Miranda lovely,
I didn't know you were bipolar too. I'm sorry to hear that you've been ill. I understand completely how you feel, the shame at out of character things you might have done, and unfortunately I don't have any words which will make that go away. However, you are ill. Whatever happened isn't your fault. You will deal with it and move on.
I remember you saying a while ago that you got on well with your CPN. Might it be worth getting in touch with her? Do you have any extra medications you take as needed which might help make you feel a bit calmer?
Why is eating making you sick? Can you have something small?
Please take care

Thank you darling. I have texted my CPN she is indeed quite lovely but I think she is on holiday this week and I don't know how to get in touch with anyone else/what help is on offer? I'm really a bit stuck. I'm also alone againin the house.

I am still feeling jumpy and racing thoughts today though I got better sleep.

I go on holiday with my boyfriend who is also quite lovely should call them the ql's hehe on Monday and I simple cannot be unwell at all then so you can see why I am worried. I don't have any prn at the moment as I have been relaatively stable for a long time (years). I'm gonna try eat again. I actually want to but my stomach is not being my nicest friend!

I could write forever but I didn't really enjoy war and peace (miranda you never even tried!) so no I'll spare you.

Is there any way you can tire yourself out (physically)? Getting enough sleep is really important as NOT sleeping will exacerbate things.
Do you have a number for the mental health team your CPN works for? Perhaps you could get in touch with the CPN on duty. Or you could get an emergency appointment with your GP?

Hey hope everyone's okay today (:

Hey Kitkat, haven't seen you around for a while. How are you?

How are things now Miranda?

I'm okay. My chest feels tight again and I feel sick. I'm sure it'll be okay, it's always okay.

I know it has been a while, sorry about that I've just sorta been a bit lost within myself recently...

Aw I'm sorry to hear you feel that way, is there anything that can relieve the tightness in your chest?

Hi Kitkat (hope you're ok?) and Sarah (thanks for the advice!)

I had a long sing in the shower and then my mum found some lorazepam thank god so I took that and chatted with her and tried to calm and went to see my boyfriend. Tried to have a conversation about how we cope together when I am manic because I am terrified one day it will ruin our relationship, but it didn't really work out so well.

I'm feeling like I'm gonna see how I am tomorrow and may get in touch with the CMHT then depending on how things are. Hope I sleep sleep. My ql dad is back now so I won't be alone.

How are you all? I hope you really are ok, Ange? (you don't have to pretend)

Sorry you're low, thumbelina. Do you want to talk about what might be making you feel this way?

Miranda, please get in touch with your CPN. You are clearly manic and I understand how wonderful and lovely it is, but there will be repercussions if you don't. Please take care.

I am feeling better today. No longer sick which is good. And I got a new tattoo!

How is everybody else?

Ooh what is your tattoo of? I want one but I think I'm far too chicken. Steve has a lot and he is wanting to get one to symbolise him getting better which I very much hope happens. So glad your feeling better as well. That is good news.

Sarah, is there anyone you can talk to about your mood? Oh you can talk to us aussi. Any things you know may lift it, even temporarily? Look after your beautiful self. I slept good actually. I think it is keeping me happy. You are right it wasn't the best time but hopefully we can have that conversation some other better time will smiles and laughter to make us wrinkly! :)

I have a therapist who is off cause he had a knee operation, it has been quite a chunk of time now. I feel very comfortable talking to him and he said I can contact him cause he is just resting at home now. Do you think it is a good idea to do that? He may be able to suggest what I do. My CPN never replied she must be off. I am a bit worried but I can't seem to stop to think about it! I am just worried about my holiday now.

I have had another busy day. Chatted to lots of amazing wonderful people and bought pressies and badges for everyone and a dress. Tomorrow I am going to dye my hair, I also have college again. Isn't the Blue Danube incredible? Just opened my ears fully.

Hope everyone's okay today (:

*hugs to anyone who wants them*

That's alright (:

I dunno, I've been feeling kinda empty but I'm not sure if it's depression - usually I'm sad and I just feel down, but I've just been feeling like a zombie recently - like everything I'm doing and feeling is being done and felt for me, like I'm being controlled. Like I'm a Sim, if you see what I mean. I'm not sure what's going on.

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling bad, but at least he knows about what's going on with you, so he can try and help you (: how come you stopped taking your medication?

Ah I see. I love Amazon, they have so much on there, I've recently bought 4 House boxsets and have ordered the last 3 series xD

No not really, I've been out of professional help since last June and been trying to do it on my own - not going well but not exactly getting seriously worse.

How are things going now Kitkat? Have you started any new medication or something which could explain the 'zombie' feeling?
I love amazon too, it's ace! I recently bought Season 1&2 of Misfits from there.

thumbelina: how's the motivation now? Would it be worth speaking to your GP about re-starting medication? I take quetiapine too and it seems to help with my moods although I still have highs and lows.

How is everybody else?
There's a pic of my new tattoo in the picture thread :-)

I'm currently in between diagnosies... at first it was major depression, but my pdoc just started me on a mood stabilizer more commonly used for bipolar. So I really don't know what I have.

Mikey - no medication, as of June last year when I was discharged I refuse to go to the doctors ever again. The doctor and psychiatrist I saw just made me feel so unimportant, I'm scared of being made to feel like that again.

There are some friends but they're kinda dealing with their own stuff right now, so I don't/can't really expect them to help me deal with mine.

Hope everyone's okay today.

*bump*

I'm alright at the moment thanks, recovering from a bad episode but not too sure if i'm still in it - how're you?

No not really, I've been at home all week and my Mum prefers to just a turn a blind eye as to when I'm in an episode - she can't ever accept anything is ever wrong with me, mentally or physically (my period is stupidly late and there's no possibility that I'm pregnant so I might have a hormone imbalance or something).

Hope no-one minds if i join the thread? Apparently have recurrent depression with bpd but have had many hypermanic episodes and bipolar has been mentioned but cant see my psych till may to get an answer. sorry if i've got the wrong thread

*goes and hides in the corner*

Hey (: you haven't got the wrong thread, this is for people with mood disorders. I've been diagnosed with depression and BPD too.

*sits with you in the corner* How're you?