Laura, you are not a monster , trust me *Hugs*

Dear my Wardies,
Tomorrow I am going to Swindon to meet Felicia .
I'll miss you guys but will be back early next week ,
Take good care of yourselves and each other.
Love Ya'll,
Mark.

Have fun Mark!
*huggles*

Have a wonderful time Mark *hugs*

*hugs Laura* your not a monster at all.

*hugs Laura* how are you?

*hugs Mark* have fun!
*hugs Laura* you are not a monster.
*hugs Oliver* how are you?

I'm tired. I gained weight, cause my mom is trying to fatten me up. I found the scale today (mom hid it). I'm going to lose all that weight again. I want to feel **** physically, cause then I don't have to feel all this emotional pain.

Interesting...
My boss just emailed this to the staff...

Think she's trying to tell us something? lol

Sorry Laura x2 I needed to find an easy way to individualize so...:
*hugs Laura -US-* You are not a monster dear. I think it probably will go back to lessening even without SI when you are in your own place if you are more comfortable there.

*hugs Laura -DE-* Could she have hidden it because you need the 'fattening up' to be a healthy weight? I can understand the want/ need to be smaller and feel physically rather than emotionally but that will not help you in the long run and a closed ward won't allow you to make yourself ill AND we here care about you. PM Box is always open if you need a listening ear *squishes*

*huggles Mark* Have fun! Get lots of pictures! *packs extra hugs and a care pack in you travel bag*

*hugs Oliver* How are you?

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Lindsay

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs DarkAsylum if okay*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Mark* hope you have a great time. Look after yourself mate.

*hugs Ian*
How are ya?

Hey thanks Crimson :) *Hugs Crimson back* I'm ok thanks, a little lonely but im ok. How are you?

*hugs and sits with Ian* Since it's almost time to go home... Not too bad at all.

*hugs Crimson, Laura and Ian*

*hugs my wardies* Hope everyone's ok? Sorry haven't read back, have been dissociating like crazy so my brains a lil fried.

*Random rant alert* whats the bloody point putting a trigger tag on a bloody thread if you're gonna use triggering words in the title? bloody imbeciles!!! raaarrrrgghhh.

Sorry guys. much love xx

Hi everyone.

Hey Lindsay, how are you hun?

I'm ok, I think. How are you, Mara?

*hugs Crimson*
*hugs Ian*
*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Mara*
*hugs Lindsay*

how are you all?

Today I found out that my mom knows that I purge and in her opinion it is disgusting and sick.
I'm not underweight, I'm in the normal BMI range. I feel fat though.

*hugs Laura* I'm sorry about what your Mum thinks and how you are feeling, that must be tough. I'm here if you want to talk.

I'm feeling lonely and like I want to die or at least overdose.

*cuddles Lindsay*

*hugs all*

*finds puppy sinclair and feeds him, then hides*

erghhhhh.
*curls up and sighs*

*snuggles oliver if want*