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[brap_brap]

hi im 19 years old i been self harming for 3 years. Two of cousin found out a wee while ago. On friday i was at home at my parents house and they found out that a had a knife in my bedroom and we had a huge arguement and a fall out about it. I txted one of my cousin about it the day after cose my phone was dead and she txt bk and we spoke about it for a while and she asked me if i had a doctor and i said yeah where my parents live (300 miles away) and she txted back saying go to the doctor the next time yer up and if ye want me to go the the doctors with you just ask. But im scared because when i had the arguement wiv my parents they said they will lock me up and i will lose my job. Im scared that my parents are right and i dont know if i can just now. I want to stop with help because im been fighting it for years and i cant beat it. I think my cousins wants me to go to the doctors but i dont know what would they asked me

[pea soup]

hi there...
*snuggles*
i think going to the docs is a very good idea.
you have admitted that you need help and they can help you.
im sorry i dont have much to offer.
much love.
xxxxxxxxxx

[Merc]

firstly, they WILL NOT lock you up...i had that fear too. *hugs*
Is there anyway of seeing a doc closer/sooner??
Give your parents some time to get over the shock of it...unfortuantely they responded with anger, which often happens as they are so very frightened and prolly know nothing about it(SI) and a re blaming themselves
might be an idea toprint some reading material off and send to them
i hope they respond better in time, when the fear/shock subsides a bit
pls take care and pls keep us posted ok???
romp

[brap_brap]

thanks for the advice. Not really because i dont know whats the best doctors is and i trust the ones where my parents live. I will post some information about it

[chocostashchick]

it's okay that you don't know what doc to see - that is what referrals are for
i think going to see your doc by your parents' place is a good plan, if you are going to be in the area sometime soon because it seems far for you. otherwise you can make an appt to see somebody near where you are now, or a doc/counsellor at your school or work if you have either of those, or you could see somebody at a clinic or anywhere really and just say that you are looking to get a therapist. if you feel brave and up to it, you can give them the specifics (ed, sh) and they can better refer you.
once you see a therapist they basically just ask what you do, how often, and you and your family's medical history.
you say that this has been going on for years and you can't beat it, but that isn't true. it is all up to your choices, and if you think you can beat it and are willing to keep fighting it you so can!! lots of people have battled this for years and recovered, and others haven't but those are the people who give up and you clearly are a fighter if you are even considering this and had the courage to post on here (i know posting this stuff takes a ton of courage it took me months to first post after a couple of years of occasional lurking haha)
also, your parents can't have you locked up
it isn't their decision, even if they tried
people don't get locked up for this alone, Romp is right
and most likely you wouldnt lose your job either, that is a form of discrimination
if it doesn't affect you fulfilling your duties, if you are still showing up and doing your work, they have nothing to worry about and dont need to know because this is private health information
i really hope you call a doc, somebody, and get some help sweetie
your cousin sounds a dear, take them up on the offer to go with you!
keep us posted
xxxooo
callie

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I dont have a doc or a counseller at my work. Im going back home in april. I think i will take her up on her offer but i know i will chicken out of it

[blondiebear]

If you have your cousin there with you when you make the appointment, then ask her to go with you to the appointment, the you won't be able to not go.

[brap_brap]

Ok i will thankye

[chocostashchick]

hey you won't chicken out because your cousin is rooting for you and you will have all of us here in vets standing behind you!!!!
april isn't far away - good luck!
keep us posted :)

[brap_brap]

thankye i will keep u guys updated

[chocostashchick]

yay! if anything happens between now and then feel free to have a good whine here and rant about it, and we'll cheer you on!

[brap_brap]

Ok i will