I Can't Believe It's Been this long.....

[pea soup]

since my father died.
today makes 8 months.

im having a lot of conflicting feelings. ive listened to all the songs we played at his memorial.

i have a flannel shirt that i got out of his trailer before they took it off.

im going to make something out of it. i need fabric and im going to cut squares out of the shirt and make something resembling a quilt. ive never sewn before so i reckon im about to learn, lol.

i dont know if i will keep it or give it to a family member.

my body is physically ravaged. i had a flashback earlier this morning and last night i passed out on the kitchen floor. i think my shoulders took the blunt of it because they hurt like mad.

anyhow...im just still trying to process this whole mess about my father. surely i will one day?

thanks for listening.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[effervescence]

yes honey you will one day.
frankly, if my father died, i don't know how i'd feel. my best friend's father died suddenly recently and i can't help thinking, it should have been my father, not hers
but yes, i think making something out of the shirt is a good idea. practical for you, and therapeutic.
you will get this sorted out in your head, with time.

[blondiebear]

Uh, from the perspective of a sewing teacher, make a pillow instead of a quilt. It is much simpler. And let the button placket of the shirt be where you put the pillow form in. Measure the shirt before you pick out a pillow form. If you want to make a quilt, i'll help you with that too.

Okay, let me take the teacher hat off...

I'm sorry that you feel so bad. Grief takes what it takes and it sucks!