told hubby

[Merc]

told hubby the obvious
i have a problem.
bigger problem is
i dont care
i LOVE the way i look
He thinks i look ill...so do friends and ppl t his work, one even asked if i was sick.
i dont see it
i'll never see it
he said eventuslly he willleave.
so there it stands.
I dont remember much of what we said..took my damn pain meds so im hazy.
but i finally admitted it
big deal

He understands why which is good
but what we once had is going...i come in a room, he leaves...we sometimes have fun together, lke coffee together the other nite was fubn...but...

now what??

I only eat one meal a day, i HAVE ALWAYS only eaten one meal a day, i dotn exercise...so how do i magically put weight on?...weight i hate nd dont want...FAT.
stop skipping meals for starters...thats a start huh?
no point tpo this really
sorry to take up posting room
romp

[Merc]

finally got where i wanted and ..poof...i have to give it up....

well

better than slowly dying.
I suppose.
romp

[Casper_Fading]

Oi. Now you listen to me romp. You aren't giving up. You've hit yet another speed bump. Bastards are all clumped together in one spot! Like a really straight road you want to zoom down real fast and the council has put all these speed bumps in your way! That's what these are. I have a question. Are you really happy with how you look? If it's making your hubby unhappy and you're getting unhappy because of it, that isn't happy. Try eating two meals a day. Brekky and dinner. Nothing huge just a bit. Make that effort and see how it goes. You should build up a little. From the sounds of it, you're never going to be big but if you put on a little maybe you'll be even happier with yourself and your hubby will be happy too. Don't give up honey, your'e strong enough to beat this!

[Tears of Solitude]

Honey,
I care beyond words and I know what a fighter you are. Im so happy that you have shared this with your Hubby.

You have already did the hardest step, and thats admitting you have a problem. Sharing it with your Hubby. What a fighter you are.

I am always going to be here for you to help you fight. Im here for you.
Your like family to me.

Love Jade xxx

[Merc]

thank you, Jess, always. You're damned sspcial :o)

And thank you , my dear Jade, i wouldnt be here without you. I hope you got the email (havent chkd if u wrote back...no rush babe!)
I love ya (and im gonna miss you...its a 4 month , 'open-ended' program)
Dont know how i'll do wothout our daily chats *cries*
romp

[Merc]

what if they just laugh? Or fob me off?
im so scared
romp

[blondiebear]

They won't laugh or fob you off!

[dark_light]

Think about what you said to me about accepting help... it really made me think.
Sounds like you know you need help.
They won't laugh, if people say you look ill then they will see it too.
I hope you get the help you need xxx

[Merc]

thank you Jo, yopu gave me a thought to hold on to.
thank you for that.
Plss take crr...i'll come back everyonce in awhile and update...after 4 years...i cant just totally walk away
lov ya
romp

[chocostashchick]

honey i am so proud of you for everything you are doing and how brave you have been
the first step and hardest is admitting you have a problem and you have done that be proud sweetie
and none of these people would laugh at you or fob you off you need help and you are ill and they will take you seriously
good luck at the program honey
stay strong! i hope you can update at times