Please show Tamobhuuta how much we care - shes feeling really unsafe
 

i have been talking to Tamobhuuta tonight.

And eventually she has bravely and courageously told me she has quite a serious suicide method planned for tomorrow which she has thought of for a while but now is determined she will carry out this time.

i wont go into details.

Being the caring person she is she has also been talking about how she wants to say goodbye to some people not least on RYL [though she knows the rules which is why she hasnt] and im very concerned about this.Also where she has responsibilities she feels she should let people know 'she wont be around'.

i think it shows just how desperate she feels that she is thinking and feeling the need to do such things and im worried it means she will act on her thoughts.

She has been a really ace friend to me as im sure she has also to many of us here.

She says nobody would miss her but i know we all would.

Please can we all try and give her some support to try and keep her safe and reduce the possibility she will do this tomorrow.

Tamobhuuta - i am very worried about you and care for you a lot.You have been there for me and now i want to be there for you too.Please dont do this.i am so worried for you.im selfish but i dont want to lose you and think your a great person.

Thanks everyone.

xx xx

OMG HUNNI I LOVE YOU and would miss you LOADS
i hope things get better
please dont do anything
your wonderful kind and caring and always supporting others
losing you would be devastating xx *holds safe*

Hi, I am new to the site but even so I am thinking about you and hoping that you are safe and that you will be given the strength to carry on--

Please find someone to talk to and get support, go to hospital and ask to see the on call phycologist, or talk to us.

Hey - I see you around a lot and I would miss you if anything were to happen so I can imagine how much that must apply to the people you're close to. I can understand feeling that suicide is the only way out but please please don't ever feel like you wouldn't be missed, because it would affect so many people.

Without knowing what's going on for you I don't really know what to say other than please reach out for help. I know you must be feeling incredibly desperate but people can help and there is nothing that can't be sorted or made easier to deal with. Try to let someone there know how bad you're feeling, go to A&E if you have to, whatever it takes.

I really hope that you're alright and stay safe. I'm around if you need someone to talk to or anything.

Sleepless, I hope you're okay too.

sweetie you have been so amazing to me as of late and I'd hate for you to be fighting alone

look at those who have already posted
look at me

you mean so much to so many and we are all here for you no matter what

thinking of you and love you heaps xx

Mim, sweetie, I am sorry to hear you are feeling so desparate right now. I am glad Kath has made this thread - as I think you need to hear how much people care about you here, and how much we hope you are able to reach out for help.

I know you spend a lot of time supporting people here. I have never seen you have a thread of your own though. I hope you are able to use this one. Please, do let us know what is going on for you - as we want to help you.

Can you contact any of your care team? or go to a&e to seek help there? It sounds like you are feeling very desparate, and that is the time to speak to these people. A&E would much rather you speak to the duty psych before you carry out any plans - So, please do so. For us, if not for yourself.

*safe cuddles*
If there is anything you feel you cant say here on a thread, my PM box is always open for you.

Thinking of you, and sending my love your way.

Roiben x

*****

*cuddles*

Miriam, I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling so bad right now. It sounds as if things must have completely come to a head for you to have a planned suicide method and to be considering things so seriously. Is it anything to do with results/university, as well as other issues occurring?

You can always PM or text me. I don't mind listening to you. You've been so amazing to me, I always feel I should give you lots and lots back.

I think that if you are considering killing yourself then you do need support. You deserve it, even if you disagree with me. Yes, sometimes talking does make things more complicated (a lot of the time, actually) but isn't it better having those complications out of your mind instead of bottled up, torturing it?

Take care. Here if you need to talk.

Mim, we care about you. So, so much.

You do need help. No one should have to feel like this. No one should have to have these thoughts. Least of all a person so wonderful and caring as you.

Take care of yourself, think about the consequences of any actions. x

hiya, you have been so kind and helpful to me! you are really an amazing person! you need to look after yourself aswell!!!

take care if you ever need to talk just pm me!
xxx

We've never really spoken before but I have noticed you leaving hugs on my rant thread and they never went unnoticed. I've also seen you about to say hello on chat before and I've thought you were a lovely person, seen you trying to give helpful advice to others - so please try let people do the same for you now in return. You deserve the support and you are not alone

Take care xxx

Im new but I care. I hate to think that you're feeling that hopeless. If you can't think of yourself, think of all the people who you've helped & how they'd feel without you.

Please try to stay safe. Lots of hugs for you

I know that we have never spoke but I have seen you around and I know you have left hugs for me on my threads and like already said they have never gone unnoticed.

I see that you are a wonderful caring warm kind person and I would hate for anything to happen to you and I am sorry that you are feeling so bad right now.

Use us all here if you need to you are loved and cared for so much. Even if you don't talk just to sit with us or sit with someone.

Take care xx

Please talk to someone. Someone you trust. Do you have any support at all? I don't know you that well but I've seen you help a lot of people. You are the one replying to my posts most of the time. I care about you. Please don't do this!

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Please don't go through with yoru plans Mim, we all love you a lot on here and everyone would miss you. You have been an amazing suppolrt to me lately and I couldn't bear to lose you.
Please get help, however scary it is you need it.

I don't know what to say really. I feel the way you do now. Sorry I've run out of words. Just wanted to say you can PM me anytime. I'll try to support you as much as I can. *hugs*

I am sorry you do not feel you can trust your support team, Mim. Do you think you can explain a little about why that is here?

I do not want to pressure you into talking, if you really do not want to. I do want you to know that we are here for you and we will listen and support any way we can. It is what this forum is for. I am sorry you still feel as though you should not be talking here, or that you somehow do not deserve our messages - I can only think that that is part of your illness talking.

You are an amazing person, Miriam, whether you believe that or not. I see your soul shine through repeatedly on these forums in your replies to other people. I think it is time you received some of that support for yourself.

I know you must be tired of talking things through with some people. Please, though, do not feel as though you shouldn't or that you do not need help - As you do, and you should.

I think the very fact that you are counting down shows that you need support right now. Any way you can find it, be that here, or by going to a&e and braving the services. Or maybe be seeing your GP or a Psych?

I am thinking of you and sending hugs your way.

Roiben x

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What are you scared of?

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Your family will be hurt if you attempt, whether it is successful or not.
What is it about living that scares you?

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What can the watchers do to you? Is it worse than hurting your family?

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How will they hurt you? Have they hurt you in the past? Have you, or anyone else, seen them?

Please get yourself help hun. I know that's hypocritical coming from me but please.
The Watchers can't hurt you, have they ever done it in the past?

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thanks

xxx

Thank you for explaining.

But how will they hurt you? Maybe you could try and avoid being alone. That way they won't hurt you, becuse I doubt they'd want to attract attention to themselves in front of others.

I still think you shuld contact your team Miriam x

mm you might be right there. -deleted-

I don't think that you're a coward at all. It is a courageous act to post in this thread, and various places around RYL. Just because you are scared of the 'watchers' does not make you insane, it makes you human. I think we're all terrified of something picking up on things we do wrong and hurting us in some way, you've just personified it?

There is no way I can or want to pressure you into talking. It isn't my place and I don't want to hurt you. Sometimes words just seem so feeble and they don't seem to describe how much you're hurting well enough anyway. Perhaps you could explain your pain some other way? I'm not massively creative, but I'm sure art might help somehow. It doesn't have to be publicised, just something for you to help yourself know what to 'say'. Why do you think that you are running out of words? Are you tired of talking and repeating everything, or are you at a mental block of how to explain what you're feeling adequately?

You do deserve support. You're one of the most amazingly kind people that I know and I am not just saying that. You might hate me for saying that, but sometimes it just has to be said.

Are there many people you can 'talk' to at the moment?

i am very concerned about Tambohuuta.i have been having a text conversation with her for about a good hour or so now.

Sadly she went out this evening with the intention of carrying out her plan.im trying to convince her to go back home but shes not very safe and not keen.

i dont know what else to do.i feel like a traitor if i do/that i would be doing something i dont know she wants in trying to get her help/that i would be going behind her back but im so worried im even considering calling the police.

i am so worried for her and she really needs help.And needs to know someone really does care.

And she doesnt see how wonderful she is and what a loss to the world her not being here would be.

PLEASE HELP ME WORK OUT WHAT TO DO.

Sorry.

And if you do get through this somehow and later read this Mim i understand if your angry but i am so so concerned about you.

i worried im going to lose you.

I am worried about you, Mim. I can see how scared you are right now, and how much you are struggling.

I understand how it feels if you try to explain something like the Watchers to professionals and they say it is an illness. Is this why you do not like people saying that you may have an illness?

I wish I had words that would make you feel better, and safe. I am thinking of you though, and hoping you are able to fight through this.

Roiben x

Miriam, you can text me if you need to as well as everyone else that cares.

Please go back home, there are a lot of people that care about you. I don't want to ask too many questions, Sleepless, because I don't know if I can on the main forums. I can try and help via PM if you want though?

leaving lots of hugs
sorry i dont have more words
hugs
xxxx

Miriam, I am so scared right now. Please come back, get help. We want you to be safe x

Sleepless try and keep calm, it will be ok. Maybe the police might be a good idea, especially if Mim is still having suicidal thoughts?

i think she is still very suicidal but i think i have convinced her to delay at least a bit and go home at least for now which she seems to be making gradual progress in doing.

She has been out at least an hour an half if not much longer walking around contemplating seriously actually doing this tonight here and now though so even if she is going back for now [which i believe she is thank goodness] i am still very concerned.

And sorry to anyone ive worried with this - im just still extremely worried myself even if she is going home.

i am calm but just want to help and feel im failing.

i see so much pain and i wish i could do more.

And if she sees this she will hate me [im so so sorry, i understand if you dont want to speak to me anymore Mim].She will probably think i broke her trust and everything by posting all this....and i guess i have.Am i bad?

Maybe im just selfish but i just dont want to lose her.Shes too good to lose.

Anyway this threads not about me.Please lets just support Mim.

And i think she really needs it right now.

Thanks everyone.

xx xx

I doubt that Miriam will hate you for posting this, I think it proves just how much you care about her. Please don't beat yourself up about anything, Kath, and look after yourself too. It is difficult when someone we care about is teetering on the brink of doing something we would find hard.

Miriam, take care of yourself.
*offers lots of hugs for when you return*

That is very well put, and so, so true. Sleepless you are not failing, you are amazing and such a caring person. Take care of yorself too, and remember there is a limit on how much you can physically do.

I'm glad you're on your way back Miriam. So many people care about you, and you have been so strong to talk abot it here. But maybe you need some more support than w can give you over the internet... It migt be hard, but please seek help. You deserve it. You deserve so much more than this.

hi. i'm so sorry i did this to you guys. thank you for caring but i'm such a bitch. sorry especially to Kath - i should have kept my mouth shut. i'm still not doing great. i'm seeing my co-ordinator and psych both on wednesday and am very scared and confused about it. i don't think i can be honest with them. anyway, i wanted to apologise for being such a cow last week. i hope you don't all hate me but i totally understand if you do. sorry.

You aren't a bitch at all, Miriam. You were struggling, and no one's problems should ever make them a bad person (especially when they aren't anyway).

Good luck seeing your co-ordinator and psych on Wednesday, tell us how this goes. I hope you can be as honest as possible with them, even a bit of honesty is a good thing, even if you can't say the whole truth :)

Also, there is no way I could ever hate you :)

Keep talking to us on here, we're listening.

Mim *cuddles*

You were not a bitch or a cow, you were struggling and needed some support. There is nothing wrong or bad about a person just because they need support. If anything, I hope you can see here just how much we all want to be able to support you and how much you mean to everyone here at RYL.

I hope that your Psych and CPN are able to help you when you see them, and that you are able to tell them a little about what has been going on for you, so that they too can support you and help you reach a place where you will not feel as desperate.
Roiben x

Hey, don't beat yourself up, you are struggling. This is a time when you should be trying to look after yourself hun.
How are you today?
I hope they help on weds.

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I think that you should say what you want to say. They'll be better equipped to know what they can do if you tell them the truth. It's not my place to say 'yes, say that' or vice versa, but I'd be honest because that's all they can ask and we can ask of you. Apologies if that was a terrible answer...

Sorry I didn't see this to now lovely. You know if you need me you can call me or text me any time you like. I'm just glad you're safe!

^^ I totally echo what Daisy said, I don't really come into this board much so :(

I think Wednesday you really should just be as honest as possible. If you don't trust them and the pills, tell them. Please just say as much as possible- while that's going to be really fucking difficult if you don't trust them, you need to find the strength to do it. Or even just see it as bitchslapping them in the face with the facts or something.

I don't know what reality is like for you... I should imagine its a bit different from mine. But I do know its generally not worth experiencing something, even if it is reality, if you're going to be perpetually scared of it. I don't know what more I can say apart from I love you and I want you to feel better... x