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taz35 27-05-2010 10:34 PM

*hugs Lindsay* I don't want you to be dead :(

*hugs Mark* Not a problem at all :) I like getting PMs, and I'm in a stable enough mood to handle it. I'm just crap at giving good advice, sorry =/

*hugs Kat* Aw :( It's hard when all somebody can do is tell you to stay brave... yet, that's what I always tell people because I can't think of anything better to say >< Hopefully you get your psych referral soon though!

Doikers 27-05-2010 10:36 PM

Kat You can add me to your regular prayers if you think I'm worth praying for , I could use all the help I can get somedays , thankyou so much for the offer :)

katnovia 27-05-2010 10:38 PM

*huggles taz* me too.i'm just about done with coping on my own. hopefully it'll come to something better this time. I hope you get your assesment soon too.

katnovia 27-05-2010 10:40 PM


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2321180)
Kat You can add me to your regular prayers if you think I'm worth praying for , I could use all the help I can get somedays , thankyou so much for the offer :)

Of course I think you're worth praying for, you are worth all the time and effort I can give. Gonna PM you if you don't mind....?

taz35 27-05-2010 10:40 PM


I'm heading out for the softball practice, even though we might just have a team meeting because it rained and the fields might be crap =/ Try to stay safe as much as possible, I'll be thinking of you all <3

Doikers 27-05-2010 10:41 PM

I'm going to head to bed it's coming up to 11pm here and my sister is visiting tomorow morning , plus I'm tired . long horrible day, but now its over
*Hugs The Ward*

Doikers 27-05-2010 10:42 PM

Kat feel free to PM me , but I'm going to bed so I'll reply tomororw ok ? I hope thats ok

MammaMia 27-05-2010 10:44 PM


Originally Posted by taz35 (Post 2321152)
Still worrying about your friends Hels, or something else?

Aye, although both have been in touch. Still very worried about one. Our song, heh, just came on :')


Originally Posted by one_step_closer (Post 2321158)
What are you worried about Helen?

I'm really low. Just want to be dead.

My best friends & stuff. I feel the same way you do aswell to be honest *squishes* Please stay safe sweetie.


Originally Posted by katnovia (Post 2321161)
*cuddles hels* I wish I could help make you feel better.

*cuddles Kat* Thanks sweetie, think most of my friends do :(

*big cuddles for all* Feel free to PM anyone.. x

Mark, hope you sleep well *squishes*

Scarletdreamer 27-05-2010 10:51 PM

*cuddles Mark, Taz, Hels, Lindsay, Kat, Crimson, and all I'm forgetting*

Mark, love, anytime you need to talk feel free to PM me. I'm sorry I wasn't online at the time though... :( Hope you have sweet dreams and sleep well... *tucks you into your ward bed* :)

Taz, I love thunder/lighting storms too. They are indeed awesome (and awe-inspiring!!) and I hope that you keep feeling a bit better... cos feeling crap isn't worth, well, crap. Hah. How are you doing now?

Kat, how are you, love? how's the switching been lately? Sorry if I missed something, my brain's muzzy. :( Am blaming it on still being ill.

Hels & Lindsay, I'm sorry you both feel the same way. :( Is there anything I can do to help either of you feel better?

Crimson, how're you doing, sweetie?

I'm so tired... just got off of WoW, it was a nice time spent playing with Jarrod. :) On my 74 going on 75 pally. It was nice. I did log into my 21 pally on Runetotem and one of the guildies wanted to talk but Jarrod didn't want to play on that server (level 20 priest of mine he'd play on), wanted to work on high levels (getting my 74 pally to 80), so yeah. Blah. I don't focus well/longterm in-game. Or IRL to be honest. Lol.

*sighs and retreats to her room* :-S

Scarletdreamer 27-05-2010 10:52 PM

Oh, and Crimson, yeah, I'm pretty angry with my old therapist myself :'( but if I sent her what I wanted to say to her it could be considered verbal abuse. Heh. :-/ I don't even know if I should respond to that email... was mine out of bounds? I mean, I didn't say anything I oughtn't, did I? :-S

katnovia 27-05-2010 10:54 PM

of course mark, sleep tight. *cuddles tight*

*cuddles helen tight* it'll get better soon, it has to. That's the one thing about bad times, they can only get so bad, and once you're down there, the only way is up.

*hugs taz* take care and have fun.

I spy a kahlia *big squishy huggles* you be proudded if you knw what weve done

and an april *cuddles* I'm okay today. Switches arn't too many, and arn't too hectic. Just the two girls out mainly, and a spot of 'miel, but no nastyness since saturday.

and a ...what the? *hugs*

I'm off to bed, well sleep, (i'm already there).

MammaMia 27-05-2010 10:57 PM

*cuddles Kat* Very true sweetie. I just want to get back up now please?

*cuddles April* Just make it go away? ha

katnovia 27-05-2010 11:03 PM

*offers helen a hand* Come on up. It's not too bad up here, well, I can't say what it's like up the top, but this little ledge aint too bad, bit rocky and slippy and i wouldn't wanna set camp up on here, but it'll do. You're going on my prayers too, if you don't mind of course.

*wishes she had a magic wand to make everyone feel better*

Kahlia1981 27-05-2010 11:11 PM

*huggles/waves at everyone*

Sorry I've been a bit of a ghost on here. Just sort of slipping in and out.

Turning my computer from dual booting two different Operating Systems - Linux (Kubuntu 10.0.4) and Windows Vista 64bit - into a pure Windows Vista 64bit running across two harddrives - 500GB and 2TB - has been a tiring challenge. The full process hasn't finished. I had to completely reformat both my harddrives to the NTFS file system that Windows uses after backing up my data to a USB external drive. Then reinstall Windows on my boot partition, install the software and updates and bring across the data. Some of my data hasn't come across because of Windows little issue with not liking colons (:) in filenames. I'm going to try booting into a Live CD and renaming the files in the hope that will work. I've spent a day and a half on it so far. But ... I think that it will work. Even though I really do H.A.T.E Windows. *sigh*

I'm going to start doing a Diploma of Information Technology and that means I need to be working on a Windows based system. It gets too complicated to maintain two separate O/S when they are on different partitions so I had to make the switch.

Sorry if that was a bit technical. I can chuck it under a "hide" if you'd prefer me to.

Anyway, feeling really tired today, but also a bit ... meh. Not really anything emotions wise. Bit of a struggle just to keep going, but too much effort to do anything to stop it. Almost disengaged if that makes sense. I don't know . . .

*offers hugs and tlc in whatever form you can accept it then settles down for a quiet read*

MammaMia 27-05-2010 11:18 PM

*cuddles you both & accepts Kat's hand up*

Kahlia1981 27-05-2010 11:34 PM

*cuddles Helen*

Kat: That little ledge sounds quite nice. *offers cuddles*

I spy an April!! *offers cuddles*

MammaMia 27-05-2010 11:36 PM

*cuddles Kahlia*

A friend of 3 of my friends (if that makes sense) committed suicide yesterday, my friend's understandably really upset. Can't help wonder if it was me, whether my friend would react the same & slightly wishing it was me. I'm so horrible >.> *curls up*

(edited as made mistake)

Kahlia1981 28-05-2010 12:39 AM

Hels: I'm sorry to hear that. And the worst thing about suicide is that absolutely everyone who knew the person tends to take on some part of the blame - even if it's just internally. I can understand where you are coming from on "wondering if it was you and wishing it was" honey. *wanders over to you and just sits down next to you so you have someone near you*

PoisonedApple 28-05-2010 12:43 AM


*hugs Crimson* That's awesome that you daughter likes the history book :) I could never get interested in history... it just bores me =/
yeah this book is called history pockets. 2 pages of info i read to her per unit and 3 projects per unit (if you count the picture dictionary). it had 7 units if i remember right. she did the native american history pockets book first (but i dislike that the cherokee weren't mentioned at all... might get her something to learn that over the summer)


Oh, and Crimson, yeah, I'm pretty angry with my old therapist myself :'( but if I sent her what I wanted to say to her it could be considered verbal abuse. Heh. :-/ I don't even know if I should respond to that email... was mine out of bounds? I mean, I didn't say anything I oughtn't, did I? :-S
I didn't see anything out of bounds in there. I'm sorry that I don't know how to respond "appropriately" to that either. *huggles*

Scarletdreamer 28-05-2010 12:49 AM

*cuddles Hels and Kahlia*

Just emailed my therapist again, giving her an update on me... overall it was a pretty shitty update, didn't realize how poorly I've been doing over the past months until I wrote it out. :crying:

MammaMia 28-05-2010 12:49 AM

Thanks Kahlia. I wrote part of that post wrong, when I was talking about wondering if it was me, I meant to say wonder if she'd feel the same way if it was me. Or something like that annwyay. I didn't even know her at all. But people don't realise how far suicide affects people. they really don't.

Scarletdreamer 28-05-2010 12:56 AM

*hides in her hole and cries because IRL she'd rather self-destruct than cry...*


PoisonedApple 28-05-2010 01:25 AM

*climbs in April's hole and cuddles her till she feels better*
*hugs Kahlia and Helen*
*runs through the ward huging and waving to everyone*
I spy you April, Helen and Oliver!
*runs away* Time to head home and try to get the youngun done with her reading and some of her art work so I can start turning stuff in next week. On the up side I don't need to cook since I assembled the chili in the crock pot last night. *nods*

Scarletdreamer 28-05-2010 01:38 AM

Thanks Crimson... *cuddles back* I was beginning to wonder if I had been forgotten... or worse. :-S I know, selfish of me... but we all know I'm a selfish person. :'(

*cuddles Kahlia, Heather, and Crimson, since I spy you all!!*

I just... don't know anymore. :crying: Want to cut/die so ****ing badly.

Kahlia1981 28-05-2010 01:40 AM

Hels: As a survivor - what they call here an "intimate survivor", the guy was my boyfriend when he did it - I can recognise how far reaching what I call the "blame/shame/pain" issues go. It's a hard situation for anyone and everyone if you want to look at it in reality. I wish I could offer you more than hugs. *hugs you tightly*

Crimson: *big hugs*

April: Sorry, just out of words at the moment. All I can offer is *hugs* and letting you know that you are in my thoughts. I just wish I could do more.

MammaMia 28-05-2010 01:41 AM

*cuddles April & everyone*

risenfromperdition 28-05-2010 01:56 AM

*curls up in corner*

Scarletdreamer 28-05-2010 01:57 AM

*cuddles everyone*

r/v updated........... :crying:

taz35 28-05-2010 02:06 AM

*hugs Mark* Have a good night <3

*hugs Hels* I know how you feel... I think it was 3 or 4 years ago, my best friend's friend committed suicide, and it was all I thought about for weeks, pushed me awfully close to the edge. People WILL miss you and be heartbroken if you did it though... so just, don't. :) Easier said than done, I know...

*hugs April* I'm alright. I just feel... blah. Like not in a bad mood, but not in a good mood either... just kind of there. I've really adopted the "we have 2 ears and 1 mouth, so we should listen twice as much as we talk" saying IRL. I've been super quiet and I think people are just assuming I'm depressed at the moment, when I actually feel okay. I'm sorry you're feeling unsafe right now, I wish I could make all the pain go away :( *crawls into the hole to hug April* You're not a selfish person at all, from what I gather.

*hugs Kat* Good to hear things are going alright :) Or that there hasn't been any nastyness. I'm not sure what it's like to switch like that all the time, so I don't know if I can tell you anything helpful or not =/

*hugs Kahlia* I can't stand Windows either. I'm glad I changed over to Mac. Planning on buying a Mac desktop at some point; right now I just have the Macbook Pro. But I love it :)

*hugs Crimson* Yumm, chili :) Sounds wonderful.

*offers hugs to Heather*

Kind of nervous about my doctor's appointment tomorrow =/

risenfromperdition 28-05-2010 02:08 AM

*curls up under blankies*

Kahlia1981 28-05-2010 02:11 AM

*cuddles everyone*

Taz: I had a MacBook Pro but I wanted to be able to boot from USB and with Mac OS X Leopard you can't - probably because they don't want you to use another O/S with it. I hate proprietary crap. The MacBook was good though. Graphics far superior to anything else on the market - but not surprising given it's starting point. Apple originally started with the idea that the graphics were it's selling point - and they definitely are. M$ definitely had to run to catch up and didn't really get too far until Vista with it's Windows Aero. Sorry, just realised I started giving an "O/S through the ages" type lecture. Many apologies.

taz35 28-05-2010 02:16 AM

No worries, I got a good laugh out of that comment. :) I'm not good at all the technical jargon, but I'm computer-knowledgeable enough.

What do you mean by being able to boot from USB? I'm assuming more than just plugging in a USB and accessing files from that, right? Because I'm able to do that :/

Kahlia1981 28-05-2010 02:22 AM

Booting from a USB is basically plugging it in, then cold rebooting or just restarting your computer/laptop so that you then are booting into the USB device. Like when you use a Live CD you aren't really using your harddisk and can't make modifications to your computers set up but are able to rename files for use with a different file system? Kind of like that so you are using a "guest" O/S that resides on your USB stick. I don't know if that made sense.

taz35 28-05-2010 02:24 AM

It makes a little bit of sense. I've never done it, so I wouldn't know =/ But sounds like an interesting concept. I may have to get one of my computer geek friends to come over and show me on our Windows desktop :P

risenfromperdition 28-05-2010 04:07 AM

*yawn* im exhausted >.>

SoMuchMore 28-05-2010 04:29 AM

*offers hugs to kahlia, mark, april, helen, taz, heather, julie, oliver, JK and kat, jill, and lindsay*

Sorry I just cant do individual replies right now and i have been having computer problems all day... but if i missed u in my hugs list i'm sorry.

*sigh* Ready to give up... i cant wait to go back to uni

taz35 28-05-2010 04:57 AM

I know that feeling all too well Heather. Get some sleep hun <3

*hugs Laura* When do you head back? In September, or are you taking any summer courses?

SoMuchMore 28-05-2010 05:08 AM

taz - i have a job out there this summer so i'm going back next tuesday, im just back in my hometown for my sisters high school graduation. Being here is not going that well tho

How r u?

risenfromperdition 28-05-2010 05:09 AM

*cuddles laura* lucky re going back to by uni... wish i was :/
here if you wanna chat :)

/ dyou have fb? cuz i like cant get on here now cuz of being on dads laptop ><

SoMuchMore 28-05-2010 05:22 AM

^I do have fb. I'll PM u a link since i dont put it on my profile on here.

*cuddles everyone*

risenfromperdition 28-05-2010 05:28 AM

requested :)

risenfromperdition 28-05-2010 05:38 AM

*sits with teddy and yawns*
i wanna sleep but cant sleep =[
and im sick of being here =\

xxjuliexx 28-05-2010 05:53 AM

*curls up*

risenfromperdition 28-05-2010 06:06 AM

hey :) <3

xxjuliexx 28-05-2010 06:10 AM

hi hehe

xxjuliexx 28-05-2010 06:12 AM

night heather

risenfromperdition 28-05-2010 06:17 AM

night sweetie <3

xxjuliexx 28-05-2010 06:34 AM

*sits sniffling* to get out of bed or not that is the question

risenfromperdition 28-05-2010 07:01 AM

night guys <3

shadowedsoul 28-05-2010 08:08 AM

Hmm the thing is I'm sitting on the bus heading up to
work, and I really don't want to go in. Had a **** day
yesterday made me ask what the hell I'm I still doing
here because I have got no idea. Stuiped thoughts keep
running through my head, I want to play in traffic in
hopes a bus knocks me down. Sorry if that triggering I
just can't keep these thoughts at bay they keep coming
back. Sorry for this pointless post.

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