Just ill with this cold & cough. My Mum told me I'm not ill :/ Which put me in a bad mood. Ha. I'm easily crossed when I'm full of cold.

Struggling with bad thoughts too to be honest :'(

Glad you're good :)

I'm sorry that your mum said that, dont let her get to you, its not worth it. Its easier said than done i know but dont let her upset you. You can get through this. Do you want to share with us the bad thoughts that you are having?

About hurting/killing myself.

Oh no please dont i care about you and so do many others here. Try to distract yourself hun. Please dont hurt or kill yourself. Could you try and keep yourself busy? Whats happened to make you feel this way?

Trying to keep busy and to talk to my best friend when she's available. Don't know what's making me like this. Have been very up and down these last few weeks.

I have spent most of today listening to music :) I'm not a lovely person but thank you x

*yawn* lonely :( / apriiil :D i love all of you lots. Cant handle ind atm sorry

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Heather*

*SUPER GLOMPS April!!!:D) Man the one time I go to bed early and I miss you... erp

Heyyy mark :) hows you

I'm up out of bed , woke by the radio news :P up nearly 45 minutes , still drinking coffee heh, How are you Heather ?

Went out in the Ice and fog , didn't get to the end opf my road until ,Whoops I fell on my left side , then I was down by the canal Basin and fell splaying out on all fours like a dog or cat , I'm going to be sore later . To top it all off I forgot my Utilities payment cards so the MAIN reason I went out ( to pay my bills ) was scuppered . erp

Ouch, Mark. I hope you haven't hurt yourself badly.

I haven't broken anything that I can tell Lindsay , My Bad (righ) hip hurts more than usual , I think I may have to take some pain killers , In fact I will once I post this . *Hugs* How are you Lindsay?

I'm lacking in motivation, again. I really should go to the gym but I just can't be bothered. I also have quite a bit of housework to do.

*Hugs Lindsay*Housework sucks, I'm sorry you've no motivation , me either really . My Trousers ripped when I fell and a wheel just broke off my chair again *Sigh* Is it just going to be "one of those days"?

*hugs everybody*

Hey all.

*Hugs Lia* How are you ?

Oooh Nicole *Hugs* Didn't spot you there :P

hi everyone, how are you?

*hugs lia and mark*
lia-how are you this morning?
mark-lol. It's ok, i was hiding :P lol. how are you (apart from the sore hip and nasty ice!)?

Hi Youngatheart* How are you? I forgot your name sorry :( I'm lacking in any kind of "get up and go " and achey from falling :S

*hugs mark*
Jeez, i can't get away from them anywhere! my whole family have gone out, and i'm thinking 'YES, i get some time without them, and my mum and sister are talking to me on facebook! :/

I'm alright. Tired, but that's nothing new. How's everyone else?

*hugs lia* lol. you're like me, always tired, but never sleep!!

But I do sleep. That's the thing. Weekdays, I don't get much and because I have to get up early in the morning I typically can't sleep, but then at weekends, I sleep way too much and am still tired. I didn't get out of bed until 11.30 this morning, after going to bed at about 1.30. I couldn't sleep mind. Still, I got loads of sleep and want more. Oh well. I'll live.

*Hugs all*

lol lia, i mean, you struggle to get to sleep. you're often online past midnight.
Oh god.
My mums cooking a roast :/

hi Doikers ( i foprgot your name too sorry :( ) my names Sam.
Im fine ta, just having a relaxing (??) sunday. sorry to hear you fell|!!

Hello Sam, I'm Lia if you didn't already know that.

*Hugs Nicole* You could tell her you're trying to diet and don't want any and cook something healthier instead, or at least ask her to give you a small portion if she's anything like my mum and will create at the very suggestion. I sleep too much sometimes, but I also believe that too much sleep is a massive waste of time and lie ins are nice, I can't resist them when I'm not busy, but there are so many better things to do than sleep. Write for example. Or go to theatre studies lessons.

*hugs everybody*

I didn't sleep too well last night. Went to bed after 1am. Then my best friend texted me at 5.40am and thankfully I was awake. So we texted for about an hour & then chatted online til 8.30am. We both went back to bed as we were falling asleep again lol.

I have a migraine AGAIN & I'm seriously not impressed. Just what I need to add to my cold, cough & feeling very bad =/

*Hugs Lia* I know what it's like to be tired a lot , I take Olanzapine at night and am still sedated from it in the morning :S

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Helen* Your poor head :(

*Hugs Sam* My name is Mark :)

*hugs mark, lia and helen*
lia-I tried telling her i didn't want any and she said i have to eat it :( eugh. it's ok. I will just go for a run or something after....

I am one week Self Injury free today :) ! I know it's not a massive milestone but still it's something , My best this year was 9 days on my own and 12 days but I was in a Psych ward and coulden't so that kind of counts less .

Nicole - I don't think it's wise to be running in the dark honey. Plus don't want you to start getting obsessed with this diet. Particularly when we have Sunday roasts, I always want a small portion and always get a much bigger one than my Mum. Ugh =/

Mark - indeed :'(

It still is massive. Congratulations Mark. Every single time you don't cut, whether it's for 2 days or 9 weeks, still counts, even if you slip up & start counting again, they STILL count :)

*hugs helen* Don't worry, we have a lot of well-lit running paths around here. And i am being carful on the diet, honestly, in fact, i ate WAY too much yesterday....... :/

:) Thanks Helen :) Stupid thing is now I've realised it it's all I can think about .......

I still don't like the thought of you running in the dark on your own :S *hugs Nicole* From what I could gather from your posts last night, sounds like you didn't eat an awful lot :S

It's not stupid :) I promise *hugs*

I honestly did. Almost x calories :/ And i didn't even purge although i so wanted to :)

x calories isn't a lot, you're meant to have 2000 per day.

It was a lot. Too much. Anyway, that was yesterday, this is today.
How are you?

Fine. Just bangtidy.

:/ lia.....whats up?
*spies and hugs april*

*glomps everyone*

Lia, how are you?? I got your PM, so sorry I haven't been on in forever. :( As I said in earlier post(s) though, I'm gonna try to be on more frequently now. Bleh. But how have things been?

Mark, those falls sound pretty nasty. :-/ Guess the weather is definitely not so great where you are? Here we just have a dusting of snow but the roads/sidewalks are fine - thankfully. :) And one week SI-free - go go, you!!! <3

Hels, you are too a lovely person. :) *hugs* I'm sorry you're having those bad thoughts - I hope that they go away soon. :( How have things been with you??

Nicole, x calories is not a lot but - per RYL's rules - we probs shouldn't talk about calories in specific amounts. I don't mind personally but it might trigger other people. *squishes* In any case, that really isn't enough for you, not at all... maybe try to fight the urges that say that it's too much and/or that you have to purge??

Hi people I don't know!! ;)

Have Hayley or Crimson been on lately?

Sooo freaking tired. Stayed up til around 11:30pm last night and then woke up at freaking 5:40am today. :( So I'm exhausted... yet still Jarrod persists in wanting us to go to church, even though I'm likely to fall asleep there or start crying or at the very least, not take in the sermon and not do much worshiping. But whatevs. >_<

That's one thing that's not been cool with me - I've been crying a lot. Up and down moods, etc. The whole gambit. I don't think my tegretol is working anymore. >_< Stupidness. And I'm supposed to see my NP on Friday at 6:15pm but I'm also scheduled to work from 1-8pm soooo... I really need to talk with my supervisor. :-/ Not liking how this is going. I really don't want to have to reschedule AGAIN, especially because 1) I really need to talk with her because of my moods, and 2) I'm running out of meds. :-S

*cuddles all*

*hugs april* heh. Forgot about the rules :/ But i promise you guys, i am being careful with my eating. Because i am determined now. I am gonna quit the self harm, lose weight (cause i really am overweight) finish my college course, get a job, save up, and next year, i'm moving. haven't decided whre yet though :/

*Hugs April* Hmm you sound busy busy . Hayley isn't too well I think with her M.E. I'm in sporadic touch with her via text and just sent her a Christmas card, Eoghan has been redeployed (Afganistahn I think) So it's just her and Reggie.
Crimson I don't remember talking to for a few days :S hmm
*Is happy to have you back on the ward*

I saw crimson hanging around the ward yesterday, (i think it was yesterday) but she didn't post.

I can feel Depression coming on , It's only just twigged that that is what it is , I'm worried :S
EDIT:- I'm going to lie down (3rd time today) 30 minutes only .
EDIT 2 :- 30 minutes later and I'm up again , I don't really want to be though , Evanescence CD on , relating to all the Lyrics heh .

*SUPER GLOMPS APRIL* Looks like I missed you again as I walked off, but glad to hear you're doing well in your new job :) Not so glad to hear about the crying though :/ Glad to have you back on the ward :)

*Hugs Mark* I don't have many words, but I'm thinking of you.

*Hugs Nicole* Sorry about my blunt answer earlier. And good for you that you've decided to do this thing called life and f*ck the sh*t :)