The Pain and the Blood

[~*forever_broken*~]

I've had the urge lately to put my hand through the front window. Today I cut again. The main reason, I think, because I wanted the pain... I wanted to feel the blood run down my arm... Please, tell my I'm not alone. Tell me I'm not the only one...

Ugh, I just want to die... Why can't I? 'Why is light given to those in misery, and life to the bitter of soul, to those who long for death that does not come, who search for it more than for hidden treasure, who are filled with gladness and rejoice when they reach the grave? Why is life given to a man whose way is hidden, whom God has hedged in? For sighing comes to me instead of food; my groans pour out like water. What I feared has come upon me; what I dreaded has happened to me. I have no peace, no quietness; I have no rest, but only turmoil.' (Job 3:20-26)

[blondiebear]

I understand. I too have no peace, no quietness, only turmoil. From the time I wake up until my meds, taken as prescribed, help me sleep.

I want the pain to punish myself for being needy. But what I see as a defect of character, others see as just being human.

I almost died in an accident when I was 15 and sometimes I still wonder...

You're not alone in feeling this way.

*brings a first aid kit*
*wraps you for a girlfriend cuddle*

[sparklyshoes]

You aren't the only one who has felt this way mate. Its hard to get through it but there is more to life than cutting. You can do this, you can get through this. Good times are just around the corner if you can hold on and be strong. We are all here to support you x

[chocostashchick]

*huge hugs for you sweetie*
you arent alone
not even close

and that's all i can offer right now but i send you massive snuggles and support