Of course we can sweetie, I have a pub quiz tonight to raise money for my Brownies so I will be on after ten ish x *hugs*

*hugs everyone*

Jamie's asleep. I want to SI, no, not want to NEED to. He doesn't understand, I mean, he tries and I give him credit for that, but he doesn't understand and I try talking to him, but it doesn't help, because I know he doesn't really understand properly. It hurts. Being here, it hurts. I don't know if I can do this anymore.

Thanks chick, you're fab :D

*hugs Hana lots and lots*

Please let me die.

*lays down and looks up at ceiling*

I don't want to feel so useless anymore.
I don't want to hurt myself.
And I won't!
I absolutely refuse to...
I'll try anyway...
I always do...
But I ust feel like I"m no good for anyone...


I have to find my counciller's phone number...

*offers hugs to everyone*

I'm surviving ... well I'm still alive so I guess that proves that point. I made an emergency appointment with my GP today and got another injection. She's doubling the dose from now on. Worried about my violent rapid cycling mood. On the good side, got to see my house-mate who is in hospital and he appears to be doing okay. Better anyway. Well, one day at a time right ??

*hugs Kahlia* glad your housemate is doing better and I hope the injection helps you, like you said, one day at a time.

*hugs silently crying* you aren't useless, please stay strong.

*hugs Kat* well done for getting through the night without hurting yourself, I hope it keeps going that way.

*hugs Arwen* sorry to hear that the noises aren't giving you any respite, I hope you can stay safe.

*hugs Hana* we understand and you can do this, even if Jamie doesn't it's obvious that he cares a lot, I hope you managed to get through the night okay.

*hugs Gil* thanks hun

*hugs Devil girl* I hope the noise quietens down and you get some rest

*hugs Dayna* how are you doing hun?

*hugs Shieldworld**hugs Michaella**hugs Helen*

*hugs Emma, Shell, Jade, MaryAnne and Katie if you drop in, hope you're doing okay*

me? I'm just being me with a cold and emotional with no-one to talk to.

*hugs Hannah* Thank you. I had fixed my laptop but now it's being sill again. *grumbles*

Going to London today to see my baby cousins. That should cheer me up :)

ugh... I feel so sick...
Of course this would happen the day I'm supposed to see Watchmen with my Mom...
but at least I'm seeing my doctor on Friday...
Lets see... what do I need to talk to Dr.Clay about?
ADD meds
Anti-depressants (that work)
How crap I feel right now due to this sudden illness
How I've been hacking up a storm since we got back from California...
oh yea,
and getting on the pill 'cause my cramps are unbearable.

Ughh... I need more sleep...


Oh and thanks Wildly.

Ugh I have gastroenteritis and I feel so ill...I'm sick of feeling ill.
And the Voices are screaming at me.

I had this dream where I had these sick things all over my leg and I can't get the sickening images out of my mind. Its just...disgusting.

I hate sleeping. I just get horrible dreams and I spend half the night awake, listening to the Voices.

The only thing that stops me from strangling myself at night is my Soulmate, he will txt me until 4am in the morning even though he has to get up for work at 7am. He's amazing.

Steel, what are they saying?
I used to get really horrible dreams too, with bugs and stuff all over my body and down my throat...-shudders- It was horrible. Now I have to burn incense before I go to bed and sleep with Chris's hoodie for them to go away at all.

The voices keep me awake at night, and then usually I have either really weird dreams or horrible nightmares.
Sounds like you've got a really nice soulmate steel :) You're lucky.
xxx

*hugs to all*

Sorry its not more just a bit stressed atm

Gilz xxxx

C-O-L-D

walks in and finds a safe corner and hides under a blanket. its all too much

Ow, ow, ow.
Head pounding...
Make it stop!
Ow!
I don't have the energy to get up and clean my room,
but I want to go see this movie with Mom...
I really do.
I need to spend more time with my mom.

*huggles all*

I live ._.;. On a downward spiral though. Got the doctor's again tomorrow (**** D:!) though. Feel like my bastard 'friend' doesn't care about me or anyone else in our group of friends any more. He haunts my dreams too much

*hugs to everyone else*

**** IT ALL.

I ****ING HATE THIS TIME OF NIGHT.

I ****ING HATE BEING ALONE.

I JUST WANT TO ****ING DIE. Please, just let me die

*hugs Damn*
No dieing, please?
I will be with you.
You don't have to be alone.