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frenchhorn 24-07-2011 01:56 AM

Heidi- I'm glad your getting by, but sorry things keep going downhill *hugs* by the way I really like the name Heidi, one of my favourite names :)

Pomegranate 24-07-2011 02:15 AM

Oliver, I don't doubt how awful and desperate you feel but I nevertheless need to ask....why tell them you have a date if you are so sure you want to end it all? Why not just do it?

Hurricane 24-07-2011 02:18 AM

Why thank you, Oliver *hugs* You made me smile

frenchhorn 24-07-2011 02:23 AM

pomegranate- I honestly don't know, I said to myself I wouldn't tell them and I'm angry at myself for telling them, I havn't told them the exact date, just a rough time, but they got it out of me. I feel stupid and angry for telling them though.

Hurricane 24-07-2011 02:36 AM

Oliver, I adore you and I would be so sad if anything happened to you. You know I'm always here if you need to talk, right?

frenchhorn 24-07-2011 02:44 AM

Thanks Heidi *hugs*

Hurricane 24-07-2011 02:47 AM

Anytime lovely. I mean it.

frenchhorn 24-07-2011 02:53 AM

same for you and all the lovely wardies, my PM box is always open.

~phoenix~ 24-07-2011 03:19 AM

Oliver, glad you're resisting the urges. :) It's difficult, isn't it?

Heidi, I really don't think there's anything fascinating about me. I suck at things like that. I guess the best thing I can think of is I'm a single mum, and a student. I'm **** at saying "I'm good at this" and "ahh, there's this that's fascinating about me" Is that odd?

My niece is getting hassle off her ex again. Little toerag :/

Hurricane 24-07-2011 06:13 AM

Kim, I think that is fascinating though. You're a really strong person. I admire that!

flutterby butterfly 24-07-2011 10:01 AM


Originally Posted by frenchhorn (Post 2897963)
even those titles sound horrible to me! I could never watch one.

nor me! I tried watching Haunting in Connecticut once & I cried so much in the first half hour my gf had to switch it off - I didn't sleep for ages. Same when I tried to watch the ring & the girl was called Samara I freaked out & thought the TV was talking to me - it got messy.

*hugs everyone* hope you're all doing well? x

Doikers 24-07-2011 11:21 AM

*waves to Kim Hey :)

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Emma if okay?*

*Hugs Mara*

one_step_closer 24-07-2011 01:18 PM

Hi everyone.

I really need to cut my grass but I just can't get motivated. I'd rather stay on here with you lovely people.

Doikers 24-07-2011 02:08 PM

*Hugs Lindsay*If you buy a goat it will eat the grass short :)

I am feeling pretty sodding triggered. Popped Diaz, they took the edge off ,sigh, I really want there to be no fresh injurys on me when Felicia and I meet in 5 days and 22 minutes .

one_step_closer 24-07-2011 03:44 PM

You can do this, Mark.

Doikers 24-07-2011 03:52 PM

I'm trying Lindsay hun :) *Hugs* How are you?

*Spots and hugs Heidi*

one_step_closer 24-07-2011 05:00 PM

I'm desperate to get out of this world but know that I can't until my brother has settled down. I'm going to overdose soon to help me to have a break from the world.

Doikers 24-07-2011 05:19 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry you feel rough hun *Holds hand*

Hurricane 24-07-2011 06:32 PM

*hugs Lindsay* I'm so sorry that you're hurting right now.

*hugs Mark* I'm sad that you're hurting to. I wish I could make it all better. Just think, 5 more days!

Homework is stupid and I freaking hate it. I need it to be Thursday already so I will be completely and utterly done.

one_step_closer 24-07-2011 06:32 PM

Thanks, Mark. How are you doing now?

Have you got a lot of homework to do, Heidi?

The crisis team phoned at a different time than I expected them to so I didn't have time to prepare something to say to them and just told them that I was ok. It's so hard to vocalise how I am feeling.

Hurricane 24-07-2011 06:36 PM

Not a lot, so much as I can't seem to find what should be right in front of my face. I get super frustrated. I'm ready to turn it in without doing anymore.

I'm happy to hear that you talked to them at least. Have you thought about trying to write your feelings out in a letter?

Doikers 24-07-2011 07:26 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* Went out and bought alcohol, not going to drink it tonight , it's so weird but I feel better just having it in.....

*Hugs Heidi*

Hurricane 24-07-2011 09:21 PM

I finished my homework, so that's good news. I also wrote out my suicide note today. Still not sure on when, but the note is ready to go.

I wish the yelling would stop. It's always so loud. I don't know how much more I can take.

one_step_closer 24-07-2011 09:24 PM

*hugs Mark* I guess that's kind of the same as having blades about but not using them.

*hugs Heidi* Does anyone know how you are feeling? Please don't be alone with this.

I write down my feelings and show them to my psychologist, who seems to be the only person who listens to me, but I only have one more appoitment with him before he leaves to work in another area.

Doikers 24-07-2011 09:48 PM

I Do that with blades too Lindsay *Hugs*

*Hugs Heidi* You aren't alone in this hun , Is there anyone you can talk to? I will listen hun , and am pretty sure the whole ward will too.

frenchhorn 24-07-2011 10:34 PM

*hugs Lindsay, Mark and Heidi*

I'm only a PM away if anyone wants to talk

Hurricane 25-07-2011 02:06 AM

*hugs Lindsay, Mark and Oliver* I feel like no one is listening. It doesn't matter though, cause I don't have anything to say anymore.

ljmeep 25-07-2011 07:28 AM

*shuffles in and sits in a corner to think*

hope everyone is doing well. I know I haven't been 'round in a long while. Been focusing on my marriage, which is doing better... makes it easier to resist the urge to SI. Tonight... really hard though...

YodaBearInterrupted 25-07-2011 07:49 AM

*hugs everyone*

Sorry guys, didn't get time to make some foodage... been a really depressing evening into overnight :( I actually feel like crying.. haven't done that in a long time... I am trying to resist but its hard

Doikers 25-07-2011 10:45 AM

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Kelly*

*Hugs Matt*

Doikers 25-07-2011 11:27 AM

I've made 3 weeks S.I. free today :)

one_step_closer 25-07-2011 01:40 PM

Very well done, Mark!

Doikers 25-07-2011 01:45 PM

Thankyou Lindsay :) *Hugs* How're you feeling hun?

~phoenix~ 25-07-2011 01:58 PM

Well done Mark!

Hope everyone's well.

Doikers 25-07-2011 04:14 PM

Thanks Kim , I forgot if Hugs are okay so *Waves*

PoisonedApple 25-07-2011 06:43 PM

*wanders in from my trip to Dillingham*
Sorry guys too many pages to get caught up...
*hugs all*
How is everyone?

one_step_closer 25-07-2011 07:16 PM

I'm really worried. I went to see my GP who had a letter from my psychiatrist saying that my medication has to be stopped because I keep overdosing on it. I managed to convince her to let me have my medication dispensed daily but how am I going to cope without overdosing so much? I will still be able to overdose sometimes because they have to give me my nightly dose of medication away with me so I can save that up. I'll just need to stay away from hospital so that i'm not found out.

Doikers 25-07-2011 07:59 PM

*Hugs Crimson* How was your trip?

*Hugs Lindsay* *Squishes Hard*

PoisonedApple 25-07-2011 09:58 PM

*hugs Mark* Congrats BTW!
It was... Cloudy but decent views of the scenery anyhow. I can do without ever spending more than 4$ on a 1ltr soda again though. *shakes head* it was sheer craziness how much things cost there. For the price of that one soda I could have bought 3 or 4 that were twice the size here.

*huggles Lindsay*

flutterby butterfly 25-07-2011 10:11 PM

Oh Mark, I am so proud :thumbup:

Lindsay - *huggles* don't know what to say hun, just be safe. lots of hugs.

*hugs to everyone else*

I came to see my mum, now I'm uber triggered & feel worse that she's triggering me when she's so awesome. *sigh* I'm a horrible person. :angry:

Doikers 25-07-2011 10:14 PM

Crimson, It's like 1.29 a litre of pop here, cheapest, America is so cheap , we pay 3+the price of petrol at least :) How are you *Hugs*

Doikers 25-07-2011 10:14 PM

*Hugs Mara* You are far from horrible!

Laura2.0 25-07-2011 10:23 PM

I'm too tired to catch up with 3 pages now.
*hugs all*

I went to the appointment with the inpatient person today and I failed at talking with her properly. She said that there is no point in talking with me when I'm staring at the wall half of the time.
Then after that I had an appointment with my therapist. She went upstairs with me to show me around the ward.
Now I have 1 month before I go inpatient. I'm scared.

PoisonedApple 25-07-2011 10:33 PM


Crimson, It's like 1.29 a litre of pop here, cheapest, America is so cheap , we pay 3+the price of petrol at least :) How are you *Hugs*
After converting it that's only $2.10 it's close to what we pay for name brand one liters... At the store closest to my house it's $2.19 but I can get store brand 2 ltrs for 1-1.50$ depending on the store :) They didn't have that option there.

I'm pretty good I think. Waiting for the proverbial **** to hit the fan but I got sick of doing other people's jobs and drew my line in the imaginary sand this morning. I feel good about it even if it may backfire on me.

How are you doing?

*cuddles Mara* do you know what triggered you?

*hugs Laura* I wish I knew what to say to make it better... :S

Cazki 25-07-2011 11:46 PM

I'm lonely and i feel a bit :sad:

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Kelly*

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Mark* well done on 3 weeks free! Thats excellent :)

frenchhorn 26-07-2011 12:01 AM

*hugs Mark* yay, well done you :)

*hugs Laura* I wish I knew what to say to make you feel less scared *cuddles*

*hugs Crimson*

*hugs Mara* you are not a horrible person, your lovely and friendly

*hugs Lindsay* please try to stay safe

*hugs Ian* I'm here if you want to talk

*hugs everyone else*

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 12:21 AM

*hugs Ian and Oliver*
*walks to the nearest padded wall and begins to pummel the picture taped to it and screams in frustration*

flutterby butterfly 26-07-2011 12:31 AM

you ok hun?

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 12:40 AM

Yeah. Just very frustrated. My neighbors keep parking in the area my trash bins need to be for pick up. When they are out they need 3 ft clearance to be picked up. The neighbor moves them or parks too close. It has happened 3 times in less than 2 months and they've been talked to by municipal workers and still keep doing it. I am tempted to dump the bin of trash in the back of their truck or to have them towed but both are considered harassment. Keeping from doing things that are classified as illegal is hard when you know they deserve it. And if I did do it and got caught I'd be in legal trouble which would mean I lose my job. I tried to get ahold of the trash people and emailed since I am at work the same hours they are and they replied telling me to call so they can discuss it with me!
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This last Friday was the 3rd time I have had a problem with my garbage service in the 2 months I have been living in my home. The problem is always caused by the same GMC truck. I have had them park there after I leave for work and park too close to the bins and I have had them move them and turn them sideways. The first time I called and was told by customer service to speak to whichever neighbor in the 4plex the vehicle belonged to as if I would know that. After calling place after place in the municipality I got a hold of the right of way people. They talked to every person in the 4-plex since legally I can’t restrict parking in the area of the false driveway that ends at the sidewalk in front of my home. It temporarily fixed the issue (for all of 2 weeks or so). The second time my garbage was picked up but not my recycling so I didn’t bother to make waves. This time both my garbage and recycling was left and had a tag that kindly described the vehicle so I have written proof it is the same vehicle as before. After talking to the gentleman from the ROW place he had told me that the next time it occurred to contact MSW’s enforcement department and that he was surprised that I was not transferred to them in the first place! That gentleman was the first I had heard of you having that department. Given that it is a consistent problem I am requesting assistance. It is illegal for me to just pile up junk in my yard (even if I were okay with doing that and I am not) and I refuse to pay extra to have my trash picked up because of having double the trash due to it not being picked up. I should not be penalized because a neighbor with a parking place behind the neighboring building is intentionally causing problems that they have already been notified they are causing after they were asked to stop.
If you can not fix this I will be late to work and lose wages Friday so I can call APD and sit there while they attempt to find the vehicles owner and straighten out the issue. I am hoping it does not come down to that.
Thank you.

SoMuchMore 26-07-2011 07:43 AM

*hugs everyone tight*

*hides alone in ward*

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