Jess we arent going to give up...
Please let us help you...

*gives soph small cuddle*

i dunno what i've done to make u guys want to help me. but thank you.

*goes to corner and curls up*

*sits next to Jess in her corner and gives pillows to make it comfortable and wraps Jess in a blanket and cuddles lots*

what have you done to make me want to help you? you've been here for me and done so much for me. you've kept me alive and have generally been a fantastic person. and you're my RYL sis, i'd do anything to help you, its part of being a sis *cuddles*

Help? Please?

hugs blondiebear tight...

meh... cries... hugs more x

*huggles you both* whats happened?

i havetn dne antyhign. u did that for urself.

what's wrong susan?

Jess you've been a wonderful support and i want to help you. please let me?

i dont deserve it. look how mnay times ive' hrurt u soph!

you do deserve it! you're not the first person to hurt me and you wont be the last. it happens. we get up and move on.
now stop complaining and let me help! *squishes you with huggles and cuddles* i hope you feel loved because you are!

i'm hosribs.

gogn hme nw.

stupid meds making me insomniac and sick. cant see dr till tues. stupid everything.
feel icky.
want to die.
make it all go away.

you're not horrible Jess.

*cuddles effervescence*

*checks herself back in*
Had therapy today...2nd appt with this person. Lots of questions...talked about "bad" things, sex and girl stuff. I was okay when we had the conversation but now I'm not. Not supposed to talk about that stuff, its dirty. I'm dirty for talking about it, bad, deserve to be punished for talking about bad things.
*finds a pillow, pulls it over head*

*lays on the floor and reels in pain*
OWWWWWWW my head!!!!

*thinks to self I could slit my wrist
or down a bottle of pills and nobody would
know... I seem to be alone in the psych ward
tonight*

*hugs jess, sophie, chloe and mango*

*hugs jess, sophie, chloe, mango, AND susan*

*sits in her nest and mopes*

*hugs all*
*scoots over next to Bound by Thoughts* Not alone

the ward seems unusually quiet tonight...
not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing...
*curls up and rocks alone in corner and sucks thumb*

curls up around her stuffed pig Fred-fred and looks sadly out into the ward

*offers Susan a snuggle*

*sits in her corner, knees to chest, arms wrapped around knees, head on knees and stares vacantly at the wall*

Guys, we all seem to be doing so awful and it worries me... And makes me sad... Especially since I see all of you saying how useless or bad or whatever you are, when I can see how lovely and kind, and caring you are... Love you guys.

Love you too God mommy

you guys are wonderufl,. all of u. reaching out to help eah toehr when feeling bad. *hugs*

Jess I see you... And dear heart, I love you and truely believe that you are valuable and helpful and kind...

And I'm going to stop posting because I am SO out of it for whatever reason I don't know...
:crying:
Damn

*swamsp allyw ith hugs* ur wonderifl. lov u ltos.


*goes back in cupbaord and locks selfin gain*

Where is everyone tonight?
the ward is virtually empty...
*cries* I'm all alone...

*runs to hug her daddy*
I am not alone!!! Being alone is scary :-(

*puts blankets, pillows and breakfast down for everyone*
sorry everyone had a tough night *hugs* if anyone needs them

heh. teling pepls i'm okay. i am. fine. great.

*padlcok cupboard *

*curls up next to jess*
am going to sleep in your cupboard next to you. like harry potter. safe?
night night

friend jsut todl me she tried to kill her self. cant breathe. cnt do this. cnt.

gta go bed. night. b saef.

awww hun *wraps jess up and holds her in arms till she falls asleep*

Hey all, prepear for somthing strange that might not happen for again for a while

*BIG HUGS FOR ALL*

weird huh? Stay safe everyone!

ooooh! *bags some hugs in case anyone wants on for later*
thanks hun xx

:D Its a werid mood when I can hug...but better then being really low.
Hooray for sparkles!

*pokes head out from under blanket*
I've been awake for two hours and I feel absolutely awful... And nothing I do helps, not clutching my stuffed bear, not atempting to become one with the wall, not curling up in as tight a ball as I can manage, nothing... :crying:
I.Hate.This.
*burrows back under her blanket*

*hugs Caela*
I'm sorry hun :-( I've got nothing for you. Please take care.

*returns to her corner taking her misery with her*

*hugs forever lost* sorry, ill be ok. *hands over a new blanket if you want it*

I totally slept throught the alarm. Didn't actually wake until the radio stopped playing. No worries though.

*hugs amanda, jess and ally*
Mark, thank you for the hugs. I'll stow one away for later also, for about 3 in the afternoon my time.

Brother dear, you hanging in there? *reaches up to hug Jeff*

*fnally checks back in*

Sorry I didn't check in yesterday, been trying to catch up with over two weeks woth of posts, it's hard work!!!

*leaves hugs for you all*

Welcome to all the new peeps here :)

Call me Helen or Hells (my nickname), whichever you prefer is fine with me :]

I've missed you all so damm much :(

*hugs jeff*

You do not bring negativity. You do not drain the energy. You are giving all of us strength. You are sheltering us.

I have a resentment and am furious. I'm ready to start throwing punches and pulling hair and kick shins. I hate this service committment on Thursday mornings. I'm tired of being the responsible one.

Instead I will send the suv down the interstate and unlock a meeting and listen to someone note that there was something that I didn't put out, like the sugar. Or like last week, that we need more matches.

Jeff, if drawing you into my chaos helps, come on in. Let me help you by asking you to help me. *hugs Jeff*

Again, the strength of my back.

*holds big brother jeff soooooo tight, cries a tear that seems to run forever*

*wanders in quietly, finds a corner, curls up and cries*

Helen's back yay!!!!
*squishes*

*hugs Auburn and then collapses on the floor in a heep and moans*
I am having a shitty ass day though...
and it just keeps getting worse :-/
All I want to do is lay in bed and sleep the freakin day away!!!

Feeling more ok then normal today (hugs indicate that maybe?) But i can feel pure rage just below my surface i just hope that my dad doesnt set it off.