I need to start being regular with my meds. My girl is Driving me mental. It's not her fault.
I'm sick and she's sick and she's two and a half and she doesn't know better. It's one in the morning and I ran away from her and sobbed, cos I cant stand her crying.
Nothing ever gets better really. Something always comes and stuff it up.
* sits in the corner and tries to behave*

Getting closer and closer to the anniversary day and desperately trying to hold myself together.... I just want to give up and switch but none of us are really coping. At least I'm half way through my ECT treatments, but each day is getting harder and harder to cope - to not just check out and throw the next few days away.... My head just won't stop.... Please.... just stop.

Room for 1 more :(

Frankie - there's always room in here for one more person. *safe hugs if you can accept them*

Tonight I'm really not coping. Since the anniversary my mood has been dropping further and further until I reached the eternal black place. Now I'm extremely suicidal and Jillian (my nastiest voice) is screaming about how much better this place would be if I did just destroy myself. My husband wants to do the best for me including not leaving me on my own but he does have to sleep. Right now I don't even know what I want to do but that happens. *sigh*

I'm just going to curl up in my pillow fort with my teddy bear and cry myself to sleep. *sigh*

Not dead. Was ok and busy. Now not stable. And not sleeping.

Is there room for one more? really not coping with everything at the moment. Been having more and more rough days lately.

clobo - please, come on in and find whatever you need

Ktanaya - *safe hugs*

So sick of being down. It would be lovely if the manic side of my illness kicked in and gave me a break because I'm really sick of being screwed in ways that don't end in an orgasm. Would really love some damn sleep but even that doesn't seem to be helping at the moment. *disappears into her pillow fort with Bear*

This is the only place I feel safe right now x :-(

Why am I fighting so hard, what's the point... *curls up in the corner*

Less stable. Sleepless. But ever so exhausted...

hi is there room for an extra one please because I am struggling a bit right now. thanks. gets duvet and a couple of pillow's and curls up in the corner. I hope everyone is ok.

hi is there room for an extra one please? as I am struggling a bit right now, Thanks, takes duvet and a couple of pillows and curls up in a free corner.

Hugs all *hugs* take care of yourselves x

Never enough... still feel as bad... stupid

*pokes head round door* popping in cos i feel like everything is going on too fast around me. and to also drop by to give everyone some hugs :)

Bit nutty tonight. Brains a-racing. Cant type it all, fingers not co-operating with brain. Also can't figure out how to spell what I wanna write. Plus it wouldn't make sense to anyone but the fairies in my head. So it's kinda pointless attempting.
Random impulses, does anyone get them. I just spent half a shift wanting to flash someone; anyone really. Not the best look for a nurse. Didn't. Did voice that I had the urge. Fortunately understanding work partner.
Just noticed my sentence structure becomes abrupt when I'm Like this. Abrupt is a cool word.
And now I should stop. Just post it.
*hugs the guest. And anyone else who wants it. I'll try to hold off the excessive enthusiasm*

*applauds urge to flash*

:p @ Matthew.
Obsessive random impulse today is to eat blutak. FML
they are so strong. It feels as tho someone's forcing themselves into my head and trying to take over.

Well rather blu tak that what you mentioned in your pm. Ahem. *shudders*. Get some rest xx

Can't sleeeeeep....

Clowns will eat me.....