*cuddles Kitty* you're amazing, thank you for being here for me. I need hugs.

*snuggles Crimson* I'm religion-less. I find it easier to focus on myself that way. I hate working on stuff when I'm not in the mood. I'll never cope in a job :(

My husband and I consider ourselves to be Pagan as well. We consider ourselves to be Wiccan, but there are some things that I don't necessarily believe about the religion and some things that I'm not as into as other Wiccans are. But meh. My brother Chris lead me to the religion...even though he's not alive...gawd I miss him...

-trembles and just stares blankly while rocking faster-

I'm distraught. I'm above the weight I promised I'd never let myself get to as its so unhealthy. *sighs and hides away*

I am, too. I want to die. -shakes-

*cuddles Kitty* Don't die, I'd miss you so much, you're lovely and I need you x

So am I. But I'm hoping after my in-laws move out (read 'get thrown out' here) and my stress level goes down (along with our bills) I'll manage to be bothered to work out and actually get somewhere with my size -in a healthy way-.

Is there something that you guys like to do? Yoga? Dance? that could help?
I'm going to a yoga class next month.

hugs- kitty xx
just made one of the toughest decisions of my life today and is kind of regretting it, (i dont want to continue with treatment now, but i said ok then :S )
who's looking forward to christmas, for one i am certainly not *shivers*
and thanks for the name mention...yup i'm shaz sadly x
Massive hugs some more >-huggs-<

No...I'm really limited on what I can do because of my chronic back pain.

I'm just feelin really low and suicidal right now...

-hits the back of her head against the wall really hard-

-hugs shaz back-

I struggle with things due to my arthiritis. >:(

*cuddles Shaz* I hope you're okay x

hmmm... maybe modified pilates?
my main problem is i'll find something that doesn't hurt me but get bored of doing it and quit, or not have the time or space or motivation/energy...

Yeah. About the only thing I can manage is swimming but I hate it. Walking is okay but eventually it gets my knees. Eventually I'll ask my doctor what I can do. So insanely thirsty today :(

-gets up from the floor- I'm so anxious...

-runs around the ward throwing things at the wall again, screaming-

Poor Kitty :(

I'm going to have to go sleep. I feel terrible. Night all *massive cuddles and well-wishes* xxx

-stops throwing things to run up to sarah and gives her a hug- night night. sleep well.

Hope you feel better tomorrow hun x

Me too...tomorrow is still a long way away for me.. -shrugs-

*sigh* forgot about B being in training and me having to cover his job this afternoon but I was only 10 min late to do it... And now it's time to go home... Maybe I'll bake some bread (since I can afford more flour if I need it now) or maybe some cookies...
*hugs my ward mates*
g'night everybody. :) be back in the morning (or afternoon depending where you are)

Night crimson. I know you aren't on anymore but still thought I'd say it anyway.

I'm pretty sure I will be here in the ward all night. I'm not leaving. I don't feel safe with myself.

-runs around the ward hitting herself into the walls and bouncing off of them-