*Hugs Mark, Oliver, Matt, Tazz and Lindsay* I'm still feeling crap with this cold.

*Hugs Ian* Cough drop?

*Hugs Ian* , that's nothing to be ashamed of and you are so brave for telling your Mum :)

I feel really low. EHH. >_<

*hugs Ian, Mark, and Alyssa*

I think i'm going to end up cutting or overdosing soon. I wish I had never been born.

Feel so guilt ridden

I kept it to myself for ages and wouldnt talk about it. I didnt have anyone in real life that i could talk to about it. I felt unable to talk about it on here though. I was so scared. Its not anyones fault except mine. I should have spoke up. When you have constantly been hurt its very difficult. I just wish id had someone i could have spoken to about it. Its ok though its done now.

*hugs Ian* you should be really proud of yourself for telling your mum, definitly not something to be ashamed of.

*hugs Mark* why you feeling guilty, you shouldn't, always here if you want to talk, even if I'm not online PM me or message me on FB.

*waves to Angel* I'm sorry the voices are really loud, but I'm glad your trying to fight them, keep doing that, you can do it.

serenity, sorry your feeling so low, anything triggered it? *offers hugs if you want*

*hugs Lindsay* I really hope you didnt cut or OD and I know the feeling of wishing you hadn't been born, but you do deserve to live.

just want to say to everyone in here if you ever need anyone to talk to I'm always here, feel free to PM me or add me on FB if you want, anytime I'm here if you need to talk, your all such amazing people.

I've had a mixed day, went to a country house and played my french horn in the grounds along with my fellow students, but was sick on the bus on the way home (I get really bad travel sickness) then had a 4 hour train journey to my parents, am there now, but had a really positive chat with my mum about my appt at the Gender Identity Clinic on monday, hormones and surgery and general trans stuff.

*hugs Oliver* best of luck battling the Hayfever! That's a nasty one :(

*hugs Ian* Well done for telling your mom. It's a big step to take.

*hugs Lindsay* Please keep trying to fight the urges hun. Always here for you <3

*hugs Mark* Sorry you had such a bad day :( Anything trigger you?

*hugs Angel* I hope you managed to squash down those voices and overcome the urge to cut.

*hugs Serenity* Sorry you feel so low. Anything you want to talk about?

Had a decent day. Mostly need to clear my mind, so think I'm gonna try to dig up my ranting/venting thread and just use it as a journal. If anybody want to responds though, you can do so on here or via pm.

Hope everybody sleeps well <3

*hugs Ian* You were very brave in telling your mom.

*Hugs Serenity* I'm sorry you feel low.

*Hugs Lindsay* I hope you didn't cut or OD. I'm really glad you're around. You do deserve to live. <3

Angel, I hope you found a way to distract yourself from the voices. I'm always around if you need to talk.

*Hugs Mark* You don't need to feel guilty, darlin'. I love you.

*Hugs Oliver* I'm glad you had a positive chat with your mom. Also, I hope you can get rid of the hayfever soon.

*Hugs Taz* I'm glad you had a decent day.


Well... I had a **** day, pretty much. I got yelled at for hours, then one of my friends decided to start with me over text. I feel guilty, and stupid, and pretty much like I need to crawl in a hole and possibly get lost there.
So, then I went shopping.... and spent too much money. And it just makes me feel stupider.
I don't know what to do. I legitimately just feel like I am the worst person to ever grace (disgrace?) the world. I'm sorry... I'm just bitching and wasting space.

I love you guys.

*Waves to Angel*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Taz*

*Hugs Felicia* <3

Morning everyone, I hope you all have a good day. I'm feeling even worse today. Just want out of here.

*Squishes Lindsay* I don't really feel crash hot either hun :/

Last night I Burnt ........... Not done that before :/ I am really stuggling today.

Thanks Angel :) How are you?

*hugs all* how are you?

I'm back from camp.

*Hugs Laura* How was camp?

*hugs mark* it was tiring.
how are you?

*Hugs Oliver hard*

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs mark*
*spots misskitty*

*hugs everyone* How are you all?

*Bed time hugs my wardies*

*hugs Laura*
*hugs Louise*
*hugs Mark*

*hugs everyone*

I over did it in the sun today... I now can't sleep because when I lay down it feels like my mattress is made out of hot lava rather than cotton! :/

*gives hugs to all*


Going through a rough time right now

*Hugs Felicia* <3

*Hugs Rhi gently*

*Hugs Matthew*

*hugs all* how are you?

*hugs Rhi* lots of moisturizer might help a bit.

*Hugs Laura* I'm Hot and ....weird....... How are you hun?

*hugs mark* nothing wrong with weird.

I feel like I'm underwater. floating. detached from the real world. meh

*hugs everyone*

Every day just keeps on getting worse. I'm not sure that I have the strength to deal with this without overdosing but I know that it won't really help. I don't know what to do.

*hugs Lindsay* sorry that you are struggling

*Squishes Lindsay*

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs mark*

hugs everyone

*hugs everyone*
How are you all today?

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Louise*

*hugs Louise*
*hugs Crimson*
*hugs Ian*

*leaves out treats for everyone* sorry i'm not around much right now.

*hugs all*

had my first appt at the gender identity clinic today, it went well. I was honest about all my mental health problems and he said I can still transition, so next appt in 4-6 months then I should be on testosterone :D

*hugs other Laura*
*hugs Oliver* sounds like a good plan. I know someone who changed from man to woman and she is happy with it as far as I know.

I'm glad it went well Oliver *Hugs* How are you?

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Laura*

night time hugs my wardies

*hides in a corner*

Haven't been on in a few days so I just thought I would pop in real quick and wave hi to everyone before I go to sleep. hope people are doing okay. take care.