Letter

[Misunderstood.]

I have sent a letter to my ex fiancee asking for her to send back my engagement ring and I have sent mine to her as in mine that she gave me and asking for her to send back hers that i gave her.
aside from the fact that the ring i gave her is very expensive i feel like maybe it will bring closure on things.
she was taken back before i had to leave her mum and hers place when i gave her her ring back so i let her keep the one i gave her and vice versa but since i have found out its not the way its meant to go.
sorry its hard to get this to make sense. i am told that the fact shes been keeping the one i gave her as an engagement ring is maybe making her think we could get back together in the future.
im wrecked with nerves and stress about this tbh but iv sent the letter and rele nervous bout her reaction cos i dont feel upto communicating with her atm but know i need to to get it back. the longer i leave getting it back might be worse for her as well?
wish i knew how to write more clearly about about this sort of thing i.e the engagement and break-up.
i realise it might not seem very urgent, it isn't. it's always playing on my mind.
am going to try and talk to harry about it when i go to his in glasgow but men don't seem to get it quite the same as women understand plus everything tends to seem 100 times worse apparently cos of the bipolar.
not begging for sympathy just is good to soundboard especially with ppl who have more experience.

[Casper_Fading]

*cuddles* i just wnat you to know i'm thinking of ya honey, i hope it goes okay and that you get the ring back with no fuss!

[Misunderstood.]

ThankYou veryvery much =))
My mum thinks I've got it here already so I hope she doesn't realise what it is when / if it comes thru the post cos she'll know I was lying about having it in my room tucked away. I just didnt want it raked up as mum was hell bent on me bringing it with me when I left the exes. I just wanted to do things my way though. I did lie tho and mum will be angry about that if she finds out.
So I have the ex and possibly mum to deal with. I rele do hope there's no upheavel. I don't think I could manage dealing with it.
HArry said the the ex probly wont give it over easily, i hate it when he says things like that cos i worry even more whats going to happen. It'd be police involvement for theft,..he said. Think his imagination gets away with itself as bad as mine.
The ex does glorify and love an argument if she can get one. I just hope she will see that this is a practical matter. I need the ring for the money it'll bring by me selling it plus [i didnt say this bit to her] everytime i think that she has the ring i feel angry. shes just cut me off completely since i left. mebbe this is her way of dealing with it but i see it as cowardly. i didnt ask to rake things up once i left. just an acknoledgement to my attempt at contact mightv been nice. but i gave up tryna contact her months ago.
its like shes just got rid of everything about me and taken what she can i.e the ring. but i know i might just be thinking about that negatively. she said to me that the ring would always be special to her.
but why want to keep it and be put out when i went to swap them back. mebbe it is just the ring itself she is bothered about.
Harry sed she has it as an ego boost and wears it to pretend shes engaged [should i stop listening to him? lol] but shes not derranged. i rele dont think she'd do that. she prob has it in its box away in her mums room where i last knew where it was.
after her and i were split up but i hadnt left the house yet there was a few days where i kept my engagement ring on and i sed to the ex that this was bcos i was used to pushing it back with another finger on my hand as force of habit as it was now a bit too big plus "stuff" and she just repeated,..like i had said "stuff" as if she knew damn well as i had meant it was an array of things i didnt feel like explaining right then, i couldnt, didnt even feel able.
i also sed to her that i would wear it for the rest of my life [ive since taken it off obviously, id taken it b4 i left but didnt think i could at that point, ..ever] and she replied - "good". tho she knew we were split up right then. that that was it. she was / is a very confused woman...and iv rambled alot here so ty for reading. its helped to type all that epsecially knowing that ppl might give me their take on it too instead of going in my rant / vent thread.

[Snuffles]

*hugs sweety* hope it goes well, thinking of you as well xx

[crazykat]

*cuddles* Thinking of you, hope it all turns out ok

[Misunderstood.]

TY,..I hope so too.
Well I'm making sure I'm up when the post is here everyday from now on. So it didn't get here today and already I'm worrying that she won't bother sending it. Harry sent her a card saying that it's not just her and I involved now, it's him I'm talking to about it and he also added that's he's been talking to my mum about it but that's a bit of a lie.
Well I guess for one thing it's good I'm getting up as soon as mum tells me I need to get up for my meds. Main reason I wanna be up when it gets here is so mum doesn't have much time to guess what's in the envelope or package and then know that I was lying about already having it.
Just want it here and done with. IT's causing me such nerves and stress and anxiety. I have enough of that anyway.

[Snuffles]

Awwww *cuddles* I hope it comes soon then xx