*checks self in and sits in a corner*
every single one of my "friends" has their life more together then I do apparently. and every single one of them has something negative and not at all helpful over the fact that we're going to be living in a car in three months cause we can't afford a f-king apartment.

Hello all. We're back here because things are not going at all well and we're scared of.... everything. Just going to curl up in a corner and hope we can disappear.

*makes blanket, quilt and pillow fort and hides from the world*

offers kahlia some hugs and additional pillows and blankets for the fort

*checks in, sees many full corners and sits alone against a wall* Hope you'll don't mind, but I just need a safe place to chill for a while. I'm overwhelmed with way too much on my plate right now. :(

*sits next to kelz*
I can move if you wanna be alone. Just here to offer people comfort today.
*hugs anyonevwho wants it*

Ur fine. Ty. Just a rough week. I can't seem to make anyone happy. Feel like I should just hide away... bc I'm not safe alone.

*rocks bk and forth* I think I'm having a mental breakdown. I can't do this. It's too much. I can't have this much crap and keep standing. I just cant.

*squeezes kelz tight*

Thank you. I had to hold the hand of my dying grandmother and tell her goodbye last night. I've known for months this was coming. She has terminal lung cancer. I avoided going to see her because I didn't think I could handle it. She didn't look like herself, she didn't know who I was and she couldn't respond to anything.

I've also had to deal with false allegations of abuse against my nephew who admitted to the investigator that he was coached on what to say and how to say it because his dad is angry over me helping his mom (they are in the middle of a divorce). I'm a wreck. This is the only place I feel like I can fully let loose how I feel without fear of hurting someone else or being judged harshly for wanting to hurt myself.

***hugs kelz***

sorry i dont have much support to offer to many of you others in need rightat the moment... im kinda in a really bad off place myself right at the moment. just figured id check in and see if theres room for one more lost confused tortured soul to maybe get a little hug or at least some understanding

We're all a walking mess here, Caiden. *hugs* Support is just in knowing we are not alone in our struggles.

*curls up on the ground crying*
Why is it that it keeps coming back? I'm sick of being an adult.

I'm sorry, hun. I'm here if u wanna talk.

*curls into a ball in a [seemingly] never ending flood of tears*

Why do I have to keep seeing his face in my mind?
Why do these memories rear their heads right now?

Please, let me find some peace....

Please stop my head going. I cannot cope with these thoughts and memories.... I'm collapsing in on myself and l don't know where to go to stop them. Why did these memories have to return now??

*builds pillow fort and huddles inside*

I... I don't know.
Just I can't deal anymore.

Here to listen if you need to talk Ktanaya.

My head is spinning, so close to switching but... I can't. Too much. Too many people. Too hard. Just... please, stop.

*curls up with Bear, a pillow and a blanket for the night*

Things are just too hard right now, its so overwhelming and I just want it all to go away... but its not and being compounded by the Voices. I wish I could make it all go away, but no...

*sits on the floor and stares at the wall*

Sounds like a mental health version of the flu is going around.
I'm still wrong. Too much crap in my life makes it impossible to ignore the voices.
Pitiful wreck I am, I won't do anything.

Blah... another night of chaos... I wish it would all stop and go away...

*sits on the couch*

I need to start being regular with my meds. My girl is Driving me mental. It's not her fault.
I'm sick and she's sick and she's two and a half and she doesn't know better. It's one in the morning and I ran away from her and sobbed, cos I cant stand her crying.
Nothing ever gets better really. Something always comes and stuff it up.
* sits in the corner and tries to behave*

Getting closer and closer to the anniversary day and desperately trying to hold myself together.... I just want to give up and switch but none of us are really coping. At least I'm half way through my ECT treatments, but each day is getting harder and harder to cope - to not just check out and throw the next few days away.... My head just won't stop.... Please.... just stop.

Room for 1 more :(

Frankie - there's always room in here for one more person. *safe hugs if you can accept them*

Tonight I'm really not coping. Since the anniversary my mood has been dropping further and further until I reached the eternal black place. Now I'm extremely suicidal and Jillian (my nastiest voice) is screaming about how much better this place would be if I did just destroy myself. My husband wants to do the best for me including not leaving me on my own but he does have to sleep. Right now I don't even know what I want to do but that happens. *sigh*

I'm just going to curl up in my pillow fort with my teddy bear and cry myself to sleep. *sigh*

Not dead. Was ok and busy. Now not stable. And not sleeping.

Is there room for one more? really not coping with everything at the moment. Been having more and more rough days lately.

clobo - please, come on in and find whatever you need

Ktanaya - *safe hugs*

So sick of being down. It would be lovely if the manic side of my illness kicked in and gave me a break because I'm really sick of being screwed in ways that don't end in an orgasm. Would really love some damn sleep but even that doesn't seem to be helping at the moment. *disappears into her pillow fort with Bear*

This is the only place I feel safe right now x :-(

Why am I fighting so hard, what's the point... *curls up in the corner*

Less stable. Sleepless. But ever so exhausted...

hi is there room for an extra one please because I am struggling a bit right now. thanks. gets duvet and a couple of pillow's and curls up in the corner. I hope everyone is ok.

hi is there room for an extra one please? as I am struggling a bit right now, Thanks, takes duvet and a couple of pillows and curls up in a free corner.

Hugs all *hugs* take care of yourselves x

Never enough... still feel as bad... stupid

*pokes head round door* popping in cos i feel like everything is going on too fast around me. and to also drop by to give everyone some hugs :)

Bit nutty tonight. Brains a-racing. Cant type it all, fingers not co-operating with brain. Also can't figure out how to spell what I wanna write. Plus it wouldn't make sense to anyone but the fairies in my head. So it's kinda pointless attempting.
Random impulses, does anyone get them. I just spent half a shift wanting to flash someone; anyone really. Not the best look for a nurse. Didn't. Did voice that I had the urge. Fortunately understanding work partner.
Just noticed my sentence structure becomes abrupt when I'm Like this. Abrupt is a cool word.
And now I should stop. Just post it.
*hugs the guest. And anyone else who wants it. I'll try to hold off the excessive enthusiasm*

*applauds urge to flash*

:p @ Matthew.
Obsessive random impulse today is to eat blutak. FML
they are so strong. It feels as tho someone's forcing themselves into my head and trying to take over.

Well rather blu tak that what you mentioned in your pm. Ahem. *shudders*. Get some rest xx

Can't sleeeeeep....

Clowns will eat me.....

:thumbup:

The pixies took my brain today.
I'm at work and they stole it. Ii get by on routine well enough to fool them, but scratch the surface and I'm not there, or is it here? I don't know.
It's all fuzzy and fluffy round the edges and it scares me

It's started... I don't know how it's going to end...

Hello all.


Mood dropping rapidly. Both my husband and I are screwed up right now. Our hot water system died giving us a massive electricity bill and we can't pay our normal, weekly bills. The price of everything goes up but our pay doesn't....

Depression, switching, voices, and the list keeps going and they keep getting worse. I just want to die. To finally be in peace.

*disappears into her pillow fort*

checks in to hide, can't believe i'm here again, 18 moths after total discharge and i'm struggling again. need to find somewhere safe, this looks like a good place to start

Fml. Over it. Not a danger, don't worry. Just need some peace to build the facade.
I wish I didn't have to hide.

Can't switch off. I need to. I have an exam tomorrow and I need to study more....

Hiya. Welcome back, I hope we help and that your safe. What was your old name? Sorry stuffs made you feel like you needed to return, but we also like people who've recovered, or are recovering or have relapsed, or feel as though they are about to relapse. Or even those seeking ideas to help loved ones. Or those not necessarily ready to recover.
Sorry if I am a bit... Ok I need to stop typing.
Buttttt.... I'm an oldie too and I returnEd. It's helping. Better being here than considering ways to hurt myself when I'm still awake at two am. Or four am. Or whenever. Even if I just lurk and not post.
Ok. That's enough now.

Cant. Hides.

*hugs raining*
Do you want me to guard you from what youre hiding from? I'll try.