thank you Tracie. will it ever get any easier? will i be able to forget? cause i dont want to keep remembering, i just dont.

*cuddles libz close*

I think it will get better, but you can't forget and you shouldn't forget. Forgetting just ends up being repressions and dissociation which is not good either. What you must do is learn how to deal with the bad memories and make yourself safe from now on. *hugs*

oh ok thats good. i guess learning to deal with the bad memories is the hard one, because the flashbacks and nightmares are so intense at the moment. but i am keeping myself safe now, dont want to be hurt no more.

*hugs* You're doing a great job Jo. :) You should be proud of yourself. Can you see any therapists for help with the flashbacks and all? Or maybe a mental health service that comes check on you at home? That would be good.

When I was six this disgusting girl ruined my life and abused me for months and there's nothing I can do because shes a girl no one will believe me. I want to see her suffer for what she did to me but she won't go prison. She walks free =@

*sits with darkpelt* That's really awful of her. Would you like to tell us what happened? We'll believe you. Maybe something can be done if we figure it out

My mom has been emotionally abusive to me since I could remember. When I quit a dance class she told me how fat I looked. And she always told me how she wishes I was never born and she only wants my brother around. She's never told me that she loves me except when I say it first. The only good thing that came from anything related to her was that I've never had below a B as a final mark in schooling... Still doesn't excuse her from what she did...

A girl at my school who I thought was a friend used me to decide if she was a lesbian or not.... And now I have been left with an lesbian experience that i have never wanted.

Emotional abuse can hurt really deep. I'm sorry your mom treated you that way. *hugs gently* I'm sorry that girl did that to you, it's horrible for her to use you and abuse you that way. *offers hugs if it's ok* You can both are more if you want.

My mom verbally and emotionally abused me for years in fact she still does even now and I'm 36.

This girl, she made friends with my one friend I had at school, she would bully me a lot and say nasty things but I continued to hang around them because I was scared to loose the one friend I had. We were all invited to a party where she decided she wanted to play spin the bottle... Everyone there were girls. From then on whenever we were alone together she would come on to me and do things... Whenever I asked her to stop she would tell me it was all I was good for.. She was trying to work out if she was a lesbian or not. But then, it was my fault for letting it happen so I shouldn't really say anything...

That's wrong of your mom Kathy, maybe if you can you should say something now. *hugs* *sits with PaperKlip* It's not your fault. It sounds like you were scared and not sure of what to do. She sexually abused you if she forced you to kiss her and touch and anything else. I bet you were embarrassed and scared of what people would think. It's not your fault.

Yea. She left our school the next year, nobody knew, in fact that was the first time I have ever said it. Is it wrong to wonder what has happened to her...

Of course not. When people have a big impact on our lives (good or bad) we wonder about them.

I just hate the way I can remember some things but others I just can't. I hate how I let her do that to me. I hate how pathetic I feel for not being able to get away from it. I just wish it hadn't happened. I wish I could do something that would wash all the feelings and memories away.

I can't tell her anything she never wanted me born in the first place so I know she won't listen to me.

my momy irl didn wan me. she do all kins buse a me. she dead. she die few years go. her fault. cassy bad lady to. she go jail. she bad person. theys gin she hurt more then mee. she not dead. my sissies irl... theys bad sometimes. they meanies. do bad tings.

*doodles in sketch book* me lik doodle.

my mummy didnt want me either said i ruined her life, i think thats why she hurt me to try and ruin mine too.
*cuddles libz if ok*

is k do.
you not ruin her lif. she jus do you. youse not bad. we wans you. you lovely. lots.

*cuddles close*
thank you baby that means a lot right now. you lovely too.

youse welcome.
not give up.
me know youse gons sleps irl now.
love you.
has good nit.

my sister she hit me alot and did other bad stuff to me

*biiig saf hugg to skittles* cans say more if wans. thas not nice her. or good.

she also said very hurtful things to me and did other stuff to

thas not nice *nice hug if k* she gone now meaning dont see or talk her really now?

For first time in two years , saw my abuser in my hometown. She still lives 3 minutes from my house *feels ill* :(:(

*hugs darkpelt* make sure stay way then. k? if she come by n stuf maybe cal police so she go way. youre safe now.

*hugs back* don't see or talk to her anymore

thas good skittles. she cant hurt or do bad things or say mean things. but stil hurtss wha she did im sure. it be k. youre safe now. right?

*nods* does still hurt always thinking about things she said and did
*nods* am safe now

i think tha goes for most people. ever had or tried or in therapt or counseling? maybe that might help.

*nods* i going to see a therapist but not sure i really want to

lots people scared n not sure if realy wans sees one. theys can help though.
is jus an option. don has to

i don't know if want to don't really want talk about what she did

sorry

its ok. most people don want bring those things back up.
dont need be sorry. its ok. *hug nicely*

*hugs nicely back* not got alot of words tonight so much going on in my head

*snugles you gently* *wipes your tears* can pm me if want.

why did she want to hurt me why, why?
i cant deal with this
im sorry

cause she mean person. thas why.
you can do it though. promise.
big struggle but can do it.
love you.
*snugles you*

i dont think i can do it though
im falling apart
*snuggles into*
love you too

we think you can do it. we know youse can is strugle though.
believe in self.
say someting positivee bout self everyday an try believe it.
or look in mirror at seelf and say somting good bout self.
*rock you lil bit in my arms*

we think you can do it. we know youse can is strugle though.
believe in self.
say someting positivee bout self everyday an try believe it.
or look in mirror at seelf and say somting good bout self.
*rock you lil bit in my arms*

keep thinking about all she did want to stop thinking about it

know wha you mean.
same here.
try do something nice. or do favorite hobby or mind games lik crossword or sudokus or something. might help
*hugs*

*hugs back* yeh i try that but don't seem to help guess could try again

theres not realy a... 'cure' gues could say.
may sound mean or something but... jus gotta try push trough n ignore it best can really

don't sounds mean is ok

couldn figure out how word it and first way sounded kinda rude but then thoughta that so said that stil jus incase.
*snugles you*

*snuggles you back* is okay didnt thinks was mean rude or anything like that *hugs*

just wish coulds stop seeing her in my head wish could make her go away

hey lil sis just keep thinking about how better your life is now and that she can't hurt you any more. think about how kelly has changed your life so far and the things that you can do now that you couldn't when with the big meanie. try to stay positive sis. im so proud of you and you have come so far *cuddles you ever so close and kisses your nose*