Thankyou Felicia *Hugs*

^^ You said this Felicia , I feel the same way a LOT of the time If you want to PM me to talk it's okay :)

*hugs everyone.* i dont think im going tomorrow....

*hugs nicole* try to go hun. it'll be fun. they already know about your si right? and you know them all... i'm sure after a short time you'll forget all about your worries and just enjoy the trip.

yeah they all know about my si. but i only know 2 people going, out of 20 :/ and i dont have some of the stuff i need and im too panicky to walk up to tesco and get it, and my mum wont take me :(

2 people is better than no people. *cuddles*
could you try drinking tea or doing something to help the anxiety and then walking up? maybe take music with to distract you from the walk and the people?
think about it this way... walking up there and getting the things you need and your trip will get you out of the house and away from your mom and siblings.

maybe....i'd probably feel a lot better going when its dark (but my mum probs wont let me go then.) cause there wont be so many people about.

Argh!!!! I'm so stressed out right now, just want to curl up and die. so over this now.=(

can we move in here? we are not doing well and having trouble figuring things out that we need to do. everything is negative and bad it seems..nothing seems to get better..only worse.

i belong here.. i need to just live here i think

=(

Course you can :) I practically live in this thread =P

*cuddles all*

*hugs nicole* I think you should try to go. It will probably be fun and maybe it will be a great distraction from other things going on right now. At least that you know 2 of the people and you may even make more friends while you are there with everyone

*hugs jill* i'm sorry that you are so stressed. We're here if you want to talk more.

*hugs mark* i'm glad that you are talking to people about your plan and that they have been nice about everything. Its hard being so confused about everything though.. I can understand that. Sorry I don't have much advice, here if you want to talk though.

*hugs crimson* I was wondering where you had been lately. It's good to see you around! Hope you are doing as okay as you can be.

*hugs felicia* Glad that you are feeling a little better today. Try to not just expect a relapse... that kinda makes it sound like you are planning on one rather than trying to fight it... and i think if you can fight it that you should. Oh and I can relate a lot to what you said about being scared of loneliness and feeling undesirable. I feel like that a lot too, especially when thinking about my own break up situation from a few months ago. Just remember that if things dont work out with your fiance, then it was not meant to be and you will someday find someone who is completely worth it. You are young still (your profile page says 20.. so im assuming thats true) so just give it time.

*hugs jess* I'm glad that your meds are working now, but not about the panic. Having your arms on display might not be as bad as you think... sometimes people don't really notice... in fact, Ive found that lots of people don't notice unless they are looking for it. Try to do something nice and relaxing for yourself. Maybe that will help with the panic situation.

*cuddles helen* I think that you should stop texting the guy if he is triggering you and talking about rape. I'm sorry that he is doing that and that you are feeling so low still.

*hugs april* i'm glad that you slept better last night. Its good that the nightmares are slowing down. I hate nightmares. Sorry that you are so tired. Hopefully you are more awake as the day goes on.

*hugs oliver* Sorry to hear that that both you and alex are struggling. wish I had more advice then just to tell you to make sure you both know that you are there for each other. I think that is important though... to know that the other cares and will support.

*hugs beki, kahlia, and everyone else i've missed*

EDIT: *waves to hidingme* I'm laura. I don't think i've introduced myself to you yet. Of course you can stay in here. I pretty much only post in the ward lol.

Sorry, I've not been replying much. Life has gotten a tad crazy.

thanks ..

ive got alot of stuff going on .. worries, anxieties..and i feel helpless and worthless..

wish someone could completely take care of me and make decisions for me..
just all too much..

Thanks Laura. I did stop texting & thankfully they didn't persist on this occasion. Considering speaking to police about it, my best friend agrees with my concerns that he could be hurting other people...hmm. Sorry I didn't reply to your PM x

Luke *Hugs* I'm sorry you had that experiance with your local MH team , what that person said is totally f'ing ridiculous , is getting a second opinion an option from a different Mental Health Professional ? Sorry I don't have any really constructive advice . Nice to have you back though :)

oh my wow....i don't know quite what to say to that luke... just wow and seriously? wtf? really?
wow *shakes head* she ain't so bright is she? i'd think they'd admit you (or give a referral to being admitted) so you were safe if getting an appt was going to take up to 6 month... but honestly to mortify her as much as she's mortified everyone the response to "Well, your so low and suicidal at the moment hopefully you won't go any lower - fingers crossed" should be "yeah i can't go lower, just be dead. thanks" but then i'm rather bitchy and the woman angers me (and to think not even my psych nurse)

*hugs back and nods* i's surviving at present

Curls up, may end up loosing someone I care about. Not sure I can handle much more right now, everybody so stressed out and it just seams to be getting worse as more and more keeps getting added on. Hell knows what it will be like in 4 weeks. Probley not good which will get everybody more stressed. Can't do this anymore just need/want it to stop.

I'm baffled Luke... :|

guhh feel like ****. :crying:

*hugs luke* What the hell? I am so angry at the MH system for what they have said to you. I am completely baffled by the whole things. I'm so sorry that they are treating you like that.

*hugs jill, april, helen, and crimson*

Sorry its not more right now.
Can't talk about myself...

Here to listen if you need an ear...
*offers plushie, chocolate and hug*