*huggles helen* thats ok, i'm glad your both back, i missed you :D did you have fun on your holiday?

Nicole, I can't say I missed being online, but I missed you too :) There were times I had fun yeah. I got to go see lots of volcano and stuff :D Even went on a camel ride :O

lol helen, i would love to go on a camel ride! but it doesnt look very comfy :/ and volcano's are cool! although i dont suppose they would be if they errupted when you were near them :/
heh, i have nothing to do for AGES until i can start getting ready for the party :/ soooo bored :(

Wow volcano's and Camel's Helen , sounds pretty cool :)

*huggles mark* how're you today?
^heh, just realised i already asked that, ok, are you feeling any better now? lol.

*cuddles all* my gallbladder is playing up today. Went out for dinner with my step grandad, he was paying. I was sick after dinner and I'm still being yelled at for wasting their money. I just want to cry. I feel really ill and I don't need shouting at right now :(

sorry guys but i really need to let off some steam. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Jill*

*hugs everyone*
I feel so awful this morning. I feel stupid, and pathetic, and worthless, and unlovable. And I miss my dad. I want my dad back. Is that a crime? Obviously, I know it's not gonna happen, people just don't come back from the dead after 14 years. I just wish my mom understood, when I say I want dad. I want MY dad not my stepdad, not my grandpa. Even though my grandpa's pretty great... still, I miss my dad.
Anyway, I'll stop rambling. I just... dislike today, I guess.

*Cuddles Felicia* I'm sory you are having a rough morning :(

*cuddles Felicia* its perfectly understandable.

*cuddles Mark*

*cuddles Nicole* hope all goes well tonight

*cuddles Jill* Whats up hun?

*Hugs Mark and Sarah*
thanks, how are ya'll today?

cuddles all, i really give up, really pissed off. wish i could just dissapear, so sodding fed up of all of this. people speaking and not thinking. curls up and hides

It's not the most comfortable of rides, although you do sit in a seat, rather than on their humps or anything lol. But it's worth the pain, trust me!! Volcanoes are cool. Wouldn't be if it did erupt, but as I said to my bestie, they have people working there all the time and doing stuff so if there was to be an eruption again (it hasn't erupted for a long time), they could give advanced warnings and stuff :D

Was pretty cool ^_^

I'm sorry your gallbladder is playing you up so much and your health aswell (I've been reading what I've missed). You didn't waste their money, you can't help being ill & sick. *cuddles tight*

You're not any of those things sweetie & no it's not a crime to want your Dad to come back. Never a crime. I'm sorry your Mum doesn't understand. I assume you've tried explaining you want your actual Dad rather than your stepdad? Perhaps try again? Although he's not alive, he's always with you sweetheart in your heart and by your side watching over you :) *cuddles tightly*

*cuddles everyone*

I got to see my baby, well not so much a baby now, cousin Grace today. Was absolutely chuffed. Haven't seen her properly for about 12 months when me & my Mum (mostly me, as she wouldn't let anyone else) looked after her last year. Most of you won't know who I'm on about, think Mark might & Kahlia should :) Love her to bits AND my placement for college is her nursery :D

*cuddles* thanks. I just want to crawl away and hide. Being told I'm a bad person and I'm disrespectful and I act like an adult and such, I'm 19, aren't I supposed to act like an adult? I'm confused. One minute I'm mocked for being childish and the next for being too sensible... Can't win. I's can't help being sick, I can't help being a bit meh or giddy, but regardless of what I do I'm complained at. I'll never do right by them. :(

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Felicia*

Sorry it's just hugs right now , I over napped :S

*cuddles helen* I'm glad your vacation was mostly good! and I missed you while you were away!! Glad you got to see your little cousin too!

*hugs mark* sorry you overnapped hope that your headache is better.

*hugs felicia* I couldnt say anything better than what helen said. Its not a crime to want your dad back. Im sorry your mom doesn't get it, i'm sure she is just trying to help when she suggests other people, but i know that doesn't help much. :-/ *extra cuddles*

*hugs sarah* i'm sorry people are giving you a hard time. You are not a bad person though at all. You are a very sweet and kind person. Don't let those confusing and mean comments get to you, you are worth more than that.

*hugs kahlia* sorry to hear that you have pneumonia. Did the doctors give you meds though? Hopefully some of the symptoms lessen soon.

*hugs jill* its okay to let off steam in here, no need to apologize. You okay?

*hugs nicole* sorry that you are bored. Hope that the party is fun today! How else are you?

*hugs april* I'm so glad that you are back!!!! Its nice to "see" you.. hear from you i guess is a better wording lol. Glad the job training went well!

*hugs heather and gives coffee* sorry you are so tired. Message me if you need to hun.

As for me.. its football time! (american football lol) I always get excited. Now if only this mood would last, but it wont :-/
Wasn't doing so well last night. Didn't stay safe, but i'm okay. Just the pattern that I always go in.

*cuddles Mark* Naps are good

*cuddles Laura* Thanks :) you're awesome

*Hugs Laura* Please try and stay safe. "Yey for the foot-a-ball!!!"

Hey Mark, how you feeling?

Hey Sarah :) I'm a touch triggered but am trying not to think about it , My mouth hurts less , I've been taking pain killers , .....

Glad you're in less pain *cuddles* yeah try not to think about it. I've been playing some pretty silly facebook games in an atempt not to be ill again. I suck at all of them though :p

Yeah , I'm going to have a bath , try and calm my mind a touch , baths are soothing sometimes :) I bet you're better at those games than you think Sarah :)

I finally beat my fiance by 20 points after playing it all day :D

Have a nice bath :)

Hi all *hugs*

Too much activity to keep up with, but I hope everyone's doing alright.

xx

Sorry for the double post, but I miss April. Anyone know when she's coming back?

x

Hi all *cuddles*
Sorry I've been away again for a while, keep promising not too, but depression is really bad, missed a hell of a lot of uni been getting into trouble for it. PLus now have a broken ligament in my thumb, so spent the night in A and E.

Scratch that, found her. I was also about to enquire about Helen, but she's back too.

Hey you guys! :D

*Hugs Oliver* Ouch. You could always stab the people at uni? Sorry, that's my answer to everything. I am not actually a violent person.

hey lovies =]

hey Heather and Lia, how are you both?

Hey Heather :) How are you?

Oh, and I'm ok thanks Oliver. Been doing jack all day. Jack as in slang for nothing, not a person.

*hugs you both*

I've not done much either, just some games at youth group and then A and E

*hugs lia, oliver, mark, sarah, and heather* sorry its not more.

rough night. was supposed to be good. how am i supposed to be someones savior?

*hugs all*

Feeling a bit more human ...
Now to feel less like I've been hit by a bus ...

*cuddles everyone lots*

Ward's gone bit quiet again hmm x

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Oliver*How did you hurt your thumb ?

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Sarah*

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you today?

*hugs everyone*
ouch my head! :(

*Hugs everyone*

What happened Laura? I hope you're ok.

How is everyone?

xx

*Hugs Lia* How are you?

*Hugs Nicole* Whats happened to your head?

Behind my right lower wisdom tooth is painful and swolen up so my teeth catch it and red , My wisdom tooth doesn't hurt though :S

*hugs mark* well, erm, it turned out to be a very good party with lots of alcohol wich me and sileas drank most of :/ lol, so got a major headache this morning :(

oh, and i was kinda so drunk i fell head first into the toilet door XD was funny.

Ouch Nicole !

lol, i know, and i got home and fell outta the car XD but my mate sileas fell over on stage doing the macarena and it went on youtube XD

Struggling at the moment voices are so loud am listing to music on my headphones and i can still hear them

*Hugs Ryuu* Could you go for an afternoon walk , it might work as a distraction ?

*hugs Ryuu* Sad to say that I have been there. It took a psychiatrist who was willing to push the boudaries to make them disappear (with the right dose of medication for me). I have to agree with Mark though is there anything you can do to distract - maybe keep your mind occupied?

*Hugs Kahlia* How are you Kahlia ?

*cuddles all and then hides*