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Auburn Shadow 03-11-2008 06:32 PM

*hides away in a corner*

I'd quite like to just give up now...

MammaMia 03-11-2008 06:45 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Feel crap right now. Ha >.<

Snuffles 03-11-2008 09:09 PM

*huggles hells*

MammaMia 03-11-2008 09:37 PM

*cuddles Katie*

*curls up into a ball and rocks* Counselling tomorrow thank god =\

Snuffles 03-11-2008 09:46 PM

Oh yay for counselling =) hope it goes well tomorrow xx

blah... *sits in corner*

MammaMia 03-11-2008 09:49 PM

Thanks sweetie, I'm sure it'll be fine, just hope she's kept my appointment for me.

*runs over and squishes Katie lots*

Snuffles 03-11-2008 09:51 PM

I hope so too =)

*squishes*

MammaMia 03-11-2008 10:24 PM

*squishes*

I'm off to bed xxxxx

Snuffles 03-11-2008 10:29 PM

Night!!!! *cuddles*
take care <3 love you xx

YodaBearInterrupted 03-11-2008 11:42 PM

*gives hugs to all in here and then sits in the corner and rocks back and forth*

I'm scared...

zowie 04-11-2008 10:26 AM

*Triggering*


Things are really bad at the moment. Beth keeps telling me to get a knife and go out into the street and tear people open. The Man keeps telling me he's poisoned my drinks because I deserve to die. I'm so thirsty, but part of me wants to drink the poison and die because I do deserve it.
Saw my boyfriend yesterday. Beth says he hates me and he's never going to end this 'break' because I'm a horrible person.
Going to cut. House is empty. Maybe it'll stop them screaming at me.

Kahlia1981 04-11-2008 12:38 PM

I want to cut ... really bad. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep winning this fight. I know that some of it is there because I'm starting ECT again in the morning and really don't want to.

Or maybe it's because I'm such a f*ck up.

What's the point anymore?

*hugs everyone then crawls under a bed*

MammaMia 04-11-2008 03:35 PM

Damm thing made me lose my post :angry: :angry: :angry: :angry:

zowie 04-11-2008 04:08 PM

Does anyone actually care that I'm really struggling?? :-(
I told my dad I was feeling really **** and he just said 'I'm busy love' and walked off.
I called my CPN and she said she'd ring back. That was four hours ago.

I don't think I can control myself anymore. Someone is going to die today. If I don't kill myself I'm going to really hurt someone.

Pomegranate 04-11-2008 04:11 PM

I care Zowie, I'm sorry your Dad is being like that and your CPN should be ashamed of themself!! I can only imagine how hard this is on you right now but I have seen you get through some really tough **** before and I believe you can get through this too. Has your CPN suggested any ways to drown out the voices?

shadowedseraph 04-11-2008 04:13 PM

i give a sh*t zowie, can you block the voices? try giving your CPN a ring back, its disgraceful that you should have to but sometimes things like that happen

zowie 04-11-2008 05:53 PM

Thank you guys. My CPN still hasn't called back and they shut at 5 (It's quater to). The woman from EIP was meant to ring me at the beginning of last week and she still hasn't called.
My dad let me walk with him to pick up my little sister so I didn't have to be in the house alone, so he obviously cares.
But the so called professionals obviously don't care and I feel like I'm not worth ****.
Have managed to keep myself safe throughout today (except for an excessive ammount of SI), and will get through tonight by taking my meds and going to bed.
Don't know how I'll get through tomorrow. Or the night if I wake up. Sometimes I can't get to sleep because the voices wont leave me alone.

shadowedseraph 04-11-2008 06:13 PM

Have you got an out of hours number you can call?

Kahlia1981 04-11-2008 08:21 PM

Zowie - I feel with you on this one. I hate when the voices wake me up when I'm asleep. I care, and I'm sorry I'm no good at showing it.

Today I re-start the ECT. I'd much rather run away. I had f*ck all sleep last night. This day is going to be horrendous.

Meh.

*hugs everyone*

MammaMia 04-11-2008 08:45 PM

*hugs everyone*

Sorry it's not more :(


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