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The Faye Is Brilliant Thread
Hi guys =]
I'm putting this here because you all know Faye (fading existance) and you'll agree with me. The warnings are just in case. Basically, I think Faye is brilliant and I'm trying to make her believe me. I told her I'd find a way to prove to her that she should be here and she should be happy, and this is my way. She's going through a tough time right now and this is the best way I can think of to show my support, really. Faye, I think you're brilliant, and I know you won't like this, but I know I'm not the only one here who loves the fact you're in their life. You're such a beautiful, kind, caring and fantastic person who should NEVER have been through what you have. And none of it's been your fault. Because yeah, you're brilliant. So who's with me? |
Me!
Faye Faye Faye Faye Faye =) I haven't really had the chance to speak to you as much as I'd like but I only have to see your posts and replies to people to know just how amazing you actually are. I hope with time you can realise that for yourself. I'm sorry for all you've had to go through and are still going through, but I admire you for your bravery and strength and courage. *cuddles* |
You've come such a long way recently, Faye. Don't let those abusers in your head win.
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I'd like to believe you but my bro just got fired from his job meaning until i have work and he has another job we are home together almost all the time. Im out tomorrow i cant stand it and its only been a day. Im going back to square one all im thinking about is cutting and suicide. Im sorry. Its my punishment for writing my story having to spend more time with him so he can tell me how awful i am and yell at me and do whatever he wants. Its everything i deserve.
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Hun, it's HIS fault he got fired. It's not your punishment it's his for being crap at his job or whatever. It has a bad after-effect but it's not your fault at all.
You deserve to have never have had him as your brother. Because he's horrible and you're not. Stellata's right hun. |
You don't deserve such treatment at all.
Your life is worth more than this abuse of you. Perhaps you can stay in a library during the day? Many now also have free wireless internet access. |
It may not be my fault he got sacked but its not a coincidence that i write my story for the first time fully and a few days later he gets sacked. To make sure i know what i did was wrong. I should never have told never. Even mums not being nice to me either and all i want to do is hide away and die. Why cant people just let me. Yeah im going to the gym and then to town for job hunting and to just get out for a bit but with the state im in ill either buy blades or something to binge with so prob not my best idea but hey. Its all i deserve its true it really is.
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How about taking no money to town? Just what you need to get there and for the gym? No extra, and then you can't buy blades or binge food. I have to do that sometimes. Your brother and mother are abusive hun. The problem lies with them, and you're the victim of it. Telling your story was a good thing. It was so amazingly brave, and definitely the right thing to do because now you can work through it. And logically speaking (please excuse my logical mind) you told an internet forum. This means that your brother and other abusers cannot get into trouble because you haven't given the information required for that to happen. Instead you've described the events and how you feel about them, which will have no negative consequences for anyone. It's a good thing for you to do, it's far better to get your thoughts out of your head this way than through self destruction. |
FAYE
YOU ROCK END OF NO BUTS NO IFS YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xxx xx x |
Faye lovvir your amazing
Its nor your fault! You done nothinh wrong If you wanr to talk yu know where I am Loce you <3 |
*throws party*
Faye you are amazing darling =] x x x |
Thank you everyone i really appreciate it and love you all, hun its my fault if i didnt write or speak then i dont see him which is safish. He got sacked cause faye spoke now his home. He yelled lots tonight at me and mum. Dont like it am so frightened. I hate this and yet its everything i deserve for being such a vile disgusting being. I wish i wasnt here.
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Faye you are such an incredibly amazing and beautiful person!
*cheers Faye, faye, faye, faye* Hell I will run for vice president of this club...but I think I will have quite a few contenders... I am so happy to have you in my life Faye...we all are!! You didn't derserve anything that has happened to you, no one does....oh and guess who I stole that off...you hunni....you said them to me and I love you for it!! *squishes* xoxoxo |
*Cuddles* Im sorry that your having such a hard time Faye. We all love you though. Your brilliant! Horray for Faye!! You really are such a lovely person. You mean alot to us, You dont deserve to be going through this. Your really brave and you have a huge amount of courage.
Take care best wishes Ian xxx |
Faye, you telling and him getting sacked are two completely different events. And even though they happened close together, they are not linked. The only way they would be linked is if you went to his work and told them your story, which you didn't.
And now there's a vice president of the thread, which just gives extra support to the fact that you are brilliant. =] |
Your determined to show me that you think im wrong arent you.
I know they are different but him being home is punishing bad and mum is equally as bad. Him yelling/moaning at me constantly and mums lovely kind words "oh those jeans look tight on you" suggest how awful and vile i really am. He yelled at me cause i didnt realise i was meant to wake him up this morning. I cant do anything. I cant even fill in a stupid job form. Im just not meant to be here, be alive or anything. Its ok i know this now. |
*cheers* =D Faye is great! You're a sweet, helpful, beautiful, loving friend. You deserve lots of good things and not even a fraction of the grief you're given. *hugs*
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Faye is a self centred little whore
who needs to die. I dont care what anyone says its the truth she needs to cut and hurt as much as possible she deserves it If you havent worked out who this is im sure Laura can fill you in. |
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Faye you are such an amasing, brilliant and stunning individual. I'm so lucky and happy to have made you as a friend. You deserve nothing but love & happiness and have had to deal with masses of grief & pain. You deserved nothing of what happened & you've been so brave in writing it all down. You are in no way to blame for anything, nor should you let yourself feel intimidated by anyone else. You are beautiful, inside and out. One day you shall see it. I just wish that day was today. I Love you <3 |
i dont really know you, but i know your kind and caring, you took the time to answer my thread when i was in need and not everyone takes the time to reply to others they dont know. so thank you for that and pm if you ever need anything.
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Faye <3
Luffs you lotses and you are indeed brilliant:) xx |
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Tom, I know you're angry with me, and that's ok. I'm going against everything you believe in. Faye is one of the least self centred people I know. I'm so so glad she's alive cos I love being her friend. And I wish you didn't make her believe what you tell her. Not only is it cruel but it's a lie. Tom, by the way, is a voice that Faye has to deal with on a regular basis. He abuses her in the ways she is/has been emotionally abused in the past. Kind of like all her abuse personified in her head, if you get me. I'm not too sure how to help her quiet him down, any advice would be much appreciated. Faye, could you tell the doctor again? Let him know that Tom is getting louder, and violent? Quote:
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Laura, Tom isnt angry at you. Its me i spoke and i shouldnt have done. Must learn to be better.
No telling doctor. That would be bad. Very bad. |
I'd rather he was angry at me than you, he can't hurt me.
Talking is GOOD. Please try and tell the doctor hun, I know you want more help hun. And I think you need the extra support. |
Its ok, i get used to it. Its fine. Only what i deserve.
I want you to take that line and use it for yourself. I dont know im scared. I dont deserve help. Ill probably end up lying as usual about how im fine and doing better. |
Write it down, keep it in your hand as you go in. That way you can just put it on the table as soon as you sit down, and tell him to read it.
You DON'T DESERVE ANY OF THIS! |
No, lies are best. Means less questions.
Means i can carry on with my secret life of destruction and unhappiness. I do its ok, toms helping me understand more now. |
Not true.
You know that really, you said yourself you want extra help. Tom isn't at all hun. He's not the voice of truth. When people have voices in their heads hun it's never a good thing. You know I'm speaking from experience and not being patronising (I hope). This voice needs to be quitened. I think you know this too. |
Only cause they tried to force me and i wanted them off my back.
Hun Tom likes me really, he may hurt me but its for my best interests altho saying that i know your right. I just feel with him it all feels so normal and right with what he says. |
Hun, say Tom was a real person. If you saw him bullying someone, and he said it was because he likes them and wants them to be good, would you believe that? Even if the bullied person agreed, would you believe it? Bullied people often lie about being bullied out of fear, and that's no different whether they are real or in someone's head.
It feels normal because it's all you know, but that doesn't make it right. Sorry I'm so late in replying. |
hun i would agree, but you see i talked about tom to my psychiatrist and she didnt know what to say really. I told her he was honest with me and told me the truth about how bad and ugly i am and how he tries to make me cut. Hes ruining my so called good work on my ed. But its ok hes making me see things others have tried to show me that are not right but he shows me hes only being honest.
I tried to talk about him, my brother all the bullying and now all i can feel is hate from tom and im living in fear, fear of my life, fear of my safety, security and sanity. |
None of that makes Tom right.
It's rubbish that the psych didn't help much - maybe she hasn't really experienced this kinda thinkg before in a client? Could you maybe try again with him/her? He isn't being honest. He's a voice your brain has formulated possibly as an effect of the bullying you've suffered. Your brain is ill right now. If you feel unsafe is there anyone you can be with? Talking about the abuse you've suffered is the right thing to do, I promise you! |
I dont know she was really nice about it all and said different therapy would be better to deal with it and that i could always talk to her or if in crisis see the duty manager but thats hard given i dont live that way anymore.
Hun i promise you he is, if i agree with him i dont get punished so much. Sorry. No, im not safe and i cant be with anyone im with my family well my bros around somewhere :s Talking hurts too much i cant talk anymore. |
=[ why i only ust see this
Faye baby *cuddles lots and luffs* I know talking hurts but will help *nods* Only a pm away if you ever needs me k xxxx |
Thanks sweetie
Loves you all :) xxxxx |
sorry so late only just got let out.... faye...sweetiepie ... you are mazing u rea;;y are u mean loads to mee... my angel :)... i love you loads... and one day u will see how amazing u are, and how many lifes need you.... take care ... love you and need u soo much... XxX
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Huni im always here for you, you know that anytime night or day. But you will see one day how evil and disgusting faye is. How ugly and vile that i am that i cant cut away the badness however much i try.
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Hun, I know I discussed this with you already, but just wanted to reiterate that you're NOT vile at all. Or ugly, for that matter.
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I know hun, but im at the point if i see my face in the mirror i want to be sick. I cant even cut the way i want to -how pathetic. I am so ugly my rant explains this a bit. Mum said how fat i was again and how i should be loosing more weight.
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