Thanks darling. They seemed to have stopped now, so hopefully they will :) I expect they won't remember in the morning lol. Yay thanks for letting me giggle at your post & glad it didn't offend you. Yay laughter is a very good & free medication sometimes :D

They'll soon be over. Yeah maybe you should try again...*cuddles tight*

*curls up in invisibility bubble*

Everything okay Crimson??

I also spy Laura, April & Oliver, hope you're all okay *cuddles lots*

*hugs helen and kat* i dont know, maybe shes changed her mind? theres no harm in asking.

Indeed there's not, but try not to get your hopes up too much? *hugs some more*

*cuddles all who want cuddles*

Sorry am crap at replies today, this ward's been moving so fast and I only feel "okay" getting on RYL at work if my supervisor isn't nearby since I don't want her knowing about my problems. :-/ If that makes sense. I mean, I'm going to have to tell her eventually, I reckon, because I'm going to ask and see if I can get volunteer work there after I finish my internship (maybe, anyway), until I get accepted into a residential program. :-S I don't know though...

I don't know whether or not to start applying to said residential programs right NOW or if I should wait... I don't want my internship to be interrupted and it's most likely going to go until the end of June/early July so... well yeah. :-S

I just feel like **** right now. Per usual. Make it go away......... :'(

*huggles everyone*

I'd love to stay and talk, but my dizzy head and blurry eyes tell me it's time i went to bed. though before i do i am going to celebrate having not switched for hours.

*throws confetti*

Yey Kat!! *throws some more confetti and does the happy dance* Hehe... *tucks you up gently and hands you a lavender scented teddy - since that seems to be a very good idea for calming!!* :D

April, we have been moving very fast this evening, so don't worry too much about replies. Maybe start applying, these things take quite a while to process I expect??

Kat, yay for not switching, now get yourself to bed missy :) Thanks for listening && sleep well xxxxxxx

*cuddles april* i wish i could make it go away for you. *cuddles bear* lovely bear
*hugs nicole* I hope you find the right answer for you soon
*hugs oliver* I hope you are okay.
*hugs laura, crimson and everyone else who's lurking/lurked*
*cuddles helen* you've been absolutely brilliant to me today sweetie, thank you so so so much. *cuddles tighter* xxxx

April ~ I reckon it'd be easiest to apply now and let them know you can't go till whatever date. That way if there's a wait you can be on the list and if there isn't they might reserve a spot for you.

I'm fine I just feel like a fat cow (amongst other things...) and wanna lay down and die at the moment but it'll pass.

*cuddles Kat* Thanks for saying that darling, am glad I've helped, hope it doesn't take too long to nod off *cuddles tighter*

*smile* with cuddles like that i'll be snug warm and sleep safe and sound. Take good care of yourself.

all of you take care.

*lots of love and cuddles and waves and cookies and duvets and all nice things*

Awwww thank you Kat.

*hugs/waves at all*

I don't know why but I am reminded once again that after Monday and Tuesday, even the Calendar goes W T F . . .

Psychiatrist appointment in a few hours. So tired and just plain over everything.. Meh. Oh, and freezing cold.

Hope everyone is doing well. Sorry for being selfish and not giving individual replies, just too many posts and me not being able to keep up. Feel bad. :(

*digs hole and disappears down it* - My apologies for all the holes I keep digging. :(

*cuddles Kahlia lots*

Sorry it's not more...

it's ok kahlia after you leave the holes i refill em with soil and plant new roses and lily's n orchids n the like to expand the garden *cuddles*

7 pages since I logged off this morning.
*hugs to everyone who needs/wants them*... definitely don't have the energy or focus to do individual replies, sorry :(

Trying to hold onto my good mood, but I can feel it slipping slowly. I feel like I'm completely split minded on it =/ Like if I REALLY REALLY wanted to, I could stay in a good mood... or just smile and laugh, and hope it makes me feel better, even though it's fake. On the other hand, it just seems so easy to fall down and let the depression consume me.

Urgh :(

*cuddles everyone*

Where'd everyone go? heh...

updated r/v... feel like ****... just want to die. don't see the point in going to res if i am not going to get better. 5 years of therapy and 5 hospitalizations and 10 rounds of ect and 26 meds didn't do it, what makes me think that res will?

:crying:

sorry, am a whingy pathetic bitch................ need to shut upppp. :'(