can u make an excuse about not feeling well or having some kind of project or such you have to get done?

I could use that excuse once but I don't know how to deal with the situation after that. I am so stupid.

How are you, Kelly and Mark?

You're NOT stupid Lindsay hun , You can't help having social anxiety :( *Hugs*

welll i might as well tell you happy birthday here as well ;] happy birhtday feliciaaaaaa *giggle*
hope you're having an awesome day darling =]

*Hugs Heather* Hehe we are duel posting !

*sigh* I injured tonight .... I just had too , that urge:S

*Hugss everyone*

hugs everybody. curls up

*Hugs Nicole* Hey how was your day hun?

*Hugs Jill* How are you hun?

hugs mark back. not great tonight, more stuiped thoughts. im sorry you cut hun, please stay safe

*curls up* me and my fiance are going to be without a car for 2 weeks (I don't drive anymore but he does) and I'm terrified, taxi's scare the hell out of me if I'm alone and thats how I'll have to travel, alone, in a taxi. Or walk miles and miles. I'm so ****ing terrified, my mind is racing, my head is spinning, I feel sick, my hands are clammy and I'm shaking. I just want things to be normal *cries*

*Hugs Mark and Jill*
I'm ok thanks Mark, still a bit urgey, but a hell of a lot better than I was earlier :)

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry that you are in such a horrible situation:(

*Hugs Jill* I am staying safe hun , Thanks :)

I don't know what to do. My fiance is fine with it, but he's not the one who's not mentally right :/ *curls up tightly*

Can you find a reputable Taxi service and stick with them for the next 2 weeks ? Or some places have taxi services exclusivly for women , I don't know if you have one of those nearby.

No, I can use the one he usually uses but its being alone with someone I don't know, regardless of the reputation. I don't like new people.

Hmmm.... I'm sorry , could you maybe ask for the same driver? that way you;ll get to know them a little better by the second week.

Night my Wardies :)
*Hugs*

*storms in and plops down on the floor*

I'm so not a confrontational person, but I'm pissed right now. PPl can be cruel and when that cruelty is aimed at my bff... it makes me wanna fight back! ugh!

*cuddles Kelly* I hope you're alright, is there any nice way you can vent your anger like hitting a pillow or writing an angry letter?

Sorry I missed you going Mark, g'night *cuddles*

*cuddles Nicole and Jill*

*curls up and hides* social anxiety is killing me.

*hugs Laura* I wish I could help hun x

*cuddles all*

our state is getting hammered by mother nature right now - 3/4 of the state is covered by flood waters, the death toll keeps rising as does the number of missing people. they are having to consider airlifting grocery and medical supplies in for us northerners because the trucks can't get up here due to highway closures. the grocery stores are empty because of all the "panic shoppers" so items like bread, milk, toilet paper and batteries are in short supply. it's already costing billions of dollars - the clean up will cost billions more not to mention the lost livestock and crops. no wonder it is so hard to keep positive right now ...

*cuddles Kahlia* I couldn't manage in your situation. You're really brave hun.

Bed for me now, goodnight my lovelies *cuddles*

eh.. I got it all out by venting a post on my xanga page.

I think I'm just in a fightin' mood (which very rarely ever happens). I'm trying to be nice and step away so as not to cause drama.

woof woof :P

*Hugs Heather* Woof back !:P

*Hugs Kahlia* I'm sorry that you are in such a horrible situation :( Like Sarah said you are so brave .

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Kelly*

*Hugs Laura*

How is everyone this morning ?

*walks in* Self admittance to the virtual psych ward, please? Heh... Hi.. :(

Hey, how you doing hun? Is there anything we can do for you or is there anything you'd like to be called or anything else I can do? *cuddles if okay*

Welcome to the ward Lilac*sky , *Waves* I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Sarah*

*cuddles Mark* How you doing today?

Hi Lilac*Sky.

I'm feeling so bad. I can't keep fighting this. Life isn't supposed to be a battle, surely.

*Waves to Lilac*Sky* I'm Felicia :) How're you?
*Hugs Mark*
*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Lindsay* Please keep fighting, dear. My PM box is open if you need me.

I... feel like I am breaking.

*cuddles Lindsay* Keep going darling

*snggles Felicia* poor dear :(

I wish I could help more, I'm in a bad place though

*hugs Sarah* I'm sorry you're in a bad place. My PM box is open if you need me, dear <3

I'm also here, for you all.

Thanks guys, just taking a quiet day to contemplate my future. There's so many routes into veterinary nursing - vocational at a practice, 2 years part time work part time study, 4 years degree with 1 year in a practice, like nursing people. I'd like to do the degree option but my fiance finishes all his qualifications in 3 years and I don't knoe if its possible. Blergh.

-hugs felicia and lindsay- I'm sorry that you are struggling so much today.

-hugs sarah- I'm sorry you are in a dark place.

-hugs everyone else-

Please stay safe everyone. My PM box is open if you need me.

*Hugs everyone*

Happy birthday for yesterday Felicia :)

Thanks, Lia. How're you? *hugs*

*Hugs Kitty* How're you?


I'm looking at grad schools... Not the best distraction, but eh...

-hugs lia- How you be today?

-hugs felicia- I am extremely tired. I was up before the sun again, which is against my religion. -_- I think it ought to be against the law to have classes begin before noon. I have to leave soon for school. I have a headache. I have my counseling appointment today. I'm not really looking forward to it, but I am at the same time. I don't know. I just wish someone would run me over at a high rate of speed.

*Hugs Kitty* Tell me about it. The worst part of school is having to get up at 7.20 in the morning. And 7.20 doesn't come any later if you've only had an hour's sleep.

*Hugs Felicia* I hope you had a good day yesterday. I'm sorry you're not doing well today. I had that the other day, where I felt I was breaking. I was trying to sleep and I just wanted to scream the pain was so bad. I thought I was going to crack in two, or lose it completely. I never want to feel like that again, but I did a piece of writing on it, which helped take the hurt away, but I still couldn't sleep.

*hugs Kitty*
I'm sorry. I wish I could help some.

Thanks, Lia. I'm doing a lot of writing lately. It helps a bit, I guess. haha.

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Lia*

Ugh Triggered to cut or buy drink . I am seriously considering taking a couple of Diaz's if my mind and anxiety doesn't chill out fast :(

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Lia*

*hugs mark*

-hugs lia, felicia, mark, and louise- I gotta go to school everyone. Sorry you are triggered Mark. I will be back later.

Feel free to PM me if you need to (anyone)..

i hope school goes ok. hugs

Sorry .............:(