I can drive just fine in places that have little to no traffic but between almost being in a fatal accident (if I hadn't gotten out of the way in time... it was close) and knowing other people who have had bad accidents I just freak out. I am confident in my own abilities so I drive fine outside of town, I just don't trust other people's abilities. D's had a license and hasn't got the issue I have so why he refuses to be bothered to get one but insists I 'get over it' and get mine is frustrating and infuriating.

Taz *Hugs* April has been staying away from here as she found it was triggering her but I have her on FB and she is still about :)

I miss April :Emoticon(14)::Emoticon(14)::Emoticon(14)::Emotico n(14)::Emoticon(14): though I can't complain too much I have her on WoW if I would just be bothered to play more often.

hugs everyone, hi taz,

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OH I played with Hayley on WoW , I miss her .........I miss April too.

*Claims a bed to hide under*

*hugs Mark* How is Hayley? I haven't heard from her in forever either...
*hugs cantchillax (if okay)*

thanx. they are totally allowed.

*Hugs Crimson I don't know how Hayley is , she has not replied to my last 2-3 texts but should she be in touch I will pass it on.

*Hugs Cantchillax* Hi I'm Mark :)

Hi Mark. Nice to meet you.

to leave, not to leave, to leave, not to leave.
my mind will not decide.

leave where?

not where but who.
my abusive bf

ah...
well if he is abusive, why are you considering not leaving?

Because...its complicated.
I need his love. I don't want to be alone. And abuse isn't anything new.

just because it isn't new doesn't mean you don't deserve better...

maybe

*hugs everyone*waves at angel*
Gotta go -kids' school- I'll be back tomorrow :)
*leaves care packs*

*hugs Crimson, Mark and cantchillax* Hi I'm Oliver :)

hello oliver

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Oliver* I'm glad your out of hospital and that you havent done asny damage to your liver

*Hugs Laura* I'm not bad i guess Laura, how are you?

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs cantchillax* Hi im Ian

Damn im fed up of being so alone all the time. Yet everytime i try to make friends i just get hurt. :crying: Its completely pointless! Maybe its better to get totally pissed so much so that it kills me.

Hi Ian.

*hugs Ian and cantchillax*

Ian I'm sorry your feeling so low, but it would not be better if you just died, your a great guy and have friends here.

I just watched terry pratchett's programme on assisted suicide and I'm still crying over it.

I'm so lonely, so very lonely.
all my sunshine behind clouds of gray.
I just wish it would all just stop and let me be
just for once.

*hugs* is there a name you would like us to call you? or do you prefer cantchillax?

I'm here if you want to talk to someone

You can call me Jay.
Thanx.
just millions of things crammed into one big unfixable mess is all.

Hi Jay *hugs* (hope hugs are ok)

if you want to talk through any of it you can here, or PM me if you want

Thanx.
*Hugs back*

just to let you all know I'm away from tomorrow (friday) until sunday, as I'm away on a residential with the trans guy group I go to.

*leaves hugs and cuddles for all who want them*

*sneaks in and leaves hugs then goes to hide in the corner*

CrazyHayley?

*Hugs Jay*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Ian*

Hugs MJ* Yeees Crazy Hayley :)

She's my soul sister. We speak every day mostly. :-)

Laura (Mute Scream) - do you like Kevin? :-)

Well MJ , Would you pass on a Hug From me please? , To Hayley.

*hugs everyone*

Mark, yes I am moved in to my house now. I like it but it doesn't feel like home yet.

It took quite the while for My Flat to feel like home Lindsay, It takes an adjustment *Hugs*

hugs everyone

*hugs all*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs everyone* sorry, not in a state to do individuals.

I want to give up. I hate it here. She is so selfish and whiny and everyone else just lets her dictate the mood of the whole house. everyone has to kowtow to her. and I have no where to escape to. Suddenly it is perfectly clear why i was never able to give up SI when living in this house. Not to mention its always loud from yelling... so obnoxious.

Ranting. I know. It probably doesn't make sense and sound like i'm overreacting... but if you were here, you'd get it.

I get it Laura *Squishes* PM me if you need Hun .

*hugs everyone* I'm mostly not gonna be able to be in today since I'm not the only one in my office today, sorry. But, How is everyone?

*I'll check back when I can :)

*blinks* How odd... my new coworker A is impressed by the fact that I have and listen to on occasion an old Warren G CD (circa 1994). She likes HipHop and Rap so when she had her limit of gothradio and I reached my limit of her pandora radio we moved on to CDs. I never would have thought that was an impressive thing but she insists that her opinion of me has changed and she is impressed that I like that music. I dunno what to think of that...

*sits with Angel* wanna talk about it?

*Waves to Angel*

*SQUISHES Crimson* You must have great musical taste hun !

Laura, I know exactly what you mean and I don't think you're overreacting at all. I hope you are managing to cope.