*brings in a bag of toys*



So lost. So wish i could ask for help. Wish i knew why i wont cry.

Was going to drink but decided to leave the alcohol for Monday after my therapy session (oh, God, I don't want to go to this one). Instead I am eating cake batter and drinking caffeine free dirt Pepsi. Woo-hoo...
*WARNING: possibly triggering content to follow... But I can't hide it on my BlackBerry*

I can't even cut, it is SO not fair, I've got no motivation or something, I can't explain it but I want to cut, I just can't... :crying:

Marc, I can't tell you why buy I can tell you that very rarely can I cry, and I know, it sucks... *hugs*

I feel the same as you (no motervation) For anything practicaly. *hands over a fluffy sheep toy*
baaaa
*sigh*

*massive cuddles Ally*

I'm glad you're not drinking tonight at least :)

2 minutes is better than 2 seconds :]

Have to start somewere...

*cuddles Ally*
*cuddles Zowie*
*cuddles Jess* Do you need us to phone the doctor for you or drive you down to the walk in clinic?

Brother, we all have days like that, sometimes jobs like that. Hopefully things will settle down, in time.

Had a good meeting last night and another good meeting this morning. My sponsor after the meeting today, my sponsor praised me for having positive sharing. People were nice about me showing off my new sun-shirt too.

My hands are shaking today. Sometimes happens with the meds. I'd considered doing the changes to my shirt pattern, drafting the pattern pieces with the necessary modifications to make it into a denim jacket but not with my hands like this.

I plan for the denim jacket to be my birthday gift to myself. The denim has a pink pinstripe woven into it.

I'd still rather be shaking than as depressed as I was this time last year.

And yet again, i talk too much.

Head feels wrong, better go. Will catch up later.

is it wrong to feel like giving up?????
because if it is then i will put my hands up and say i am wrong!!!

everything is going wrong and there's no one to help!! they have all left me - thay have all given up on me - even my best mate gave up on me


i am a failure

*hugs Marc* I love sheep... *sigh* sorry you're in the same boat there pal...

Yeah, Helen, decided to leave it for Monday when I really need it...

*retreats to her corner with her stuffed sheep and attempts a nap*

crap crap crap my life is one big pile of crap.... does it ever ****in' end???

and we have the first blister. dammit. at leat i'm going riding today. it's better than nothing! >.<

*hugs* to all - even though im falling down i am here for anyone to chat!!!

I want to shred and i'm not quite sure why. Probably the same doggone thing that people see as normal and I see as a character defect.

Spit.

Sixx, what's up with you?

BlondieBear - im sorry i dont kow you name - but whats up??? *hugs*

My name is Susan, but I like being called Blondie.

Same old same old for me. Feeling needy, want to put a lid on it and just have to live with it.

btw, shred is my form of SI. I won't say what it is but that is my name for it.

*snuggles Blondie*

I so hate this! It is something I hate about myself. I'm comfortable in my own company for a bit, for a day maybe. But not for longer and not if i'm in a bad place.

The last two times I SI'd were because of being needy. it took many weeks for those marks to heal. I actually wish the last one had scarred though people told me it was better that it had not.