sorry if that came across really harsh i know ur only trying to help. and im sorry if i offended u. the only people i cud talk to at the mo are people on here and the crisis team who are 40 miles awya so they cant do nething neway

Cheryl i dont know what to say right now i feel pretty useless and like im probably not gonna be much help but want to say anyway im sure you havent offended anyone.

ive read all youve written and am sad your struggling so much still.

im glad you are going to have a long chat with your OT tomorrow and hope it goes ok.

Will be thinking of you.

Hugs.

Feel free to text me anytime.

i might have to lie down in a minute.

im feeling quite weak and started feeling sick but i probably wont sleep so your welcome to text.

im just sorry your going through all this.

Please try and talk things through with your OT again tomorrow.

Also i may be wrong but you sounded slightly upset about the CPN not suggesting inpatient treatment again?

i know you dont want to go back but is it what you feel you need then?

If it is then you really need to tell them.

Your health is most important and they can only take their lead from you.

Believe me i know its hard.

Big hugs.

Keep talking and i for one will keep reading.

You are so brave and have fought so much.

Dont give up.
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uve been great to me and i thank u for tat i thank u all for the support but its just 2 hard. i dont wanna make it till 2moz sorry if that sounds bad. i dunno how i feel bout inpatient its weird. big hugs hope u feel better soon chick. xx

This might sound harsh Cheryl but I think at least part of you does want to make it until tomorrow because if you didn't then you wouldn't still be posting on here. I understand how much you are hurting and how difficult things are but surely inpatient etc is preferable to the alternative? If you like I will even call the crisis team on your behalf (although obviously not without your permission etc etc). I believe you can make it through this but there is realistically nothing really that any of us can say or do to change your mind if you have completely made it up. At the end of the day the choice has to come from you.

it doesnt sound harsh. ill be ok i allways am
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todays been a very long day really struggling but at my mates so cant do nething :( i hate this

feel so bad for feeling like this when im here i shud be fine what the hell is wrong with me :(

why should you be fine? There isn't rule to say that.

Could you try talking to your friend about whats going on?

I am glad you are with somebody tonight. What did your CPN say?

she knows and shes great but i hate relying on her so much its all i eva seem to talk about gets bit boring after a while. guess it worked im still here but there a part of me thats realised that very well cud of be the last time i see her. spoke to my OT for bout an hour she just chatted to m bout how i was feeling and why etc and what she wanted me to do shes phoning bk at 3 today but dont think i can lsitern to her shes allways so happy. i hate relying on people its making me worse cus i feel guilty botu talking about it. :(

nothing chnaged everyone thinks im not going to do it ive trid and failed its 2 hard to do it