*cuddles Kat* I don't blame you for being stressed - it sounds like you've been through a lot lately & I'd be stressed if I were you as well. *extra cuddles*

*Hugs Kat* I'm sorry you are overwhelmed , I get overwhelmed by little things (Comparitivly) but I can understand why you feel this way :S

Thanks everybody we got home around 2.30, was a really long night.
Hmm I really have got one messed up family, just want to hide as I can't handle today. Wish I could just disappear of the face of the earth.

*hides*

veri switchy toda i tink.

sadie takd ovr a pos i waz riting as i roted it.
=/ switchy meens hed akes gona com get me.
tomoro bes the big scaree dr day.

i scard veri veri scard..
i reeli hop tat i can bes saf insid an hiding talk drs tis time. i hops hers no stuk insid an me stuk outsid lik last tim we talk dr.

it waz veri veri scaree.
i scard i bes stuk out with drs agin an hiding stuk insid an tat tey no let michel bes wif me an ten i bes al lone wif scaree drs.

i scard.
*hids*

Screw everything.

Sarah and Sadie and Hiding *Hugs* I'm sorry you are switching a lot today :S I hope the headaches don't get you too bad . I hope Hiding is out when you meet your Dr tommorow and that the appointment go's smoothly :)

*Hugs Nicole* Why do you Hide?

EDIT:-Ohh Helen we posted at the same time , whats up? *Hug*

*hugs mark* i dont know, maybe im hoping the bad thoughts wont find me if i hide.

April: *cuddles* It doesn't feel like a lot, well it does, but it doesn't...oh i dont know.
Mark: *hugs* I'm probably doing the worst thing and some of it is going under the carpet.
Sarah: Im sure that everything will be fine sweetheart, try not to be too scared.
Nicole: *searches for nicole and leaves her a big bundle of cuddles* you alright?
Shadowedsoul: *hugs* sorry, i've completely lost track of your name again, i feel awful. I'm sorry that you are feeling bad.
Helen: *cuddles* whats up darling?

I want to give you all hugs :(

I'm not living, i'm just existing. things have gone from bad to worse.

*HUGS Beki*

Oh Nicole I hope the bad thoughts don't find you .

thanks mark. so do i. damn my mum for trusting me :/ its not a good idea!
im having so many panick attacks :(

*hugs beki too*

*cuddles everyone*

I'm really struggling. That's what's wrong. I'm sick of people stabbing me in the back, so much for loyalty hey? I don't know who the hell I can trust right now. There's only one person I trust with my life and I'm scared shitless of ****ing up with them :'( Sick and tired of people thinking they can use me as the scapegoat all the time. Well I'm not a goat.I'm a human, who happens to have FEELINGS!!!!!!!!

*holds helen tight* sorry, im feeling pretty crap right now and dont really know what to say, but you can come hide with me if you like?

can i come hide too? don't want to deal with this. its the anniversary of my grandads death and my bf dumped me for good. its too much. im not strong enough for this.

*hugs* of course you can. maybe we should just all barricade ourselves in a room where noone can find us?

i like that idea. i think i'd feel safe there. i dont feel safe here

*hugs* me neither. damn bad thoughts :( heh, just looked on your profile, you have BPD. me too, was diagnosed in march (but only found out like a week ago)

My bpd has been out of control this week (bf had gone on hols), finding it impossible to cope. i live with my, well now ex bf and i'm scared for when he comes back. i'm seeing my OT tomorrow so i hope to god she listens to what i tell her cos it could make the differecne between me being here and me not. today was a bad day anyway and now its 10ox worse.

how are you coping with the diagnosis? does it feel better to have a name for it?

*hides with you both*

aaw *hugs* im coping quite well, i dont really understand it yet, but i know how bad it can get, i went through a 3-month bad patch at the begging of the year, so bad that i was overdosing every week (enough to end up in hospital) it can get awful, hope yours calms down soon. are you doing DBT?

*cuddles all* Sorry no individuals right now except *extra hugs for all* haha... usually it's for one or two specific people but now it seems like all of the people that are posting are having a really tough time of it... so yeah. :( I wish I could make things better.

Jarrod & I had a sorta-argument today on the way home from church... it truly sucked. :( I wish I could just stopppp it all and get off this stupid carousel... it's truly stupid, really really is, the way I'm feeling & the way I've been feeling - super sensitive, beyond what is "normal" for me. I cried today in Dunkin Donuts & didn't even know why. :( Feel so pathetic. Guhhh.

But at least I got a coffee coolatta that I can enjoy. ;)

*more cuddles for those who want them* ♥ Keep hanging in there...

*hugs*

i get no help with my BPD, they don't have the resources. Or don't care.

I can't even get therapy right now cos of red tape

Argh!!! How the hell can you go from okay to that in a matter of seconds. Don't know what to do cry or just trying and ignore it. Feel like crying right now but no need to keep being strong can't break my perents don't need this right now.

*hugs Becki* I'm sorry getting help is so tough.
*cuddles everyone in the thread* I don't have enough energy to do individuals...

My fiance and I just keep getting in worse fights. God forbid I want him to come to the last day of my play... God forbid... Why does being sad when he doesn't come make him so mad?

tank you evribodi
yeh can we al hid togefr? can i bring my blankee to hid undr an my mikey bare to?

i wana snugls cuz we no fels saf. non of us fels saf.. evn sadie an hers is strong on.
Sarah

Hi everyone, back from my weekend.

*offers welcome cookies to the new people* i'm laura.

*cuddles everyone tight* I'm sorry, there have been several pages since i left town on friday morning so i can't do individual replies, I have read though and am thinking of all of you.

PM box is always open should anyone want.

*avoids the how are you question by hiding in a long forgotten corner*

*Hugs Laura* Okay I won't ask THAT question , but I hope you're well and it's nice to have you back :)

*cuddles Laura, Beki, Mark, Sarah if she can accept hugs, Felicia, & Jill*

Sorry, no individuals right now - but Felicia, wanted to say, that Jarrod's the same way (kind of). Guys - our significant others in particular - want to be able to fix us, and when they can't they get frustrated. Sometimes this comes out in anger. Jarrod's mostly over getting angry at me; now he just gets frustrated. He knows he can't fix me and that I have to fix myself, mostly, so yeah... that's basically all the "marriage counselor" in me has to say on that, hah. :-S *extra hugs*

Guhh, I need to relax... am so anxious right now. :(

*cuddles all then resumes hiding & crying*

Sorry.

*hugs mark* thanks. Hope you are okay too.

*hugs april* im sorry that you are so anxious right now. Hope you are able to relax soon.

*cuddles helen* you don't need to be sorry hun. PM me if you want too.

*hugs Laura back* I do. I need to stop taking up space here :)

*hugs helen* you don't just take up space, we like having you here. Plus, you've been here longer than almost everyone else - You deserve to take up a lot of space :-)
Im sorry that you are struggling so much though.

*hugs Laura* Thanks darling...I suppose you're right:/

can i come in?

^ Course xx

*cuddles Hels* I agree with Laura. :)

*cuddles Laura & Louise & everyone else* Of course you can come in, Louise. :) How are you doing??

I'm a little less anxious now although VERY warm, as the room that the comps are in is the warmest one in the house. :( Ughhh.

So tired. Just want to go to bed. :( Jarrod goes back to work tomorrow so I have a feeling I'll be on here a LOT more.

*hides in the warren and cries too*

Thanks I am not feeling so good

*cuddles everyone*

Aw, I'm sorry, Louise... is there anything we can do?? *gentle hugs*

my step mum erm was horrible to me today

Aw sweetie, that's awful. :( What happened? (if you want to talk about it, that is - if not, that's okay too) Wish I had more to offer but... *more gentle hugs and a box of tissues in case you need to cry*

*cuddles April & Louise lots*

Sorry it's not more.

i'm rubbish with names so i'm sorry but *hugs for all who need them (quite a few of us right now)*

I'm scared about tomorrow :(

*hugs all*

Helen you don't take up space, everyone is a great individual person in here, so eveyrone is welcome and no one is taking up any soace.

whats happening tomorrow Becki? *hugs*

*hugs* Louise, I'm sorry your step mum was horrible to you. you can talk abouut it in here if you want

*hugs April* I'm sorry your anxious and sorry Jarrod has been getting angry.

i'm seeing my OT. i'd prefer to be seeing my psych, GP or CPn but no, i get stuck with my OT. I have no idea what she can do for me but i'm not in a good place, and i need her to understand how much i am struggling. I'm scared cos my BPD means they don't like to give me "too much" support but i am in desperate need of intervention right now.

*huggles all*

*big hugs* to all who are struggling right now. Sorry it can't be more. Also sorry for the lack of individual replies - 4 pages since I was last in here.

Hels: *cuddles* Well done on your 5(?) months sweetness. - Sorry, memory isn't working too well this morning.

*leaves cuddles and safe love and care packages on the table*
*disappears out into the garden to play with Puppy SinClair*

my step she was swearing and even hit me

i'm sorry she did that hun, she had no right too :( how are you feeling now? are you safe away from her?

oh yes and congrats to Kahlia and Hels for great acheivements of sh free months.

*hugs Louise* I'm sorry that happened.

*hugs Beki* I hope your OT can do something that can help, I don't really know what all the different people can do, but I hope they ca do something