Support For Dave (bleedingdragon)
 

Hi guys, technically I'm not a Vet buut....

You may have noticed our favourite dragon, Dave, hasn't been posting so much recently, this is because he's having a real hard time, as you may have noticed from his (amazing) computer art thread in creative, and it'd be great if we could all show him some love and support so he knows he's not alone in this, and that we're all behind him.


Dave honey, I wish I could be of more help to you, you're an amazing friend who's always been there for me, and offered great advice. I know you can beat this, keep battling on, we're all right here behind you. You'll make it, just try and stay strong. *Big hugs*

Lotsa love, xxxx

Hey Dave,
I send lots of hugs to you. We miss you. Take care of yourself.
Miriam xxx

*hugs for Dave*
Take care of yourself hun.
Much love and more hugs.
xxxx
Alyssa

Hi Dave,
*hugs*
Thinking of you, take care.
Siobhán Xx

Dave sweetie sending you *massive hugs* I know you are struggling right now and I know its so very hard to see past all the pain you are feeling but know that you are a survivor and will win this battle you are fighting. Don't lose hope and Don't give up we are all here to support you.

will look for you later on IM if you want to talk.
huggies

BUMPETH

i too have missed you, *big hugs* mand x

dave rocks

Dave-i'm here if you ever need to chat hun.x

*hugs*

Dave how are you doing????? worried about ya hun sent ya a pm and IM'd ya please let me know how you are

I'm here always if you need me
huggies

*snuggles you*
been missing you around Dave.
please stay safe.
will be thinking of you.
much love.
xx

Dave .... Sorry that I havent been in touch with you recently, but I'm taking a bit of a break from RYL right now. But seeing this thread made me want to come back so I could post some words of support for you in this thread.

I'm very sorry to hear that you are struggling, and that things are bad in your world right now. You spend so much of your time supporting and caring for the other members here at RYL, but I rarely see you reaching out for help for yourself .... so I'm glad that you've got a friend in Amy and that she made this support thread just for you - coz you really do DESERVE some help and support for yourself Dave!

You are a wonderful friend to so many people here .... so its very sad to hear that such a caring person like yourself is struggling to try to keep his head above water right now. But its good for other people to have the opportunuity to give back all of that care, support and friendship that you've been giving selflessly to so many people here at RYL ..... its your turn to sit back and be on the receiving end of some support for a change, so we can hold your hand and help you through this very rough time in your life.

Please dont give up fighting or give up hope that things will be better for you soon. I know its difficult to see any light at the end of the tunnel when you are caught up in depression, hopelessness, and having painful memories of traumatic events from the past. Its tough ... believe me I know .... but you are tough too! You survived those awful times from the past, and you can also survive these moments in the present that also try to drag you down and give you grief.

Dont let those bullies win! Inside of you Dave, there is a part of you that is untouched by past traumas ... and this part will help you to survive and triumph in the long run, despite these difficult dark moments that you expereicne now. And each time you manage to cope and survive these difficult feelings, you will get stronger and stronger .... so much stronger than ANY of the bullies that you've ever faced!

I know that it doesnt feel like it right now, but you are a strong person Dave, and you can get through this rough time. You've managed to survive some really awful moments in the past, and also the resulting depression and trauma ..... and not only have you survived, but you've gone on to help others in similar situations! You've not let these past events or your depression beat you, but you've continue to fight it with all of your strength ... and that makes you a much stronger person than all of the bullies in the world!

Unfortuntely though, these tough moments in your life are all a part of the healing process .... some days it will be worse than others, but Dave ... you MUST hang on! Dont ever give up fighting! Right now you might need to lean on your friends a little more than usual, but hun - that's totally okay! How many times have you been there for other people? Well - now its time to let your friends be there for YOU! We all have times where we need just a little more help from our friends, and at RYL, we can all stick together and help each other get through these bad times ..... coz together we can be strong.

Take care Dave ..... you are such a caring, sensitive person who doesnt deserve this pain. Please let us help you. xxx

Take care, Dave =)
*massive hugs*

bumps for Dave.....

Hey hun thinking about you hope you are ok...will look for you on messenger soon.

lots of hugs

xxxooo

Me again, we're all here for ya dave, have been lookin out for you on MSN and RYL but I understand that you've been hiding. Let us know you're okay somehow. We're all here for you.

Lotsa Lovexxx

*snuggles and hugs*

take care hun
Cindy

Hey, sorry you're having a tough time Dave. Hope to see you around again.

I'm not around much anymore, for various reasons. But you were one of the members that made me feel comfortable here.

You are a wonderful person. Anything you need, just ask.

Hello my friends
i just wanted to quickly post a reply
im gonna read through your replies
im overwelmed by your wonderfull support for me
im so sorry ive not been here to reply to your replies ifeel bad for that
i will try and reply to everyone

ive been in a horrible place and this is the first chance ive felt ok to be on ryl again.
im so sorry for worrying everyone i would never want to do thaat

ive got to survive 4 months before i see a psychologist without support, other than everyones amazing support here of course
you all mean so much to me
youve all helped me hang in there, words cannot describe my thanks

Honey we'll always be here for you, we love you and we're all here to help you fight through these four months, you'll get there honey, I know you will. Hang in there. X

I totally agree you don't have to go through the next 4 months alone. you have help here. We will be by your side always.

snuggles and hugs
Cindy~

thank you Amy for this wonderfull thread
 

Amy thank you so much for this support thread for me im
overwelmed right now.

Its wonderfull to me, having all you support and care about me right now.
your all amazing .

im sorry ive been away from ryl,

just an update.........

Ive been discharged from my comm mental health team because i wanted to see a psychologist, my nurse was really angry with me for going to my dr asking for the referal, she kept going on at me how impossible it was to get an appointment with the psychologist. Grrrrrrrrr i felt a bad terrible person for asking for it. she didnt give me much choice stay with nurse and get nowhere or get referal to psychologist but if i did they would discharge me , there and then. Well i couldnt stay with nurse so i said i want a referal. This second nurses treatment was just as bad as my first, why is it you are made to feel so bad. Cause thats how i feel im tired of fighting for what i should be getting.

Anyway ive recieved my letter from psychologist team and its gonna be 4 months before i get an appointment just for an assesment, ive only just sent reply back....god i hope they recieve it in time i had 2 weeks to reply......its been so hard to fill out their bloody paperwork. Why is there allways so much stuff to fill out its tuff enough anyway then having to fill out paperwork on top...grrrrrrr.

Just for an assesment not for sessions. I dont know if i can hold on for 4 months but im gonna do my best, then if i get an assesment its gonna be 6 more months before i get an appointment........its crazy .... 10 months ..with no other support from professionals. I know others may have longer and its hard for anyone waiting but 10 months for me .....
i dont know .....i ....should have seen the psychologist from the beginning............
....i know he/she isnt a miracle worker but anythings gonna be better than where i am right now.

I feel abandoned by my family, my mum did very little while here, the one good thing was she was with me when i saw my bullies sidekick, and she was supportive then. Other than that she doesnt want to know, she wouldnt even stay with me in my house while she was here, instead staying with her friend , Ha ....safe ground yer..... you dont have to be around me do you......
....i dont want to be around me, but if you arnt i feel so alone and abandoned by them, they dont care nor does my dad.
I know families arnt perfect and things happen but their distancing from me and constant questions and expectations of
why arnt you over it yet, just forget about it, its been ages since your divorce why havent you got through it yet,
it must be your fault not the nurses that your not improving,........................................ ...............

I wont talk to them about it anymore. Other than my brother whos supported me all along, altho i think hes tiring of me, im such a burden arnt i oh im so sorry .................................................. ........................
for causing you all this trouble i should be ok by now shouldnt i .........well i wish i wasnt here that would solve everything wouldnt it.

my mum wont talk to me about what the nurse said to her, i gavemy mum permission . But my mum wont speak to me........grrrrrrrr. My mum wont talk to me about the conversation she had with my nurse......why......whats to hide.

She my mum warned me off asking her about my past and stuff with my dad, she said im going back to spain and
"i dont want any stress off you dave".............hell i give up oh so sorry mum i will just go and hide yer never mind whats going on with me i thought you came over to be supportive ........well i was wrong there .

hell wheres that big black hole i wanna jump in and disapear for good

And she sides with my dad over the phone conversation i had with my dad where he said those hurtfull things to me. My mum denies my dad said them. Im so angry im 42 years old why cant she be open with me its killing me more knowing they are hiding stuff, my relationship with my dad has allways been stormy,constant arguments, putting me down, we dont speak much, in the last few years our relationship is better but still not as it should be and the issues between my mum nearly leaving a few times, and her depression and she nearly ended everything, ............for f**cks sake just tell me .

my mum telling me to talk to my dad about it will be a total waste of time hes never told me in all this time. ........................life is so ............hard....... easy get out clause innit mum just ask dad dave.... er yer you were there to mum why cant you be honest with me. Ive been honest and open with you ive told you how bad ive been and my attempts on my life.

Im just lost ........... but holding on knowing others care more about me at ryl ,

i have a drs appointment in 2 days, these last couple of days have been hard the bully in my head grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Get out of my head .............................


Ive focused on others and cared for others because i care about others, and its helped me keep going and stopped me sometimes thinking about my stuff, but i realise to
i have to step back and face some of my stuff here, thats so hard and scary too.

youve shown an Old Dragon that he needs to sit back sometimes and let others help him , im so greatfull to have you all here

Amy what youve done for me speaks volumes and thank you for saying im an amazing friend ..er i care about you amy and will allways support you

im gonna keep battling even tho its hard, and try and stay strong knowing my friends are close by my side you all helpme.

lots of hugs Amy and stay strong yourself
look after you

Dave

Ive gotta go hide for a bit.......................


i will be back and reply to everyones replies please be patient with me, its so good to have friends here at ryl who care

Dave

hi dave honey
i hope you are doing better
hang in there sweetie you are so strong and so brave i know you can do this
parents are always hard, nobody is perfect and when our parents are imperfect it is especially hard, but it sounds like yours love you in their own way even if they show it in strange ways. i can sympathise with that and i am so sorry your relationship with them is strained right now to say the least.

be strong and keep us updated so we dont worry too much

Miriam,
Thank you for your hugs and your support im hanging in there

Dave

[quote=Ally83;230809]*hugs for Dave*
Take care of yourself hun.
Much love and more hugs.
xxxx
Alyssa


Alyssa,
Thank you for your support, and your hugs help me alot

Dave

Hi Dave,
*hugs*
Thinking of you, take care.
Siobhán Xx



Siobhan,
Thanks for your caring hugs and thinking about me

take care

Dave

[quote=Never_ending_pain;231000]Dave sweetie sending you *massive hugs* I know you are struggling right now and I know its so very hard to see past all the pain you are feeling but know that you are a survivor and will win this battle you are fighting. Don't lose hope and Don't give up we are all here to support you.

will look for you later on IM if you want to talk.
huggies


Cindy ,
Thankyou for your massive hugs, hugs you back lots, im holding onto the survivor bit, hope i can win thanks for believing in me,
thanks for your support
Dave

Evie,
Thank you for the hugs, and i was hiding alot,
will try and stay strong

take care

Dave

Mand,
thanks for your hugs and support, means alot


Dave

thanks
 

Callie,
Thanks for saying i rock means alot, and thanks for caring

your great to

Dave

Chels my friend i know your not on ryl as youve left but im thanking you
here anyway. Your a good friend and this Old Dragon is around
thinking about you
take care of yourself
shout me if you need me on msn

Dave

Hey my friend,
Thanks for the snuggles , they comfort me,
ive missed you to i will try and be around more
i am staying safe as much as i can
big hugs
Dave

Typsee,
Thanks for saying i spend alot of my time supporting and caring for others its because i care about them. Your right ive often supported others and not asked for support for myself, but i had Amy who started this thread, so thank you so much. I do need to allow others to support me.
Thanks for saying im a wonderfull friend to others here, yer treading water is tiring im trying to keep my head above water. It .comforts me to see others showing there support.
Im tired of fighting im trying not to give up, thanks for believing in me


Hugs
Dave

Dear Dear friend,
Thank you for your kind words, you to Rowie have been there for me and im so greatfull. I know my friend you still walk by my side
holding your hand it comforts me, thanks,
im trying to stay safe and fighting as long as i can

much love back

Dave

Thanks so much for your support
it means alot
your hugs are comforting
hugs you back

Dave

Francesca,
Thankyou for your support it helps me alot, im trying to be around more.

take care
Dave

l




Thank you so much for saying that you felt comfortable with me and the support ive given.
Again your so kind in saying im a wonderfull person,
your support means so much

look after yourself
Dave

dave honey i hope you are staying safe and doing okay

Hey everyone , and Callie im sorry im still not around much yet, i am staying safe right now , i will try and come on ryl and hang around as much as i can .

My drs appointment didnt go to well , he said,
because i said the community mental health team wernt helping me then they wouldnt offer anymore support, they have discharged me ,especially as ive opted to see a psychologist . So i cant get any support from them
until i see the psychologist in 4 months , unless i see my dr inbetween , he wasnt much help , he never even sujested i come back to see him, and his attitude was to me almost like youve made your decision thats it.

hugs evryone

so i feel alone they dont care about me .

Hey sweetie, I only just saw this thread about. You know where I am if you need to talk Dave & never feel alone because you have all of us & you ain't getting rid of us so easily! *Lotsa lotsa hugs* take care of yourself mister xx

Its ok Lanny Hugs,
thank you for your kind words, i know you and others are here for me that gives me strength. Its hard but im determined to keep in touch and try and talk to everyone who cares and supports me. all your support for me is truly appreciated me im determined to get back to where i was before so i can support those i care about.

ive just gotta get this out in a post vvvv

I have done a rant most of it is in there how I feel but thought I should write something here

thank you for all your support


I feel empty inside no emotion no feeling nothing
But themn ive been tearfull too crying ??????
..............its scary.........................it should be me getting better am i ? i dont know cause it happened before then i felt worse ...........

i just want to sleep the days away i dont wanna get up and face the days
i get up as late as i can i hate the days why cant i sleep for ever
just let me go to sleep and not wake up please....................

i seem to want to hide away all the time even from those i care about
caring about others and supporting others has helped me its the only thing im good at ...i wanna hold onto that

let me escape this let me escape.......im trapped in this place where im scared of my ex and my bully i dont want to ever see them again i cant guarantee that can i they live locally and its doing my head in im scared of
seing them again theyve both screwed my life up so much in so many ways. Im terrified of them and relationships, friendships all the stuff thats normal i avoid like the plauge.............thanks to you two

im hitting doors in the house, hurting myself in other ways, now i havent cut in a week which is good but im scared of losing it and doing a big cut im trying not to

this stuff inside me its just waiting to explode, when these emotions come over me I want them to drown me and engulf me .

theres stuff i wish would stay burried but im terrified of it being triggered
by something or someone i wish id never witnessed it its horrible and unthinkable what ive seen and been through why cant i wipe it out of my head for ever why not ............what you went through and what you put me through ex screwed me up for ever. im scared of what i might do to others
god you pushed me to nearly cross the line i was so close to hurting you physically ex, but i never did you broke me apart by pushing me i cant believe how close i was to hurting you....id never never never forgive myself if id done that but you didnt care did you noe....you pushed me and pushed me
you wanted me to hurt you didnt you..........................................
.........you hurt me emotionally in so many ways i will never forgive you ex
i can never erase what you went through or what you did to yourself or me.............

im sick of this stuff inside me its like a record in that im repeating stuff over and over I want to change the record

*Hugs the Dave dragon tightly* xx

Lanny thank you friend so much really you help me

hugs

"Triggering suicidal self injury"




















Ive gotta get over this **** i have to i cant let it keep controling me

i cant keep going through this stuff its killing me inside i wish it would iether completly destroy me .............or get me to start getting over this
and heal....................please

the burden is too great .........its too much **** inside i want to release it
but i cant get it out of me.................im scared now if i see the psychologist they will turn me away i cant bare the thought they might
say im not ready for their help......................ive got to get past this crap.................its pulling me apart inside its so strong i want it to
destroy me or let me live with it please..........please let me
get over this .................whay why why did i have to go through this terrible
stuff i knoww i have to come to terms with it in order to move on

but i dont know how

yet i couldnt carry on with the nurse knowing i was getting no where....... i want to see the psychologist but im scared now

help me ...............please you ex and bully have hurt me so much inside that i as yet cant get rid of it stop tormenting me
how can i live with this horror inside me .......................................
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh h
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

can i really do this i dont want the psychologist saying im still not ready for them....................................you cant do that i hope you dont do that.

i want this nightmare to end or lessen its grip onm me
i fear it destroying any future life i want with others until i get past it or learn to live with it im imprisoned by it im in a walking prison like a zombie
only im aware of whats going on but i cant escape it

i cant deal with this crap its to strong ive got to get rid of it or dilute it

arhhhh i wanna explode........................................... .................

Evie,
Im so sorry for the delay in my answer , my telephone line has been faulty just back on,nection. So i had no internet connection and ive struggled to, thank you for your wonderfull reply to me. Thank you for your hugs, they help me alot.
I do want to beat this,
ive got to beat this or it will drag me to far down. I hope the psychs appointm is sooner , i havent had the courage to ring them to see if my letter has been recieved by them . Its awfull having to wait to see if i get an answer from them.
Ive been feeling so numb and its scary i just couldnt get through without cutting today, i had to its ok and im ok. Although im jumping from numb to being really emotional and crying so its weird.

I hope i find an understanding psychologist , i cant exactly choose the right one. i hope i can find one who will help me enough im just so scared its ages away. Im trying not to be afraid its so hard And i want to be here i guess you will see me hiding and in and out .

But thank you so very much for caring about me and supporting this is to everyone who has supported me


Dave

Dave, i dont know you and you dont know me dude but whatever the hell is up, i want you to know i got your back. I've seen how much you helped Amy and i owe you more than i could ever repay you for. Be safe and be strong brother. In our unity lies our strength.

- James

Dave,
I'm sorry, I haven't been around much myself recently, it's only now I feel able to return to RYL. *huge cuddles* Hang on in there. Feel free to add me to MSN, if you need, I'm almost always around to talk if you need it.

Take care of yourself, yeah?

-Hannah