lia sweetie. please answer, you can PM me if you like. x

Lia, honey, are you okay?? my PM box is open, ALWAYS, for anyone here... but please, do answer. We're getting worried about you. :( *cuddles gently*

Mark, sorry the people at the cyber cafe are messing about with your shifts, that bites. And it's not good of them to not have let you know beforehand, have you let anyone know there that you don't drive? (random question but if they knew that then they might think to call you up or summat before you came in because for you, it's not just a simple hop-in-the-car-and-drive-there sort of thing) *cuddles*

Hels, what's up, hon?

Kahlia, sorry you've been feeling ignored. I, too, understand that feeling. :( And it's gotta be hard coming from the other side of the world, too. *cuddles* How'd you damage your arm?? :(

Laura, so sorry to hear about your dog. :( That sucks, and has got to hurt... *cuddles gently* Here if you need to talk, love.

*hides in the warren where no one can find her*

*finds april and hugs her* are you ok hun?
i'm really worried about lia now :/

*hugs everyone*

I'm worried about Lia too, hopefully her post just got submitted whilst she was typing and hasn't realised yet, or something. We all know how much of an epic fail technology can be. I hope you're okay sweetie, we're here for you.

*cuddles all*

I'm sorry I haven't replied about what's wrong. Nowhere feels safe to. But I will admit that I'm really really struggling :'(

*hugs helen* i hope your right and lia is ok. what do you mean 'nowhere feels safe to* hun? are you safe though?

*In the corner still, rocking back and forth, now holding arm* I'm SORRY! I'M SO SORRY! I gave in. I gave in. I'm SO sorry. I gave in. I gave in. Today was too much. It was my breaking point. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. :crying:

*holds shadow 13 if thats ok?* it's ok sweetie, we all slip up sometimes, you didnt give in, just think of it like a speed bump, and you've gotta go over it before you can get on the road to recovery. x

^^wow, that was very wise for me! XD

*hugs helen* PM me if you want okay hun? I'm sorry you dont feel safe.

*hugs shadow13* Its okay hun, its just a slip up. Try to relax... take a deep breath. Here if you want to talk.

*hugs nicole* that was wise heh. Hope you are okay.

*mark* im sorry that they keep messing up your schedule, that has got to be annoying.

*hugs lia* i'm worried too.. hope you are okay.

*hugs april* how r u doing?

I'm pretty sad about my dog right now. Its my sisters birthday too and we arent going to tell her because it will ruin her day. :-/ things arent going that well overall... but im okay.. im always okay...

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs April*

*Hugs shadow13*We all slip up some times , are you looking after it okay?

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Taz*

*hugs laura and mark* hope your both okish (apart from what you've already said obviously)
*spies lia* please just let us know your ok hun?

i am feeling very wise and very...whats the word?.....normal. today.

I'm looking after THEM okay. I promise. No signs of infection. Clean cuts. I'm trying to calm down. I'm taking deep breaths now. I'm talking I'm here. I'm okay.

I'm sorry guys. I'm alright. I left my laptop with all the internet and stuff all open and wondered off. I didn't meant to make you all worry. I was just wondering if I had the guts to tell you something.

*sits on the floor and crys*

what's wrong honey?

*cuddles everyone tightly*

Laura, I might PM you but you have so much going on without me whining.
Nicole, that was very wise :D

I can't deal with this, but I'm not giving them the satisfaction. It'll get better right? It always does eventually?? Hurry up 11 days, then can go see my best friend. I need her to be okay, please let her be okay tomorrow.

Well I just took a Diazepam , I SO need today to be over , I have an appointment with Kat who is covering for my nurse tomorrow , I think it might help to speak to someone in person and I like Kat .
Tomorrow after my Dad finishes work he is picking me up and taking me back to my parents where I am seeing my Uncle and Aunt and cousin who are coming over from California , I've never met my cousin , he is 3 or 4 and was born in the states .So anyway I might be a bit less on the ward over the weekend as I'm away but will try to get on as much as I can .

*Hugs for Helen*

*Hugs Louise* Whats up Louise?

Hels, you can feel free to PM me or whatever. I wish I could help you though, think I have an idea of what's going on but (obviously) not sure. Sending cuddles your way, love!!

Laura, you can PM me too, if it would help. Just to get it out, you know? *hugs gently*

Lia, you can PM me if you don't want to tell the whole ward yet... just to see how it feels telling someone something. I don't know, that might sound stupid, but I know you've felt comfortable telling me stuff before so... well, just a thought. *gentle hugs*

*hugs Shadow13* Hi, we've not "officially" met yet, I'm April. :) I'm sorry to hear that you've cut, but at least you're looking after them... :( But as Nicole said, just look at it in blips in the road to recovery (well, had to rephrase it a bit so I wouldn't be stealing it, now, didn't I? :P). Glad you're posting here, though, it's good to get out how you feel somewhere, and this is a very supportive and friendly place to be posting. :)

Erm so to all who've asked how I am... meh, not the best, not the worst, kinda in the middle. Really tired but not as bad as I've been before this time of day. Reason being? - my NP cut out my morning dose of Neurontin (gabapentin) in the hopes that it wouldn't make me so sleeeeeeepy come afternoon. I think it might be working, but I don't know for sure. Bleh.

I'm cranky though. And I hate it when I get cranky. >:( It really sucks FEELING this way and ACTING this way because I tend to snap at people, or vow not to speak to them if I've felt that they've slighted me in the least. I mean, my mum annoyed me earlier today and now I'm (stupidly and YES I CAN SEE that it's stupidly, heh) vowing that I'm not going to talk to her next phone call I make to my parents. But of course I will talk with her, it's just stupid being the way I am being right now. Childish (in the bad sense of the word), even. ARGH!!!! :'(

Okies, I'll shut up now...

*hugs mark* hope you have fun with your family!

*hugs helen* don't worry about it at all. I'm always around if you want to talk. I wont think its whining i promise.

*hugs louise* you alright?

*hugs april* sorry that you are feeling cranky. It happens to everyone sometimes though. Glad that you are okay-ish. Hope that the reduction of meds helps with the tiredness. I hate being tired all the time.

*hugs everyone else*

I might PM someone later.. idk yet. Have to go to class first.

feeling low and a bit unsafe.