Eir
01-04-2016, 06:12 AM
I've finally admitted in therapy the biggest obstacle to my well being, my relationship and life in general.
It's my conflict aversion that's causing cognitive dissonance
My partner is a paranoid conspiracy theorist. As such, he believes the Wakefield study, and other conspiracy theorists. I'm studying to be a nurse. He has final say over the choices made for our daughter because I have a deep seated need to placate people. He reckons he'll home-school her. I feel that neither that nor the health choices he has made for her are what's best for her.
He would flip out if he knew I was medicated. It's all demons to him and will power.
He was good for me, and apart from the issues a wonderful father. I do care for him. He's not an adult in many ways. He also tends to be suicidal at times.
I knew he had issues. I figure he wants someone to blame for his inability to cope with being an adult. Originally it was his father, now it's the 'system'.
I'm not looking for advice or judgement about the the relationship. I will eventually leave. What I want is ideas on how to cope with revealing it.
Telling someone has really rocked me when I already wasn't stable. I'm massively triggered between opening up and my current financial situation. I'm focused on how I can hurt myself and make it look like an accident. I've got it figured out and that's bad. Cos I will do it. And then I won't stop.
Help please
It's my conflict aversion that's causing cognitive dissonance
My partner is a paranoid conspiracy theorist. As such, he believes the Wakefield study, and other conspiracy theorists. I'm studying to be a nurse. He has final say over the choices made for our daughter because I have a deep seated need to placate people. He reckons he'll home-school her. I feel that neither that nor the health choices he has made for her are what's best for her.
He would flip out if he knew I was medicated. It's all demons to him and will power.
He was good for me, and apart from the issues a wonderful father. I do care for him. He's not an adult in many ways. He also tends to be suicidal at times.
I knew he had issues. I figure he wants someone to blame for his inability to cope with being an adult. Originally it was his father, now it's the 'system'.
I'm not looking for advice or judgement about the the relationship. I will eventually leave. What I want is ideas on how to cope with revealing it.
Telling someone has really rocked me when I already wasn't stable. I'm massively triggered between opening up and my current financial situation. I'm focused on how I can hurt myself and make it look like an accident. I've got it figured out and that's bad. Cos I will do it. And then I won't stop.
Help please