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Dramatic 20-10-2008 03:08 PM

You aren't a failure Hells.
Does that make me a failure for dropping out of college then?
Does that make me a failure for quitting a job i couldn't emotionally cope with?

It doesn't make anyone a failure if they feel emotionally they would benefit from spending a bit of time out for themselves.
We can't all be superhero's and get through school/college/uni all in one massive lump. Sometimes we need to re-energise and put ourselves first before going back into situations.

MammaMia 20-10-2008 03:12 PM

You're right.
Like I said, I very nearly didn't make it through my 2nd year of college.
So it's time I need a break.
I think I pushed myself too far and need to get out of education for a while.
I'm just scared about telling my mum.
Although she'll understand, my eldest sister did college 3 times (dropped twice) and raised her beautiful son and eventually got into uni and through all that aswell.
So proud of her, she's going up in the world, and is making a wonderful life for her, my nephew & now her boyfriend too (though he's obv works too).

shadowedseraph 20-10-2008 04:09 PM

*hugs Helen* its not a failure to neeed some time out *provides more chocolate*

MammaMia 20-10-2008 04:17 PM

*hugs Becca*
I know, but it feels like one for me

Pomegranate 20-10-2008 04:57 PM

Why do you think time out would help Helen?
What would you do if you dropped out of uni?
What would be different if you weren't at uni?
Where has this idea come from?

MammaMia 20-10-2008 06:12 PM

Why do you think time out would help Helen? I think it'd help by getting my head together, having a break from education and gaining more money.

What would you do if you dropped out of uni? Get a job, most likely full time.

What would be different if you weren't at uni? I wouldn't be studying, I'd be working instead...

Where has this idea come from? It's one that's entered my head several times. Plus a few people think it'd be a good idea.

I really don't know what to do :S

xflutterbyex 20-10-2008 07:32 PM

Thankyou for the blanket and Teddy *curls up on a bed with the blanket and teddy* I feel like the baby of the group here...

I just need to feel safe. I discovered today... well i realised i may have an eating disorder... i just cant accept that... im scared... im really scared x

BoundNoMore 20-10-2008 07:49 PM

*offers KJ safe cuddles*

Kahlia1981 20-10-2008 10:28 PM

Hi again all.

*hugs everyone*

I want to go to sleep .... but I can't sleep. I'm out of sleeping pills. Meh. Thankfully I see my pdoc today .... although after the last conversation I had with him I don't know whether I want to go or not. Meh.

shadowedseraph 20-10-2008 11:21 PM

*hugs Kahlia* how did it go?

MammaMia 20-10-2008 11:37 PM

*is hiding*

Kahlia1981 21-10-2008 01:33 AM

Becca, *hugs you* Will tell you how the pdoc appointment goes a bit later on ... it's only 9:30 am here and the appointment is for 12:45.

Helen, are you okay ?? Is there anything I can do to help ?? *hugs you*

Pomegranate 21-10-2008 04:12 AM

I ****ing hate A+E. The staff are either brilliant or complete *****. Just got told it would be hard to stitch one and it wouldn't close with strips but 'never mind eh? You self harm so you obviously can't be too bothered what your body looks like'. This after waiting a total of 5 hours. Bastards. Oh and ignoring me whilst I sat there crying, the nurse wouldn't even speak to me as she dressed it. In the end a patient across the corridor came across (the door was open as I was a 'psychiatric case' so for safety reasons) and asked the nurse if she was blind and couldn't see I was upset. It was so humiliating. And now I have to go see my practice nurse every other day to make sure it doesn't get infected.

************ *********????!!!!!!!!!!!!

*throws self into corner of cushions and hides from everyone*

MammaMia 21-10-2008 05:12 AM

Kahila, I'm not ok. Fell asleep at 11pm but woken up now and can't nod back off- it's ****ing 4am!!! I have to be up in a few hours for my assessment grrr. Hope you're ok.

Emma- that's not on at all!! Please make a complaint? *gentle cuddles if you will take them :)*

Kahlia1981 21-10-2008 06:39 AM

Helen, I'm sorry that you're not doing so great. Wish that I had some more words to say that would help or provide comfort. *cuddles you and holds you tight*

Emma, those nurses at your A&E sound like the entire health system where I'm from. I've been up there before and been the only psych patient in A&E, and the nurses from psych Intake & Assessment refused to see me because it was more important to them to have lunch and coffee. *cuddles you if you are able to accept it*

Well I saw my pdoc. He was quite happy because my lithium levels have jumped from 0.5 (barely therapeutic) to 1.2. Toxic is over 2.0 so he's currently quite happy with that. I told him about recent circumstances and he prescribed me 50 diazepam. He told me that he wanted me to get the Valium brand instead of the generic because the Valium comes in push-out packs instead of bottles and that should hopefully make it harder for me to OD, even though he knows that I don't OD regularly. He just wants to make it as easy for me to get control over those urges as physically possible .... which I quite understand. The bad thing is that he wouldn't give me a prescription for Stillnox (my sleeping pill). He wants me to try for a couple of nights without it to see if I can sleep without it. I did tell him that sometimes it takes up to 4 of them for me to get any sleep at all. He's really worried that I'll become addicted to them .... or that I might already be addicted to them. If I'm still having issues with my sleep in a couple of days I think that I'll be ringing his receptionist and asking her to arrange for him to write me a script.

I actually feel okay. Not brilliant, but okay.

*hugs everyone and offers soft drink and chocolate*

MammaMia 21-10-2008 06:43 AM

Yay for feeling a little ok. I'm still flipping awake and my mind keeps thinking about this year- what a train wreck (excuse the pun) I've made of this year and uni so far. ****ing hell. I think I'll stay at uni- just need to catch up during reading week and then stop missing lectures....

My head really hurts :( It's nearly 6am, maybe I'll go have a long breakfast :P and try not to wake my mum...

Kahlia1981 21-10-2008 07:59 AM

*hugs Helen*

*hugs everyone else*

zowie 21-10-2008 09:56 AM

Ooooh page 666. Uh oh. :P

Pomegranate 21-10-2008 10:05 AM

lol Zowie!

Thanks for the hugs :)

Went to bed at 4.30am and been up since 7 cos of this god damn virus thingy. The worst thing about yesterday was after all the crap, nobody even asked if I wanted to talk to anyone. I hate the NHS.

shadowedseraph 21-10-2008 10:18 AM

*hugs to everyone* I have to go back to the flat from hell today :( my mum wont let me move in with her and dad, say i need to be more independant *cries*


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