Having trouble sleeping tonight Shadowedsoul :( I hope you sleep ok

ughhh...

...feel like ****. again. feel like i need need need to cut and it's not going away.

taz and laura, thanks for the PMs. will try to reply soon. *hugs tight*

Huggles mark that sucks Hun, hope you get some sleep
soon,sorry not much help =[

huggles April,try and stay safe Hun, try not to cut, I know
that's easyer said than done. Sorry not being much help.

*cuddles everyone*

updated r/v...

*hides in a hole* :'(

Becca *hugs for everyone and cookies and safe care packages* :)

heh wish could believe that =[
but thankies

grrargh. i fell asleep at 3pm, got waked up by dad at 6:30 telling me to make stupid sample boards... why couldnt he just lemme sleeeeeeep for once *whine* lol
im lonely =\

buuuuut maybe going to pride in ny end of month =D hopefully without my idiot father lol

*gives Mark chamomile tea and super soft pillows* I hope you get some decent sleep, if not a full night. I'm off to read your r/v after this, so you can expect a PM in the morning from me :) And maybe your SW wants you to call him to discuss the SI in relation to the med student? I could be way off, but just a thought.

*hugs Hels* Enjoy your concert!!! I think I missed it - did you post pictures somewhere from the BEP one? =/

*hugs Jill* I hope you get some sleep <33 And hopefully the pain goes down at least a tad!

*hugs Laura & Louise* How are you both doing?

*hugs April and wanders off to read her r/v*

*hugs Becca* How's your day been?

*hugs Heather* You're quite welcome. Hard to believe when it's just words over the internet :( But hang strong <3 Sucks that your dad woke you up...

*wanders off to a desk in the corner to study chemistry* Midterm exam in 21 hours! Eeek. Probably won't be on until after 10 tomorrow night, so everyone take care!!

Day was good till hubby asked outta cuiosity how much i weigh cause my medical issues. I am a fat cow :(

*hugs taz* good luck on your exam!

*hugs becca* you are not a fat cow. Don't let that get you down at all. Try to focus on the good that happened today.

*hugs mark* sorry that you are having sleeping problems. good luck with that call tomorrow. Hope that everything is alright.

*cuddles april* Keep trying to hang in there. I know its hard and easier said than done, but please try.

*hugs helen* How was the concert?

*hugs heather* Taz couldn't have said it any better hun. Sorry that you dad woke you up and hope that you get some sleep tonight.

*hugs oliver, jill, jess, and julie* Hope you are all safe.

Feeling destructive. It's almost 2am here. I wonder where the night will go. My days are starting to blur together. I don't feel like there is any separation between them (that isn't good wording.. i dont know how to explain how it feels). I keep telling myself to go to sleep so that i can get into a better sleeping pattern... but its been weeks since i've fallen asleep before 3am. Not that it matters, its not like i have anything to get up for since i work at night. I'm on a serious ramble now, so before i keep going: *checks out of ward for a few hours* Need do go do somethings... i'll probaby be back later, hopefully feeling less strange.

*Super Hugs* April I read your R/V thread ,Thinking of you :)

*Hugs Taz , Kahlia , Kathryn, Lia , MID, April,Laura , Helen, Hayley,Oliver,anarchistl0ve,Heather,Shadowedsoul , Nicole , Louise,
and those I've missed , sorry!:S*

*cuddles Mark* How are you doing today?? any better than yesterday?

*spies Kahlia and cuddles* :) How are you?

*cuddles everyone else who wants them* Sorry, no epicness of a lot of individual responses right now... am feeling kind of low. :(

I have to help out at a senior (55+ years old, not high school seniors, lol) expo today for work... I have to be there at 9am which is only a few hours away and I have absolutely no idea what I am doing there. I was told that I will be "floating," lol, but I don't know what that means. :-S It's from 10am-2pm and I... oh, I don't even know!!!! I just really do NOT want to go. :'(

WoW-speak time... my night elf hunter on Grizzly Hills just dinged 31... I'm so happy, haha, because she was stuck at level 28 for the longest time!! heh. Level 30 made me happy, but now I want to get her to level 40 so she can 1) get an epic ground mount (100% faster than running on foot, instead of the 60% that the first mount gives), and 2) so she can wear mail instead of leather. More armor the better!!! :) heh.

I'm really tired... *sigh* Oh well... :-/

*hides in the warren somewhere dark, deep, and lonely* :(

*Hugs Apiril* I'm a little better than yesterday , just a little though, I'm numb today, want to cut , but yesterdays Bl*d a bit too much . I could be more graphic but I don't want to trigger anyone.

WoW wise I haven't played since the 6th ,, been too low , I am very closed to level 18 but finding westfall tough.

I haven't played WoW in ages. My game card ran out. *dies from withdrawls* I have an 80 Undead Warlock and my other most notable toon is a 37 Night Elf Hunter. I'm hoping to get back on in a couple of months. It's one of the only things that could actually keep me distracted for long periods of time.

I'm feeling pretty crummy right now. I'll be curled up in a ball if anyone needs me. *huggles to peoples*

*Huggles Wolfos* ,*Sits by Jessica curled up in a ball to keep company*

Thanks Mark. *hugs*

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Taylor*