYONE would look better with a face than without!

I guess you're right... I just know I look butt ugly

i doubt it hun. though even if you did you'd want to hope that you at least look like a baby's butt because they apparently have wonderfully smooth soft skin :)

Jeff * is alramryed* u better come back. u cna lok after usan that way! dont leave us. no :'(

*cudles others* be safe....

*cuddles Jess*

*cuddles Jess*

thask. *smiles*

katrch is away fro two months manda. psoted in ur thread for u.

soph, i luff u like chocolate *hgus*

aww i just hope you dont try to eat me because i dont think i taste like chocolate! i love you too honey, you mean the world to me *cuddles lots*

Manda....Katch won't be back til October sweetie :(

I miss her so much too *cries*

*huddles in her corner*
I want to cut, and yet I don't have the motivation... I'd do it, but it would do no good, I wouldn't feel it... I'm just numb and foggy, if that makes any sense...

Yay Daddy I am happy for you!!!
*cuddles Ally*

Brother, welcome home.

Thank you so much for making sure that I am taken care of. *hugs you with no plans to let you go*

how was your meeting susan?

DISSOCIATED!! That's the word I was looking for...

*huggles and cuddles everyone*

*creeps out of her corner and gives everyone huge hugs*

Going away again this morning, a journey of self-realisation they call this one. We'll see. Not quite sure when I'm next going to be online, or certainly on here anyways, because it's going to be a lot more difficult for me to do so once I'm back.
I'll try once a week, maybe, but I can't guarantee anything, so I'll leave you all a huge bag of hugs for when you need them.

Take care all.

(Not leaving for another 2 hours, but I thought I'd post this now anyways)

*Spreads love to everybody in the room*

Hope every1 is alrite and keeping well

take care there xx

i have a headache from being ont he computer and not wearing my glasses. but i'm going out tonight with a friend and we're going to see a movie then come back here and play ninetendo and watch more movies :D

cool...i've also got a dull headache atm too ugh...:-(


But yeah, have fun jess...!!

i have to go out to dinner tomorrow with elderly friends of my aunt who i have never met before and i feel sick and i have a big cut on my wrist WHAT AM I GOING TO DOOOOOOO how am i going to manage to hide it properly??!! bracelets always fall further down my arm.
crap crap crap.
i dont even know these ****ing people.
im too tired for this ****.

it is now 4:40am... I didn't fall asleep til like 3:15am so would someone please tell me why the hell I am wide the **** awake?! I don't want to be wide the **** awake... I want to be asleep!!! ><

I'm in trouble with the police. Yesterday a girl was following me home and was going to push me in front of a car (Beth warned me) and so I turned round and threatened her with a knife.
The police haven't found me, but it's only a matter of time seeing as they've been spying on me.
Feeling terrible today, Beth keeps telling me to slit my wrists and I feel close to doing it. I'm an evil person who doesn't deserve to live.

you guys were very busy while i was gone!
*hugs and squishes to everyone who would like them*
zowie i am not sure that beth was telling you the truth i think sometimes she might get confused, please don't hurt yourself you don't deserve that, are you under the care of a dr or team? (sorry i can't remember) but i would tell them about what happened no-one will punish you but i think you may just need some extra care right now xx

*leaves hugs for everyone*

I feel so ****ing sick!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRR STOP IT NOW PLEASE? Least my stomach has settled down *fingers crossed*

At this rate, I'm beginning to wonder if I'm gonna be better by Sunday. I hope so, gotta work and then finish early to leave with Mand yay :)

Oh & Zowie, when you do speak to the police, maybe you could explain about Beth or have someone like your EIP explain? I dunno? *many huggles sweetie*

Seeing my care co-ordinator today in half an hour. Will talk to him about what happened. x

think thats a good idea *hugs* good luck hun let us know how it goes xx

It didn't go very well. I told him how I feel really suicidal at the moment and he just didn't seem to care. I don't think people believe me, and that's just making me feel even worse.
I want to die.

I believe you hun *snuggles*

Thanks Helen.
How was your holiday?

I want to OD. Dad's not here, might look for my meds.

hun please don't do that *hugs*
i can't believe he didn't care that is just crap, sorry people like that who call themselves professionals just really get me mad!

That reminds me, i really pushed a yellow light yesterday. Wonder if the automatic cameras were set off? Nevermind, my husband tells me that what i thought were cameras for running red lights, aren't.

Zowie, i'm sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time.

Brother, you have no idea how relieved and happy I am that you faced down your demons.

*cuddles everyone*