So alone...just need a friend.

[ontheverge]

I always seem to end up back here.

I am so incredibly depressed and suicidal right now. I just don't even know what to do. I called out from work today and have the whole day alone. Which feels like both what I need and DON'T need. I'm safe...too depressed and afraid to actually kill myself if that at all makes sense.

I guess I just came here...I've been reaching out to my online spots...for a friend. I'm so lonely. So pathetically lonely right now.

If anyone wants to just talk in this thread? or chat or something? Anywhere? I'm hoping for someone around my age (32). We don't have to talk about anything serious....I just need a friend. I'm queer, obsessed with lots of tv shows, youtube, animals. I love Harry Potter. Things I'm dealing with in my life right now: bipolar, stopped taking meds, loneliness (duh), therapy and whether it's working for me, PTSD, cutting again after quite a break....yeah...so that's about that.

Feel free to delete, I know this probably isn't the intention of the Veteran's Board....I just, I've been involved with RYL off an on for years, and I'm old...and I'm so uncomfortably depressed right now that I'm at the point where I'm trying to reach out.

Thank you for reading.

[Sketchy]

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. Are you able to talk to your therapist about it?

Im 35 and willing to chat if you like.

[Eir]

30. Bipolar. Willing to chat. Just a bit off lately. Why did you go off meds?

[angel of despair]

Hey,

Iv often felt similar to how you feel lately. With the lonliness and just wanting someone to talk to.

I love animals would definitly have more pets if i could, love harry potter (though i prefer the books) and have spent about 2 hours today wasting my time on youtube today haha.

If you want someone to talk to feel free to message

[Datura.]

I'm also very lonely and looking to chat, I love Harry Potter and live to binge watch tv shows!
Depression, sh, anxiety & eating.
I've been doing the same, I've been a member for years but have dipped in and out and it's intimidating coming back.
If you want to chat I'm about :)
Also what's Seattle like? It looks cool!