I feel so ill, I've ODed again, again.*urgent*
 

I've drunk X and taken two X. Is a first aid advisor online? So I can find out if I need to go to A & E again, my legs hurt alot, and I feel really sick. Like I'm gunna puke any second. I don't want to go to hosp. I didn't take three, I was going to, but I got scared. I had an argument with my Mum and I stole some more painkillers earlier from her room, my stomach is really hurting now.
I think
ow.
OW
f**. This feels like this is it help. What do I do?:crying:
I'm sorry
Helen, liz, and everyone on RYL.
but I needed to do it again so much.xxx

Hannah i think you should take out what you have used hun.

But i think you need to go to the hospital.

not again, no they're going to hate me there.
xxxx

Hannah any overdose is dangerous and you need to go to A&E anyway, especially since this is your second OD in two days both in a medical sense and in a state of mind sense what has made you take the second OD? Please seek medical assistance.

Hannah they won't hate you. They would want to help you. Please go to hospital.

Claire wouldn't want anything bad happening to you hun. Neither do i.

You know where i am hun.

Please go to hospital.
OD's on thier own are dangerous but especially as you took one yesterday aswell.
They honestly wont hate you at the hospital- they are there to help people.
Please go.
*hugs*
xx

Her mum wont take her to A&e so I gave her the number for her local A&E and she is going to call them.
Ill update you from there

hannah, sweetie, i think you know you need to go to hospital. so tell who you need to tell but go and get yourself checked over.

you have been so brave to tell us here so....go go go. we will be with you all the way for support

*hugs* xx

Hannah....

Babes, why again?

Hannah hope you're ok, pm me yeh?

big sis

Thanks for the update.

I hope you get help

Jane

*cuddles you*
I tried calling you but your on the phone, i guess to A&E or NHS direct.
Hope your okay han, I love you loads, if you read this tonight, call me when you can
xxxx

I rang her house everyone & shes still there, i wasn't allowed to speak to her though. I didn't ask any questions for obviuos reasons.
I guess I'll have to wait till tomorrow.
x

Basically tomorrow they want me going Ip , I am shitting myself.
xxx

did you agree to go?
what did they say?

*Squishes*

I hope you get the help tomorrow sweetie. Please let them help you, you do deserve it x

No I didn't but Mum is forcing me, she can't take me anymore,the NHS direct woman wants me taken in as soon as possible,
They're going to stop me, they're going to control me, I just had a panic attack, they said my suicidalisation was really serious.
I don't want to be here anymore.
xxx

It is serious, Hannah. I know it's hard when you feel so desperate, but hopefully in hospital they will give you the therapy and support to help you feel safer with yourself.

Your really really brave.i hope you are by now getting the help you need.

Please let us know if you can or does anyone else have an update?Thinking of you.

Well i am having an assessment 24th July it makes me worried though right now, because I know how much I could do in that amount of time to be honest, I will try not to OD again, but if my Mum buys any more pills, I know I'll take them all, because I always manage to find them.
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Hannah hunni, you need to let them help you. Whatever it means. If IP helps you then... But baby gurl, we don't want you to keep hurting yourself. You're my Little Me. *hugs*

Maybe if you try REALLY hard not to OD between now and your assessment, then they won't put you in?

Hugs

Please try not to OD again babes. For me and Helen?

And by the way, if it makes you feel better, even if you DO end up in IP, then you AIN'T going too lose Big Me, ok?

If you're IP i'm sure you'll still get to go online occasionally and we can snailmail.

But please show them how much you are NOT going to OD anymore. Because how is Big Me supposed to manage without Little Me? And Helen would be devastated too. Do it for us honey. Please.

Pretty please with a cherry on top?

You can't not be here... What about the Cardiff RYL meet? When you get to meet Big Me? Isn't that worth living for? To get a proper hug and not a virtual one, off of Big Me?

SURELY that means something to you...? ISN'T that worth living for?

mj

x x x x

You make me laugh MJ,
alot,
may I add, with the big me, little me thing, hehe

I am scared though,
what they will do to me,
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