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Margo
25-08-2016, 06:53 PM
I obsess over stuff. I don't think it's bad enough to be classed as medical but it's driving me nuts. It's starting to affect me in a negative way and I'm not sure how to temper it down.

I've always been the type of person who, when buying something new, will read everything I can on the subject, cross reference and be as clued up as I can before buying. This can be a good thing and, from experience, has been.

But now it's becoming a bit of a problem for me. It's stopping me enjoying things. It's taking away the excitement. It's making me stressed.

I've always been cautious. But I love spontaneity and this is fast becoming impossible. I say I love spontaneity but I guess I love the idea of it.

I guess the crux is I'm terrified of making a mistake or of something going wrong. In making decisions I am trying to mitigate as much as possible.

But now it's getting stupid. Now it's getting overwhelming.

In my everyday life and recovery I am trying really hard to follow the mantra of "getting it right isn't key, allowing myself to learn from it is" and in some ways I'm succeeding. I actually love learning from mistakes. It's something I never did before and now I find it fascinating. But things are going wrong here.

I think this all sounds ridiculous. And reading back I've almost deleted this.

I'm not sure what to do? I find it exhausting. I don't sleep thinking about it.

I wondered if anyone else obsesses ?

Kathryn_Anna
26-08-2016, 12:37 PM
I do too. I research everything I can before buying, or seeing someone. I Google and then Google some more just in case I missed something.

And I love spontaneity too but more the idea of it than actually doing it.

I wish I knew of ways to help you but it's relatively new thing for me and I'm not even sure how to handle it. Much love your way though, I get it. <3

Margo
26-08-2016, 09:23 PM
Thank you. Never ever put us in the same room together!

Its so tiring

Margo
04-09-2016, 05:39 PM
Do things go wrong because you did bad things?

I can feel paranoia coming on. Im convinced it's because I've done bad things in the past. I try and be good as much as I can but I feel it's all going to come crashing down because I've been bad and it will all go wrong because of it