soz: Come on in. The ward is open to all.

*hugs everyone*

wow, I come back and it seems like everyone walks out Lol :P

welcome in Soz, *offers warm cuppa and ginger cake*

*hugs Arwen* how's the drinkage going?

*hugs Kahlia* hope your wrist gets better soon

*hugs Kat, Todlich, Jill, Katie, Secrets, Jem, Vicki, HannahBanana, Shadowedseraph, Jazz, Lolly, Helen, Yoda, Hayley, Cheryl and anyone else hiding in a corner somewhere* hope you're okay

I'm a bit bleh this morning, but really do have to get off my arse and do stuff :P Wish I was my cat and able to curl up on my bed all day without a care in the world about it.

hugs wlidly insane i know wat u mean about curling up like a cat wud be so nice. nething i can do to help

hugs to everyone else hope your ok sorry havent be around been struggling big time.

*hugs everyone*

Hannah ~ I hope so too (my wwrist)

*hugs cheryl back* I'm okay really, thanks though, just finding it difficult to motivate myself, it looks like it's going to bucket down on my run *shrugs*. Sorry to hear you're struggling, ditto back, if there's anything I can do to help, just say.

*hugs everyone* i'm so tired wish i could sleep properly

*hugs soz* welcome to the ward

*grabs a blanket and retreats to a corner*

*Hugs Kahlia back* I bet your wrist is reeeally getting on your nerves by now! Hope it gets better soon.

*Waves to Soz* Welcome, make yourself at home :)

*Hugs Hana* Sorry to hear you're feeling bleh, have you managed to get round to doing anything?

*Hugs Seraph and sings lullabies*

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I managed to get my dad to have a beer while I had a couple of glasses of wine. Managed to stop after that though, and therefore have about half a bottle left for tonight.
Going to the pub in a bit, my friend has been working lates all week so we reckon we should go for a drink now that it's over.
My dad is winding me up. But it's not a big deal, he always gets like this when he's working.

ARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *bangs head against the wall*

Stupid f*cking mental health services. When I say things are terrifying and getting loads worse then why would they not set up help NOW instead of in a few weeks time?!

I'm f*cking terrified. All this switching all the time. It's escalating and I'm sh*tting myself. What if I switch in Co-Op and hurt someone or trash everything and get arrested and get sectioned?

I don't want to get f*cking admitted again but that's the way it's going and I don't f*cking want that.

I hate myself I hate my head I hate my life

*hugs zowie* i hope you managed to have a nice time at the pub

*hugs banana* Don't hate yourself for something that is out of your control *more hugs*

Housemate's going back into hospital two weeks tomorrow. Pre-cancerous cells were found around the tumour.

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*Hugs all*

*hugs all*

*throws around a few hugs*

*pops out to the smoking shelter*

Damnation, I'm sorry for your housemate, that must be awful to go through. But at least they were pre-cancerous, which means they can treat it before it gets full blown.


I don't want to leave the house. I hate that in this town people think it's so hysterical to insult strangers. I'm sick of being the easy target. Why can't people be nice anymore?

****sake why was i even born, im such a stuiped muppet, argh just going to hide out here intill everthing cools off,people stop having ago. *goes to corner, hide under blanket*

*hugs Jill* hang in there hun, here if you wanna talk

*hugs Rockaroni* people can be really horrible

*hugs Kahlia back gently avoiding the wrist*

*hugs Todlich* hope they've caught them soon enough

*hugs Shadowedseraph* you okay hun?

*hugs HannahBanana* keep fighting, you can do it, I hope you get the help you need

*hugs Arwen* hope you had a nice night and are ok

I've had a very frustrating day, I take so long to get out of bed which annoys me so much but I'm so tired all the time. Managed my run though which is good. Have no idea how to prep for this interview I have next friday which scares me, went for a ride in the rain, but I should have done more work, I should have done and then I wanted to chat with friends on msn and all I get is men messing with my head, why do they do it? make you feel good and then dash everything into the dirt, why can't I just like someone who wont treat me ****? I'm so annoyed with myself cos there's this really lovely guy who does like me but I just don't fancy him. I am the only one to blame for myself and I hate me.

*Joins ward *
Why can't this all just work out for me, why can't control my SI! I'm getting in such a state!:crying:
* Hide in corner, under blanket wishing this could end*

*hugs all*

I go back to fracture clinic on Monday afternoon. Hopefully they'll say I don't need another cast put on... Then I'll be able to start helping with the cleaning.

*Hugs everyone*
Sorry, will do individual replies tomorrow. I'm a little tipsy. :D

Sorry guys.. I'm around.. *cuddles you all*

*hugs everyone*

*hugs everyone* Im such a coward i let everybody down i cant do anything right, why am i even here! *hides in a corner*