Didn't mean to scare you away, sorry

*hugs everyone some more*
*tucks handmade magic blankets around anyone who wants one*

Misplaced my first aid book, drat it all. Need to look up shock.

Susan, why do you have to look up shock?

*snuggles up to Jeff* I feel awful :-(

*sits in her corner, knees pulled to cheat, hands on head, rocking ever so slightly*
IsuckIsuckIsuckIsuckIsuckIsuck

And I am SO stupid

you are not stupid, please come over to shoulder

*scoots on over and settles on Jeffs shoulder* well it feels that way... Melodramatic, unreasonable, add them up and they equal stupid

Nope, I think they equal "us"

*snuggles closer to her wonderful Uncle*
But I don't WANT to be that way, I'm sick and tired of it :crying:

*grabs her blanket and stuffed lamb and settles on to Jeffs shoulder for the night*
Thanks Jeff...

*sits in a corner, knees to chest, arms around knees, and rocks... staring off into oblivion... holding a blade to wrist*

Mania sucks... must stop the voices and visions... mania sucks... make the voices and visions go away!!!!

Sleep well,

Amanda, take the other shoulder and hold on tight dear

*curls up against brother's back at same time making sure everyone is tucked in and comfortable*

must... make... it... stop...
*grips blade tighter*

The current status of your Application is:
Congratulations! Your place at Newman University College, Birmingham (was Newman College of Higher Education) (N36) to study IT with Social & Applied Psychology (G5C8) has been confirmed.

Incase anyone actually cares anymore >.<

Know I've already text you but Very proud of you darling!!! New start, new opportunities and your going to be AMAZING! You deserve this xxxx

Thanks Emma.

Trying not to care about my **** grades (Y) Because I got I wanted. It's finally happening ahaha

Still holding, Helen :-D only this time tighter cause I am SO proud of you!! Way to go sweetie!

*curls up in as tight a ball as she can manage and looks miserably ahead*:crying:

YAY for Hells

*dances a very small, quiet happy dance for Helen* manic phases are getting shorter and more sporadic

Well done Helen!
I have to do a third year of college since I spent most of this year in hospital :(

I took an OD this morning, ended up at A&E but left before they could do anything, bought more pills and am now working up the courage to take them.

*hugs everyone*

Helen, congratulations!

Zowie, please don't take the pills. Please?

Bro, hold on to me and I will do my best to help keep you safe.

I want my money back, this rollercoaster ride is not as much fun as advertised, and I am fairly certain if it goes any lower that I am going to have magma in places it doesn't belong. What happened to the loops and curves, I just get the tiny climb followed by great big downhills.

Where is the customer service desk? I want a refund or exchange.

*hugs daddy* I know the feeling of wanting off the roller coaster...

Zowie... please don't it's not worth it... it's not... *holds you tight*

CONGRATULATIONS Helen... I'm so happy for you!!!! *glomps*

Sorry, don't know where else to put this, gotta get it out, can't let it win



Please skip reading the above and just hold on tight, please, please


Did someone say there is a cupboard here strong enough to hold an old fat man, even a cardboard box, something to hide me.

Bro, I am holding you tight and won't let you go. We are not going to go play along the edge of the abyss. We are not going to stand near the railroad track.

If you're an old fat man, what does that make me? I'm older than you are. *stands protectively in front of the door of your hidey hole*

Oh, good, a hidey hole, in my corner
*crawls deep inside hidey hole where no one and nothing can see him, turns on magic light extinguisher*

*shuffles in*
*sees Jeff*
*runs up and hugs him*
I MISSED YOU!!!!

I should be happy....I got good AS level results...but im NOT happy...>.<

*cuddles up to Jeff and hangs on tight*
No, it's not calling you Jeff.

Sorry, not very much use today. Did y'all know that just because you ask for your chart (therapy) doesn't necessarily mean you'll get it? Got an email from my therapist yesterday that (among other things) said he had looked over my chart and would sign off on giving it to me. Uh, what? So I emailed him and asked about it and this is what I got:
"they make me sign off on your chart so that I can feel important and powerful. Actually, apparently I can exercise some discretion and could have decided that it would not be in your best interests, "from a clinical perspective," to give you your chart. "

Um, hello, it's my chart! And I'm asking for my medical chart too so if and when I find a new doc (and maybe therapist) I can hand them the chart(s).

For heaven sake :angry:

Is there a hidey hole big enough for this fat old woman?
*sits in hidey hole and looks at gray in hair*

No one here, just dark corner, nothing to see, not even a mouse. Nope, no one here at all.

Good. Share dark corner please. No one can see my grey hair in a dark corner. Nor how beat up and aged my hands look.
Please bro, share dark corner. I promise I'll be quiet.

*hugs for you all*

I'm around if anyone want's to chat just PM me or something and i shall get back to you :) i'm in a supportive mood so might aswell be around.

For me i'm doing great :) i got my engagment ring tonight, so if anyone don't believe that i'm engaged i'll just show them the ring that will shut them up hehe. xxx

Just gonna check in for an hour or so, sit in a quiet place and not do a lot.
Feeling just a bit annoyed, thick, frustrated and like a big fat fool.
Won't take up too much space, and I'll check out soon xx

make yourself comfortable, just please, don't shine any light into my hidey hole, I believe there are blankets and pillows in the newly discovered attic, plus old photos in a trunk to peruse (requirement in all old attics)

*pokes around the cupbords for Jess*
Ok luv, I'm worried :-(

*continues to poke around and finds her uncles hole*
Jeff...
*squeezes in with him and hopes to offer as well as receive some sort of comfort just by being there*
Man, you had to pick the smallest place in this ward, didn't you? ;-)

can't be all that small if I fit in, but I know that it has some room for visitors, as long as there are no lights, think Susan has one shoulder, you can have the other

just please, keep the trains away, no horn, no lights, no chugga chugga, none of it, just silence and darkness

and please get Jess back, my heart is hurting

"get Jess back"?
Where is Jess?!
Is she ok?!?!

she left the ward last night, her cupboard is so quiet without her in it, she will be back soon I am sure

*whimpers* I hope you're right... :notsure::crying:

You bet I have your shoulder bro, the left one, easier to hear your heart. No trains. No light. You gonna hate me if you hear the sound of me chewing beef jerkey? I'll share.

*sneaks back in and ruturns to cupboard, makes sure it's locked and people proof, curls up and hides*

Oh don't worry, no lights.

And Jess isn't feeling that well y'all, might want to keep her in your prayers and/or thoughts

*says a silent prayer for jess*

*wonders if she is 'people' and therefore unable to get in to Jess' cupbord*

ally, maybe you'll just have to get your new therapist to email the old one and get your chart sent over (when you find a new one)? it sounds pretty annyoing though. i know i'd want my file just to read it all cos it is FAT lol.

Thank goodness I don't rank high enough to be people, but I think that I will stay in my hidey hole, too dangerous out there.

And I will pass on jerkey, no food, ugh.

*says many silent prayers for jess and mentally pats on cupboard door*

*sits with knees to chest, arms around knees, and rocks... staring into oblivion*

I am triggered... why am I triggered? need relief... need to harm... must have relief...

*curls up*
i hate being reminded how much i ****ed up my 1st year at uni...
yet dad keeps reminding me every five seconds :\
canigiveintotemptation?ideserveit:\

*hugs Heather*
you don't deserve "it" hun... you don't

blehh

Oh I'm getting my file but I can't believe what a pain it is:blink: