Nostalgia sucks.
 

I was just cleaning out my computer and i found a load of random files full of poems, letters and things that all my old friends on RYL made me yeeeeears ago. Now i feel all nostalgic and sad about the people who i don't speak to anymore and i have no idea how to get in cotact with most of them again. I've just been through some old MSN convos aswell, i've spoken to SO many people from here over the years and i can't help but wonder what happened to them all.

I kinda wish there was a post where all the oldschool RYL'ers could leave us a note or something to let us know they arent dead.

I think too much.

I love youuuuu

...and that's all I've got. I know how you feel. So many people I met here have disappeared. :(

tis true....i miss so many ppl and cnt stand to delete an email...curretnly i have 4 discs from one friend i met when i first joined 4 41/2 years ago [time to make another] and a seciond dear friend i have...idk how many...but i cantbear to reply and then delete them...so i ahve saved them to disc and i can read them whenever i want...
hard to believe so may are gone...
sorry but io miss the community feeling of the old ryl...THAT was a 'family'....
sad very sad
romp

Hi ya,

I understand how you are feeling as I've been through the same experience. People move on, we just have to accept it, but people are never forgotten, those experience last for life and there will always be a time in each of their lives that they will remember the times they had with you and how much it meant to them.

I think you ought not to go through them anymore, just put them away somewhere and out of the way because clearly it's upsetting you. You must also consider the possibility that these people have changed, and even if you did get back in touch with them, you may not even like what you find, and this has also happened to me before too. I think you should keep those memories dear to you but leave them as memories. Look forward now to making new friends to share a likewise or better experience :)

Take Care.

yeah.
over the years, i must have spoken to literally hundreds of different people.
i remember there were people i was really really close to back when i first joined, and now i can't even remember their screennames. they could still be here for all i know.
i doubt many/any of them are dead, jools. just moved on with their life, i guess.
it's nice to see you back, if anything.
x.

JOOLS.
OMFG.
How the HELL are you?!
=P

Pointless post of the day number oooooooooone out of the way.

p.s I found an epic picture of me and Goodall the other day. Made me snort and think I should probably send it to you,but really,it was THAT bad.
If you've got old email convos,you've got email addys...

xxx

Nostalgia does suck.
That's about all I have to say x

It's true. I've spoken to So Many RYLers over the time I've been on here, most of whom I probably wouldn't even remember & they probably wouldn't remember me.
It's sad really.

I know the feeling love.... especially when you have no idea what went wrong between you :(

*hugs*

I know exactly how you feel. I've been looking at some of the old meet photos and it made me all weepy. Same with chat. And the atmosphere. And everything.
Man I miss the old days..

I was thinking about old people from here the other day, wondering how things were for them and stuff.
Maybe some of them are still are here, i dunno.

Send it! I wanna see! I've got some cracking photos from some of our first RYL meets, i may have to put them on Facebook for a laugh. Half of those email adresses don't seem to work/exist anymore, it was a long time ago. =(

I don't normally get like this, it was just a bit of a shock to the system to find all those files and have all those memories come flooding back. I'd forgotten that i even had them. I know most of the people i used to know are probably fine but i still wonder sometimes.

Ah well, nevermind.

Goodall! Haha, I remember him.

Yeah, Jools, it's nice to see you popping back, like Linda said. I know what you mean though.

most of it feels like it's so long ago it didn't really happen. Like it's all in my head, somehow. I know how you feel, though, really. Weird to think of all the memories.

lots of ruin'er/early recover'ers have come out of the woodwork recently, that i've noticed.
&by lots i mean three. (jools, rosie & megan/kiri).

mm, I go through phases, really. I've never officially left... but similarly I probably won't be around for that long either. I'll be back, though, inevitably.

I was wondering about Goodall and some others the last two weeks. I have lots of stuff saved since I used to save posts and threads I was in or liked and just replace hard drives when they are full.

i wish i had the tolerance to leave to be completley honest.

Most annoying thing is I just think how great it would make them feel to realize people were thinking about them and missing them and yet we have no way to tell them :(

It should be ok to post these since they were used as posters all over (take em down if not of course) - from 2004 around:

oh my gosh, i remember that!
i don't think i'm in it though. sadface.
i can see some people i recognise that aren't on here anymore though.


edit;; do any of you remember (i think his name was craig?). i can't remember his screenname but its gunna bug me for ages now.
i reemember he was a big manics fan & lived in birmingham (i think?) &used to make the nicest threads.

steerpike! that was it. i remember. he had a panda for an avatar.
&the thingie under his name said "i wanna be your own possession."
oh gosh. those days were amazing on ryl.

Yeah "Steerpike". He was into race cars as well as Pandas. He was from around Newcastle I think. Every once-in-awhile he would make a long ansgty post about "loneliness" in General and almost every time this other member would always reply "oohhhhhh Craigeeyyyyyyyyy! I Loooooove Yoooouuuuu!!!!!"


Oh and here is thumb of newspaper from 2004:

I remember Craig! I found a letter from him the other day actually. I had a text from him around Christmas I think. Last I remember he was training to be a driving instructor.

aww. first of all, HI JOOLS! really nice to see you :)
i definitely have moments of really strong nostalgia for old RYL.
i remember i once found a copy of a thread from '04 and all the regulars who are grammar nazis now were still going "ye but relly ur soo cool!" and i laughed and missed it.
the first time i ever felt a real part of this site was in the original RYL family thread with someone like awakedreaming, dreamingaway, she was the sweetest person i've ever met on here. and casper! and the three rosies.
alright, alright, i'm done.

haha. i lol'dd. i used 2 type lyk dis on ruin, but then, i think i can be partly excused because everyone did, and i was 14.
i'd like to see the thread emily, if you still have it :].
&. owh, first time i really felt "a part" of the site was in the post-whore thread in f&d that moved so fast it was ****ing crazy (we spammed over 100 pages in the first couple hours if i'm not mistaken). that was when i realised people actually knew my name and knew who i was. it was a nice feeling :).

sorry lindar, it's gone into cyber space :|
goddamnit, now I'M getting all nostalgic.
ah well, time for school.
blehhhh

I hope Craig has trained to be a driving instructor. I can imagine him doing that!

I miss people, and i miss being close to the people that i was close too.
No one but myself to blame for that though i suppose. I/people move on and such.
Weird to see some of those photos though! I remember specific bits from threads such as 'The post-whore thread' etc.. etc.. and the first ever RYL london meet.
Joys.

Ali xox

Aaah, casper! I remember her!

It's really bugging me now because I recognise so many people in those photos but can't put a name to them!

Yeah, she's still about occasionally too.

Oh my i've just remembered who Craig was now. Ha.

Ali xox

Lindaaa http://www.recoveryourlife.com//foru...ad.php?t=39510

Ali xox

I know more than half of them (leaving out present peeps):

Goodall
Bleeding Porcelain
LateAtNight
Nine
Moonlightlove
ColourOfAnger
Hellfire
Briana
Stading In The Rain
Delicate Fairy
Poisoned Angel
Wasteland Soldier
Melisa
Badseed
Angel Baby
Carl
Daydreamer
Deranged Nymphet
Deep N Meaningful
Nanimonai
AndiH
Unkown To Me
Draven
Mnotperfect
Steerpike
Almight Bollocks Monkey
Stalemate
SicTransitGloria
Precarious
The Hollow
ixmissxyou
Poet In Despair
Alpha x
Blue Angel
I Am Just Make Believe
Fake It Hard Enough To Please
ScatteredButtertfly
Bloodriver
Bec
Used Whore
Razorblade Refuge
Anya
IShotAndyWarhol
Mysaycara
Crazziecutter
HazelEyes
Whitefish
hannahj
Icedemon
Insidefinallyout
Imissotoken
Broken And Bleeding
Talamore
Maya
Kaleanea
McCarty
LongGoneBeforeDaylight
LonelyOutsider
Lost And Numb
Negative Creep
Perplexed Dreamer
The Hollow
Scootergirl
Kate
COrrupt Wishes
Broken Wings
Etchedinred
Used and Abused
Dark Ducky
Downsabeana
Lenore
CutAndBleed
Ikle Me
Ihateyou
Dave
Black Hole
Queen Of Hearts
Cataclysmic Mentality
Control Freak
Mariposa
Rubber Ducky

Heh - I know some people who got over 10,000 posts in that thread (that was when post counts showed under names by avatars)

Crazziecutter aka Fleur is still here occasionally, her names erm.. Everyonesdrunk or something. She posted in the Essex thread recently.

Ali xox

i remember when i first came there was three people that had some kind of cheesestick cult under their screen names.
and i never got what that was about.

uh huh.

Haha!!!!

No Joolsie, us oldies in chat frequently talk about how we wish we could get lives too.

And JOOLS! You rock!!!! Glad to see you poking your face in here., Wootage.

Gosh I recognise nearly all those names.

these people were especially nice.
oh man, i remember colourofanger. she was so ****ing cool. she was like, crazy in love with some girl, right. i remember her making loads of threads about her (this was back when it was okay to make threads like that because there weren't half as many people as now. everyone knew everyones business, but in a nice way).
i miss rosie/nine. we had some jokee times at the first dozen or so london meets. &draven/jess too. she was mega pretty, i remember.
man.
i wish these people would just come back, just to say hello & let us know how their lives are :(.
&wasteland soldier. she had "i need you like water in my lungs" as the subtitle underneath her username. she used to reply to serious threads with the nicest things.
i remember moonlightlove cos she had a picture of herself as her signature & she was really pretty.
&&. owh, i'm sure people remember kweeny/dani (gosh, i feel like a stalker). i never spoke to her much when she was here, but i remember thinking she was pretty cool.
ahhh. too many people. this is when i think that this place isn't so bad after all. lots & lots & lots of amazing people.

i hope they're all happy.

Yeah Miriam (CoA) was always a fav of mine of sorts (she was a Tyrannosaurus Rex you know lol).It was easier to know and remember people back then since people were not bunkered in so many other forums/threads. Ruin had that Town Centre/Square vibe that played over to V2 partially but not so much anymore imo. I think most of the RYL guys I can name are long gone too.

You probably remember Kweeny pics being photoshopped at Ruin to look like Avril Lavigne (by Goofytoad maybe?). Most of the above are still around on MySapce/Facebook. Miriam has a music page too.

****, brings you back.
Last I heard from Craig was last year around his birthday. Awk I really hope he's doing well for himself. Vrinda is back on here :) PMed her recently.
I mind Wasteland Soldier, don't think I spoke to her much.
Whatever happened to Rosie/Nine? She kinda disappeared for a while there and I think people began to worry. I still worry a bit.
Used to read Nikala/Casper's LJ but I don't know what has happened to her unless I'm still reading it without realising it if she's changed her username.
I remember Hellfire.

Waaay back when I first joined I remember some fella named LuSiD but I never spoke to him or anything, it's just the username has always stuck in my head.

Me and dreamaway are still in contact after all these years :) And our friend Parky/Buttons.

haha. i wasn't a very active member of ruin, but when recover came i'd like to think that most people at least knew my name.
it's so strange to think of that place (early-recover) as this place. because it really was so much more friends-orientated. it was just introductions, general, f&d, serious and reviews, and maybe a couple others that i never went into so i can't remember them (creative?). even if there were people i never directly spoke to, i still felt as if i really knew them, and cared about their wellbeing, to some extent.
now, this place has become so.. sub-forum-orientated and there are so many new members/members in general that unless you go to meets regularly or are in some kind of clique it's so easy to get forgotton among the crowd.

owh. i'm rambling and rambling. i'm just a bit sadd that all those people aren't here anymore (and i still am, haha).


edit;; i still speak to sara/dreamaway on livejournal a bit, but not much. she's okay.
&rosie/nine is okay too. i spoke to her maybe six months ago or so. she's alive & well.
casper/nikala was SO SO nice.

edit;; (cos i feel like i'm hijacking this thread a bit).
when i first first first came to ruin. the first person i remember who stood out for me was jedijuggler. i don't remember ever speaking to her (i thought it was a guy for ages). but there are always some people who you just recognise and follow around a little.
i don't even think she properly joined v2. or well, she probably did. but didn't stick around for long.

Lucy, I remember when you had the caterpillar or something avatar? Or was that someone with "clocks" in their name? I miss the old avatars! Bet we would all remember each other a lot better if we kept old names and d/ps.

on v2 i had the same avatar for like two years!
i don't know if anyone remembers it, but it was this:

I noticed you way before you posted a lot. The thing then was a lot of the nicest kids were always around but often were quieter than others. There was
always a huge element that never said as much as the "corps de xcorex" in the center of things but were subtley influential by what they didn't say/do. Confusing that but I didnt want to expound lol.

lostdoll (eimar?) you too! and dreamaway, there we go.
and i remember so strongly CHIA and this other girl uh...gabby? something about morbidfairy or something like that who were really nice but had really graphic sigs pre-sig guidelines. heh, good times.

i remember that cheesestick thingy =p whenever i think of that i think of aliiiii :) lol

i know most of the people on that list =)

Oh my god this thread is so weird.
I haven't heard from dreamaway in sooo long.
Nikala/Nicola/Casper/whatever else is on my Myspace. And so is Jess/Draven (and all her stunning photos).
And the ever lovely Alexis is on my Facebook.
I miss Rosie/Nine. She's lovely.

Those names bring back maaad middle-school-aged memories.

It didn't use to.