It really isn't good :( I will say it was lucky I didn't get anymore hurt than I did. Will explain later maybe.

*cuddles Katie extremely tight :P* Love you

I wish they were.

*cuddles Kahlia* I know how you feel :(

*offers cuddles to all*

Thanks Helen. It's a pretty common reaction to constant rain, right ??
We are scheduled to have continuous rain until approximately Sunday. :(
Poot. I'm going to have damaged myself by then if this keeps up.

*offers hugs and cuddles and sits with Puppy SinClair*

Puppy Sinclair gives Kahlia a big wet sloppy puppy kiss, but only if she lets him :)

*hugs everyone and leaves coffee and muffins for breakfast*

Thanks Hannah ... oh and Puppy SinClair as well.

Can I steal a coffee for dinner instead of breakfast ??

but of course, but only if it doesn't stop you sleeping, I had an espresso once, I was bouncing off the walls till 4 in the morning :)

Gah :-(

I'm such a waste of space...

*Hugs Jem* You are not a waste of space. I don't think so, I think the ward would be a very different place without you.

I'm doing better. My care co ordinator finally got back to me and took me out for coffee. She wasn't much help, but my dad's phoning her today to ask her to get me an appointment with my psych.
I'm so hungry but I absolutely hate food at the moment. I just want to starve until I'm skinny again.

*cuddles zowie* thx's

Just going thru a rough patch i suppose

trying to battle out of it..but i think sleeping it off might help hmmm

xx

Sleeping usually helps me when I'm going through a rough patch. Try to have a rest and maybe you'll feel better xxx

Hi all,

seems like a fair few of us are feeling a bit podgey just now, sad things is we are all most likely absolutely fine the size we are but our brains don't see it that way.
Right now I am a little scared I am going to go down the ED line again but am working hard at resisiting and trying to be sensible.

*leaves loads of hugs for everyone and a bonio for puppy Sinclair!*

Kahlia, constant rain sucks sweetie, try watching dvds and stuff? I don't know....

Jem, you're not a waste of space one bit, get some sleep, it'll help :)

May Anne *cuddles*

Zowie, hope you're okay sweetheart, please be careful =(

One hour & one minute to go until my meeting about the incident. :-( But first I have to go to another meeting (with the person I saw last week), am sorta looking forward to it buit I'm so tireeeeeeeeeed.

Oh & guess what joke my lecturer made today when dicussing revision *rolls eyes*

thx's guys

tc there..have a good day ppl xx

I swear I should drop out of uni. My mood swings are starting to make it so I can't focus on anything. I'm either hyper to the point that I can't sit down or I'm depressed and I can't move. And I'm not sure they're willing to change my meds even though they haven't been working for months.

Grrrrr. I can't sleep either.

*leaves hugs and creme eggs*

hmhmhmhmmmmmm...
im tired...
to the point of 0____0;;

hmmmm....
sleep.


Haha...someone ACTUALLY wants to go out on a kinda date with me on Saturdayyy,.....


Lets hope I turn up...




Hope everyones ok.

*leaves hugs and vaious other bits 'n' bobs.

{{{{{{{{{{{{ hugs to everyone }}}}}}}}}}

Sorry I wasnt around to support anyone yesterday, I had to go to hospital.

Thinking of everyone

Jade xxx

Are you okay Jade? *hugs*

*cuddles Helen* how did the meeting go?

Voice (sorry you name escpaes me right now) - yey a date :) *hugs*

*leaves hugs*

xx

Voice- a date sounds like fun, go for it.
*hugs Jade* how are you?
*hugs Helen* Lecturers are often insensitive, I'm sorry you had to listen to that.
Rockaroni- is there a tutor you could talk to about how your feeling and how its affecting your work to see if you could get some help.

*leaves hugs for others that come in*

*Hugs Helen* How did the reporting of the incident go hun?

*Hugs Katie* Can you talk to a tutor about extra help you can get? Maybe talk to your doctor about the problems you feel you're having with your meds.

*Hugs Alexx* Hope you managed to get some sleep!

Jade, are you okay? *Hugs*


I slept through most of the day. Am trying to keep myself together so I can go out at the weekend. I honestly feel so much stronger when I'm around TRUE friends. So tomorrow I should be going to the pub with my pub friends, and then on Saturday our neighbour has asked me and my dad to join him for a few pints.
So I've got **** to look forward to which is giving me a bit of a boost, but at this very moment I'm really struggling to shut the voices up.
I ate some cocktail sausages today. I feel like I've failed.

Thanks for being concerned everyone, Im fine.

Mary Ann <hugs to you>

Mamma < how did you meeting go ? >

Secrets < thanks for the concern are you ok ? >

Zowie < I hope you do have a good weekend. Dont be so down on yourself honey xxx >

< big hugs to everyone >

Jade xxx

*hugs everyone*

Sorry I haven't been around much recently, hit a bit of a dark spell, and just haven't really done much of anything. Not helping in the parts where I need to find a job, get money, and generally get everything back on track, but I just... I'm letting everything get on top of me a little too much, and right now... I'm just kinda falling apart.

Tonight's been bad. Tom doesn't understand anything, not even the fact that I'm in a bad mood, he's just too damned affectionate all the time, and when I'm like this, well... antisocial tends to be rather high up on the agenda. Can't really talk about what's bothering me, because he's sat right next to me and I don't want to risk him reading over my shoulder because... well, yeah.

Sorry for the lack of support guys. *leaves massive cuddles for whoever wants*

Auburn, sorry that you are going through such a rough patch right now. Keep hanging in there and fighting xxx

I really hope you feel a little bit better tomorrow

< hugs >

It went alright I guess. *cuddles back*

*hugs back* They sure are, am going to be putting in a compliant :pinch:

A night passes by and yet my mood is still pretty crappy

oh well...*sigh* still feels a waste of space and useless atm....i wish it was over by now...

*leaves hugs for everyone* sorry am lame, but am too tired to think, leaves a little pressie for everyone, to make you all feel a little better, hopefully....

beccas now a very sad becca:
http://smithfamilyfuneralhome.com/Vi...iew.php?id=955

*hugs Becca*

Just letting you all know I might not be on for another week...

*cuddles*

*cuddles katie*

hope u get ur notebook fixed!

I give up.
I really do.
=/

*Hugs Helen* What's up hun? x

Whats up Mamma ???? < big hugs >

Sorry I didn't check in yesterday. Was having a bit of a weird day. I live, so. Yeah

*Scuttles off again*

Did you have a bad day yesterday Poisonous, do you want to talk about it ????

Hi everyone,

The weekend is here again,

*hugs Helen* anything you want to talk about?

*hugs Katie* take care this week, thinking of you even if you cannot log in.

*sends hugs to Dayna, Kahlia, Ravyn, Tears, Jetforce, Zowie, Becca, Auburn, Secrets, Voice and everyone else*

Scary day for me - things got very real as I had to visit the lawyer to sort some stuff, day to day I try to forget what has happened and get on with life, can't do that when someone is asking for bare facts :(

*crawls into the denial tent for the duration of the weekend*

x

Sorry I don't come in much, it's a bit overwhelming with lots of people. I'm feeling very anxious tonight but at least my mood has been slightly better the last couple of days.

*hugs for everyone*

*Hugs all*

Jade: I dunno exactly what it was. I just had no emotions at all. For hours on end, I became completely void, and it even changed the way I spoke :/ 'cause I was talking to a friend on MSN, and he noticed that the way I was wording things was a lot colder than usual

*crawls out of where she has been hiding and offers hugs to all*

Just going to stay out of sight for awhile okay ??

*sneaks back into dark corner of denial tent*

*walks back in curls up into a ball in the corner* Argh things are getting to much again, my manger so up her own ass. they way she spoke to me the other day was so ****. made me feel crappyer about myself. i really dont need that on top of everthing else, iam trying really hard not to cut, and not act on the really stuiped thoughts running through my head, even though, iam not sure i care anymore, i have had enough, had enough of people treating my like crap, like iam noithing more than scum, okay mabye iam not putting much effort in at work, and mabye i should be showning the new starts how to do things, but iam haveing a really hard time keeping myself togher right now, hmm dout they would even care if i told them that, damn it i hate my work. just want this to be over =/

Stupid, stupid, stupid, STUPID!

I sooooo wanna give up right now :-( argh

Why do I spend all my money on beer and cigarettes?

Sorry to hear that Jet Force, do you want to talk about it.

Shadow I am sorry to hear that work is getting you down so much, well done for not cutting, please keep yourself safe.

Kahlia, do you want to talk about things < hands blanket out >

Pixie Yay for feeling a little bit better

Mary Ann I hope you have a good weekend

Poisonous, Whats wrong honey ?

Today Im feeling a little bit better, and I just want to wish everyone a good weekend. You ALL deserve it

Sending you much love
Jade xxx

Hi Zowie, how are you doing today ?

*Hugs all*

Sorry I've been so **** at supporting lately. Or, well, anything really.

Jade: x_x I confided in my friend. I needed to tell someone just how much I've been struggling. I...scared him

Hi everyone,

a good saturday for once :) long lie then a 4 hour dance class so hopefully I am knackered enough to sleep.

have recovered from being very triggered last night when I watched some show about celebrities with 'issues' and it went in depth about those who si, I wasn;t ready for that bit, I was just expecting the britney story.

hope everyone is okay
*lots of hugs for everyone*

*Hugs Mary Anne* Glad you're doing okay

Poisonous, I sort of know how you feel. When I confide in someone I always beat myself up after, thinking have I done the right thing. Have I scared them off.

Was having a great mood this morning but have come down with a crash. I feel so low and alone at the moment. xxx

Jade xxx

*sneaks in*

*Hugs all* *pets Puppy SinClair*

*scampers off*

*hugs Angelica bunny* i still cant believe hes gone

Hi everyone,

middle of the night here, popping in as a little scared, there is a huge sectarian fight going on outside :(
I bet not a single one of them goes to church/chapel but they are calling each other 'orange ******' and 'fenian *****'.
Stupid football hooligans, they even started on a resident who drove into the street (I live in a cul de sac so you can't even keep going out the other end).

*cuddles puppy Sinclair and gets him to bark at the bad people*

*hugs everyone*