im sorry

i managed with the nice ladys help to speak to the police a little today, didnt tell them that much as wasnt well but meeting them again on tuesday.

Jo, you're making great progress. :) Just take baby steps. *hugs*

been stuck with mum for a week
she has put me down and made me feel so worthless
im sorry
so sorry

ive got to meet with the police this afternoon to start giving them statements about what my sister and her friends do to me.
im really scared, dont want to do it but know this is the only way to make it stop.
the nice lady will be with me but im so scared.
*curls up tight*

*hugs first Jo* It's not your fault your mom is so mean to you honey.

*hugs second Jo* You can do it!!! We're all so proud of you for going to the police. :) This is going to make it stop! Great job honey.

can jo have the bravery crown please
she done really well today but she doesnt think she has
x

yesterday was so so hard i spent hours with the police, i had to tell them about the incident the day before first, which i really struggled with and spent a lot of the time in tears. i was a complete mess and i feel so ashamed and dirty.

we covered the last two incidents yesterday as they were very fresh in my head, then they said id done enough for one day. i think theyre sorting out an injunction against my sister for now.

im really scared though ive just told our special secret wasnt supposed to tell anyone. i been bad girl *curls up tight*

That wasn't a special secret Jo. She forced you into keeping a secret because she knew she was doing horrible things to you and tricked you into keeping it secret. SHE is bad for hurting you, not you. *hugs*

so not bad girl then?
*cuddles into*

ive decided im going to tell the police everything, i have to do this i just have too.
im really scared about doing it but im going too, i need her out of my life, nomore hurt.

your doing so well



i cant deal with mum anymore
all she does is put me down
im sorry

*hugs* Yes, you're a good girl Jo! =D Good girl and SO brave talking to the police, I promise.

*hugs other Jo* It's not your fault your mom is like that, she's just being mean.

im supposed to be meeting with the police today to get more statements done, IM SO SCARED. i dont know if im going to be able to do this, i feel so sick and my stomachs in knots.

i dont feel like a good brave girl Tracie
*curls up shaking*

You ARE brave and you can do it! *hugs* :) We have faith in you

i spent 5 hours with the police yesterday, it was so hard and i really struggled but managed to tell them some.
i had lots of flashbacks when i was with them but they did get bits of information during them.
they still want more details from me but i couldnt do anymore yesterday so im seeing them on tuesday, but im really not coping to well just now.
im feeling very out of control and unsafe at the moment.

*hugs tight* You did SUCH A GOOD JOB! =D =D =D So proud of you Jo! *hugs more*Great Job!

*holds onto you tightly* me not doing so good. me destroying self, not coping memories and flashbacks so severe.
me done bad
*curls up*

so scared about seeing police tomorrow.
still feeling so out of control and unsafe not sure i can do this anymore, the police want to know to many details. me cant.

i met with the police again yesterday i did manage to tell them quite a lot more and thought i was doing quite well until they gasped and the looks on their faces of disgust made me feel so dirty.

were they disgusted with me?
did i do bad?

no sweetie- they werent disgusted with you, and you're VERY brave to talk to them <3